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Hi guys.. Okay i try to make it as short as possible.. And sorry if my english lacks a little.
About 7 years ago i had an injuri on my penis during rough sex. I was high on drugs so even though i felt some pain i just continued which was very stupid cause when i woke up the day after my penis was curved a little to the left side and more painfull. After the injury my erection ins't as hard as before, glans don't get fell up with blood like before, harder to maintain erection - needs constant stimulation, underside of penis is soft, feeling that penis being "disconnected" from the body and so on. The thing is didnt even pay attention to the fact that i just injiuered my penis and problably should have leaved it alone for a while. Sometimes i freaked out about it and i read a little here and there but i never got wise on what really happened and sometimes it just made me more confussed. Ever since the injury 7 years ago i noticed that me penis rarely get 100% flaccid, it's like it stays in a stage between 100% flaccid and semi erect if that makes any sense? Sometimes when i'm peeing and touching it it is about to get erect. When i exercise, take cold showers, being outside in cold weather or when i'm nerveous and jittery it can get small and flaccid but most of the time it stays like that. And it's also hard in flaccid stage, not all the time but it's maybe 30-70% of the time. It varies alot actually. I never had problems with pain until about 2 months ago where other symptoms also seems to had worsened. I have been depressed about 3 years which leaded to drug abuse of opiates, benzos and cannabis. In the time i was addicted, my penis didn't really borther me much and i never freaked out or constantly worried about like i did before, i even got a girlfriends an had a pretty great sexual life with her. My erections haven't been good since the injury but i was still able to have sex and when i was really horny i could still achieve an "okay" erections in missionary and doggy positions, so it was something i could live with i guess.
So.. i went to rehab in april to get clean and detoxified from alle these substanses. Everything went fine even though the withdrawals were pure hell. But about 2-3 weeks after i got clean i suddenly began to experience servere sharp shooting pain i the penis shaft that comes and goes and just general discomfort almost all the time, i also noticed that i got some white lines/scars/something that goes almost all the way around the penisshaft just over the bottom. I had "ever-ending" erections that were there all night, sometimes i woke up multiple times a night and i was erect every time, i had to stand up for a few minutes to get down to semi erect. I couldn't (and can't) go for long walks without getting erections i my pants which make my penis more painfull and unformfortable and leads me afraid of doing more damage and this is even when i walked with soft pants and loose underwear. The veins on both sides on the shaft has also swelled up and it looks like i might also have some "blocked lymph vessel" or something. My depression and anxiety went through the roof and that didn't help my situation further i know, but it is just so hard not being depressed, anxious and afraid because of the pain and all the other symptoms. It just became too much with all these symtoms and the anxiety/depression so i leaved the place, so here i am now back on opiates, that is problably one of the only thing that calms me down in this time. My doctor called me last week after i had some bloodtest and told me that i have thyroid problems - my metabolism (T4) is too high and maybe i has done some of the symtoms worse.. i can only hope. I just started medication for it and will have some other test for it in a couple of weeks. I have been into alot of bodybuilding the last couple of months and maybe it has also done things worse, thigtened up the pelvic floor and making the HF worse resulting in more penile pain/discomfort maybe.. I'm only guessing. I have leaved bodybuilding for a couple of days planning to take a week break to see if it's gets better. The pain/discomfort and the hard flaccid is still there but has gone a little better since i got home and got some peace, but i know it can take a turn fast. Two days ago i walked some normal distances and driving a bus, i could feel how the vibrations from the bus made the sharp pain severe again almost instantly. I'm so sad and depressed about this, it has really taking over my life now and has stopped me from living and doing totally ordinary things. I avoid so many things because of this, i will do anything to just make it better and make the pain dissapier.
I dont know if any of you know anything about or can recognize some of the things i experience. Maybe some of you know what i can do make it better? I have read alot about HF and some other things and theres so many fact and solution-theories that it is just leaves me too confused. I'm sorry for the long post. I have never ever speaking og writing about this, just going with all this in my head for many years now. its somehow nice to let it all out
Thanks guys!
About 7 years ago i had an injuri on my penis during rough sex. I was high on drugs so even though i felt some pain i just continued which was very stupid cause when i woke up the day after my penis was curved a little to the left side and more painfull. After the injury my erection ins't as hard as before, glans don't get fell up with blood like before, harder to maintain erection - needs constant stimulation, underside of penis is soft, feeling that penis being "disconnected" from the body and so on. The thing is didnt even pay attention to the fact that i just injiuered my penis and problably should have leaved it alone for a while. Sometimes i freaked out about it and i read a little here and there but i never got wise on what really happened and sometimes it just made me more confussed. Ever since the injury 7 years ago i noticed that me penis rarely get 100% flaccid, it's like it stays in a stage between 100% flaccid and semi erect if that makes any sense? Sometimes when i'm peeing and touching it it is about to get erect. When i exercise, take cold showers, being outside in cold weather or when i'm nerveous and jittery it can get small and flaccid but most of the time it stays like that. And it's also hard in flaccid stage, not all the time but it's maybe 30-70% of the time. It varies alot actually. I never had problems with pain until about 2 months ago where other symptoms also seems to had worsened. I have been depressed about 3 years which leaded to drug abuse of opiates, benzos and cannabis. In the time i was addicted, my penis didn't really borther me much and i never freaked out or constantly worried about like i did before, i even got a girlfriends an had a pretty great sexual life with her. My erections haven't been good since the injury but i was still able to have sex and when i was really horny i could still achieve an "okay" erections in missionary and doggy positions, so it was something i could live with i guess.
So.. i went to rehab in april to get clean and detoxified from alle these substanses. Everything went fine even though the withdrawals were pure hell. But about 2-3 weeks after i got clean i suddenly began to experience servere sharp shooting pain i the penis shaft that comes and goes and just general discomfort almost all the time, i also noticed that i got some white lines/scars/something that goes almost all the way around the penisshaft just over the bottom. I had "ever-ending" erections that were there all night, sometimes i woke up multiple times a night and i was erect every time, i had to stand up for a few minutes to get down to semi erect. I couldn't (and can't) go for long walks without getting erections i my pants which make my penis more painfull and unformfortable and leads me afraid of doing more damage and this is even when i walked with soft pants and loose underwear. The veins on both sides on the shaft has also swelled up and it looks like i might also have some "blocked lymph vessel" or something. My depression and anxiety went through the roof and that didn't help my situation further i know, but it is just so hard not being depressed, anxious and afraid because of the pain and all the other symptoms. It just became too much with all these symtoms and the anxiety/depression so i leaved the place, so here i am now back on opiates, that is problably one of the only thing that calms me down in this time. My doctor called me last week after i had some bloodtest and told me that i have thyroid problems - my metabolism (T4) is too high and maybe i has done some of the symtoms worse.. i can only hope. I just started medication for it and will have some other test for it in a couple of weeks. I have been into alot of bodybuilding the last couple of months and maybe it has also done things worse, thigtened up the pelvic floor and making the HF worse resulting in more penile pain/discomfort maybe.. I'm only guessing. I have leaved bodybuilding for a couple of days planning to take a week break to see if it's gets better. The pain/discomfort and the hard flaccid is still there but has gone a little better since i got home and got some peace, but i know it can take a turn fast. Two days ago i walked some normal distances and driving a bus, i could feel how the vibrations from the bus made the sharp pain severe again almost instantly. I'm so sad and depressed about this, it has really taking over my life now and has stopped me from living and doing totally ordinary things. I avoid so many things because of this, i will do anything to just make it better and make the pain dissapier.
I dont know if any of you know anything about or can recognize some of the things i experience. Maybe some of you know what i can do make it better? I have read alot about HF and some other things and theres so many fact and solution-theories that it is just leaves me too confused. I'm sorry for the long post. I have never ever speaking og writing about this, just going with all this in my head for many years now. its somehow nice to let it all out
Thanks guys!
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