Yesterday was a relief. After going through the Anti-Porn 90 I was beginning to worry if I'd ever be able to get decent EQ w/o porn. I was just sitting around yesterday and the wife was napping and I was flipping through the channels. This all on day 5 w/o porn. Then I got a feeling in my pants. I was shocked. Normally I would grab the laptop, hit up the bedroom search for the perfect scene for 8 minutes and masturbate in 1 minute to finish. I told myself "nope, not this time". I went into the bathroom, got out the lube and "explored". I got a near raging EQ, and I'd give it a very confident 9/10. I explored for about 10 minutes staying at or near the 9 the entire time. It felt amazingly intense, and relaxing at the same time. I was tempted to edge, but I wanted to ensure a pleasant experience, so I just stopped at 10 minutes.

I think I may have lucked into something. In all the years I have looked at porn and masturbated I would NEVER work on the glans. The feeling was so intense it was almost uncomfortable. Well of course I had problems lasting with the wife when inside her. Talk about practicing poorly. The plus side of discovering this is I think I can get back porn-free EQ pretty quickly considering how intense and incredible that feels with the lube.

This also opens a huge door in how I can prepare myself to battle prem ej. If I can learn to practice this for longer period of times, especially with the FL I think I can get used to higher levels of arousal w/o ejaculating.

I can't imagine though how long it'll take to re-do 17 years of lousy masturbation habits.