A lot happened last month. I had a birthday, worked on myself a bit, and generally things are going well, though I'm a bit stressed. I'm putting all of this into my PE blog because its the way I've been going at PE is so fucked up.

I've been lying about my measurements.

It probably started without me knowing, pushing the ruler in at the side of my penis, buying a metal ruler and covering the end so I could push it in even further without pain.

After that it was no longer innocent. I was doing it and I knew it. Not consciously enough to bring it out in the open, but I knew. To conspicuously ignoble this problem would mean threatening my identity as a fast gainer. I wanted to be someone who gained without hesitation and continued to gain. In the end, I wanted it bad enough to lie to myself and others just to preserve that identity.

I even wrote an entire post on how I "gained 1 inch". It took my 7 days to write the entire post.

Anyway, I corrected the problem. Here's the new plan as it stands early October

[ P.E ]

Write new plan, goals, be honest
I have been dishonest about my gains. To solve this problem, I am using the P.E. gym as a tool to only create my life and not as my life. The plan is to continue PE for as long as it takes to reach my goals.

Least P.S to learn:Perseverance,

Maybe, I will go back to the gym and be completely honest, but I think only using the site as a tool from now on is necessary.

Decide whether to go back and figure out and estimate how much I gained and when.

Measure BP and NBP for more honesty,all BP measurements are from the public bone.

As far as I know I started at 6.75BPEL and 5.00/5.25NBP x 5.10 on May 1st I have reason to believe that this is an accurate measurement.

It is now late September and I am measuring 7.00 NBP and 7.50 BP lying or sitting down with hips jutted out, straightened with hand, pumped with blood. Ruler is supported by finger but not held or forced down in any way.

I am going to measure at my hardest to track gains. I will not be counting my BP length as my said length, only as a tool to help track gains. NBP length will be what I think of myself as.

Measured girth: Just below head 4.9,mid shaft 5.1 and at base 5.1.

Goals for project: Be conferrable with my sexuality, body, know what I have to offer, get good at sex, get better at the process of Projects, to have a big dick, increase project skills, and enjoy life.

Ending stats: 8.00NBP by 5.8/6.0 midshaft and base with below head not more than .2 inches behind. Maintain. Enjoy!!!

It feels good not to lye to myself, all over a made up image. I'm not sure of I learned anything here or not. I'm not sure if I won't lye to myself again and I know for a fact that I'm sitll lying to myself.