So 6 days so far. Have not felt the urge to look at porn. Unfortunately last night gave into self pleasure. Couldn't sleep. Old habits die hard. On the porn front I am doing well. I did notice I wasn't as hard as I was. I have tried kegel's and reverse kegels. Starting to wonder if it might be mechanical as well. Read an interesting post about physical therapy which can sometimes help with that. Trigger point I think its called?

Not trying it yet. Obviously I am going to need a little more than 4 days of no touching my dick under my belt (pun intended lol) Before I can see if this is psychological or what. I think it is mainly psychological. Gonna take some time and work my way through it the same way I did with social anxiety. No longer have that now, I'm not a social butterfly but I like to go out hang out and talk to people rather than stay in and hide and avoid.

While I do find sex enjoyable I find there is a lot of uncertainty and anxiety around it. Mainly within myself. Will I get hard? Will I stay hard? So obviously I feel anxious and sometimes stressed. Stressed = boner killer and lets face it if your not confident that girl is not gonna want you anywhere near her bed.

Its not to say I can't get them there. I can, its just with all the uncertainty - why even try? Sex should be enjoyable after all.

For now I'm happy to go through what ever I go through. For me this not something that I have to overcome. For me this is not just about the end result. Its the journey and accepting and dealing with whatever comes up for me through this. I know I'll be ready when I can get hard and stay hard rather than half a night or morning wood. Its going to happen.