Arousal or tight pelvic floor muscles

[15yrsED Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close 15yrsED]

As some of you may know I have HOCD (I hope) in which I have ocd about being gay. I grew up masturbating about women but when ED hit me age 19 , I worried being gay was the cause age 25. Im 35 now and still have ED and still worry about being gay. Its horrible. I havent had 1 100% erection in over 11 years. I was diagnosed with venous leak.

Anyway when I see men now I feel anxious and get a strange feeling in my groin. I dont know if its arousal or tension. It feels like my perineum swells or inflates a little and feels taught. But no blood flows to my penis and if I start to masturbate it takes ages to get it to 70% hard.

Is this arousal or subconscious clenching of the pelvic floor due to anxiety when I see a good looking male?? For the record I have never been with a guy nor want to and never kissed a guy nor want to.

I have slept with 4 women although with 70% erection hardness.


I have almost forgotten what proper arousal feels like tbh. I havent felt right since 2001 and cant get it up fully masturbating with thoughts or porn.

I had a blood test taken last week and hope to have the results today or tomorrow regarding testosterone,

[Rishu Member Find all posts View Profile Close Rishu]

You are not gay...either one is or one isn't.one can be bisexual but you are not that too otherwise you would have known...
When I had my penis Injury one and a half month ago and my penis went dead, I also started having these thought which didn't scare me though but thoughts like these came to my mind..seeing men in underwear ads made me think like "will I get a hard on if I fantasize this man" etc etc..but those were only because I had lost my erection..
It's all in your head..you are not gay or bi..if you are worried then don't...