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I am starting a blog so I can vent about things. This way I hope to avoid out bursts similar to my recent posts in my Borderline Personality thread. I feel like a failure in my life. I made it a point in life never to get a divorce. Now I can't find one reason to continue with that goal. I married a woman who has a personality disorder. I have tryed to accept that her behaviors are related to that disorder, but it still means that her behaviors are unacceptable. I have lost a great deal of perspective because I allow myself to expect my needs to be important to her, and they are not. When we rationally discus them she says they are important to her, but when she lives her life...Tags: None
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Member of the Month Dec 2014, Feb 2017
Wishful is weeping happy tears again. Thanks, I love you. Cunning indeed.
Member of the Month Dec 2014, Feb 2017
The hard part for me is that I had come to terms with divorce, and I preferred that to staying married. I have never "broken up" however and we Dont seem to know how to do that. Anyway coming to the brink of divorce and actually trying to get the relationship ended has sparked her to promise a different course going forward.
I have agreed, and I am now trying to find my way back from divorce to married. In my heart. I won't do this without trying to be fully vested, but I find it hard as I am afraid. Nothing in life approached from a place of fear can be 100% successful, and I think that is especially true of a marriage. So Wishful is working to corral his heart, mind, and spirit, and dedicate them to his wife. I am trying to do this and release all negativity associated with our marriage. Seems pretty strange to let go of so much while holding on to the catalyst. I am not even sure if it is possible, but I am going for it. I can imagine nothing better than a good marriage to this woman. I hope it is not just imagination again. Oops there's the fear again. Erase, erase, erase. Wishful wins! Sounds better. Thank you for all the support, and welcome my cunning linguistic daughter.
Some may find this a strange place to bond, but I like you Dont find many politically correct restraints having much hold on my life.
Wishful is shrugging and turning himself around(again) and that is what it is all about.
I find myself more like Dontrikes tree trying to thrive in place, as compared to Jays fleet footed Forrest Bump. Look out spirit world here comes another turn around.
I might add a dozen roses has certainly gone up in price