So I went to the Gym. Only did half of the bike routine. got out about 3 miles. I was just not into it. Plus it was dumb late. I had my alarm go off, but it was about 4am before I actually got my ass up and left out.

I didn't want to go, but then I started feeling "bad" inside. I knew I had to go. Busted out on the weights... This is why I don't go late... someone hid/was using the damn weights that I use. they're an odd number so I had to use the Regular weights. I know the higher ones I stepped down from were too much for me so I went to the other end of the odd number and hit a standard number on the 5lbs scheme.

10/8 sets of curls, lawn mower pulls (way too easy), and shoulder raises. then I went to the back machine... the one that gives me the soft waves (almost orgasmic, that machine) did 10/8/6 on that with with a good amount of weight but since so many people were walking around it was kind of distracting didn't get into it like I normally do. I guess I'm weird in that I don't like to exercise when there's too many people walking around me. guess I could never be a porn star... If I have that much problem with people walking around, I know a Film Crew would throw me off my game.

Anyhoo, I'm still bouncing around my current weight. I was 224 this morning. but I definitely am a great deal smaller than I was even in even back in February. I need to stay focused as this is the only time I have, really, to focus on my fitness and nothing else other than making money.

I really want this... I want that body! I want it for me. I want to look in the mirror and like what I see... Not only accept it, but actually like it! I think I'll get there eventually.