At my wits end! Help please? Complete ED, loss of libido, HF

[AmbitiousGrower Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close AmbitiousGrower]

Hi All,

First and foremost, I want to say that Its honestly taken me so long to write this post as I just didn't have it in me. With everything that I've gone through, It's hard to find the motivation to do anything to be honest. I've been going through this for years now without much improvement at all and I would be GREATLY INDEBTED to you all on this forum if you could help me out please because I need my life back. I haven't looked through the ED section of this forum yet but will do so after opening this thread. Here goes.

Back in 2013, I started to feel pain on the underside of left testicle. Got an ultrasound and a varicocele was confirmed. For years, I had the typical varicocele achy pain as well as shooting pain in the left testicle. From 2013 to 2018 I still had the pain but was still able to function (no ED, still had high libido and was still able to have sex).

Fast forward to mid 2018 when everything started to go down hill. I started to notice that I was losing my libido quite drastically. I would have sex and it just wouldn't feel good anymore. I started to lose sensation in my penis. I ended up getting an MRI of my pelvis and the results came back as follows:

"Extensive bilateral varicoceles extending into the pelvis and bilateral pelvic sidewall. There are multiple enlarged vessels seen within the bilateral sidewall of the pelvis. This most likely represents varicoceles."

So from the sound of it, I have a ton of enlarged veins and vessels in my pelvis leading to bilateral varicoceles. So for the past two years, I've had the following:

1. Scrotum is achy and very sensitive to touch. As soon as I feel around my scrotum, I start to feel pain. It also feels like matches are being lit in my scrotum. Im assuming because of the varicose veins
2. Complete loss of libido. If I had the sexiest girl in front of me, it would do nothing. Its like my libido switch has been shut off. As such, I don't get aroused at all.
3. Complete erectile dysfunction. I haven't had morning wood in years. I haven't had an erection in 2 years. I can still get an erection if I forcefully masturbate but as you might imagine, masturbating without a "Want" does not feel good.
4. If I do masturbate for the heck of it to try what and remember what it feels like to have a heightened orgasm, I get a ton of pre ejaculate fluid that puddles in my hand. Not pre cum but the fluid that mixes with semen when you ejaculate. A lot of it. Erection is also of horrible quality. 2/10 and deflated quickly.
5. Hard Flaccid 100%. If I lay down, my penis hangs a bit more but for 95% of the time, its in this small contracted state with my testicles. I mean the size of a small toddler's penis and my testicles ride up into my body to the point where I cant even see them when I masturbate. Everything is "sucked in". My penis does not want to fill up with blood and just feels dead. Absolutely no brain to penis connection. I also notice a ton of shrinkage right before a bowel movement.
6. On my penis, I have this very odd "ring" on the right side of my shaft. Its like half of a cock ring underneath my penis skin. When I do forcefully try and masturbate, I see that there are 3 of these rings on the right side of my penis closer to the base.
7. Shooting pain throughout penis.
8. Veins all around penis (especially dorsal vein (top vein on top of penis)) are more prominent even in a flaccid state. Penis is filled with small branches of veins (spider veins) throughout penis.
9. Penile sensitivity is gone. Masturbation or penetration doesn’t feel pleasurable at all.
10. Semen is yellowish clear color. Consistency is very gelatin like. Not normal milky white consistency. As if the testicles aren’t working as they should be.
11. At times, It takes about 7-8 seconds for my urination stream to start. And when it does start, I get an involuntary stop a couple seconds in and then the stream starts again.
12. Post urinary dribbling.
13. I've noticed that its been harder to pass gas. I feel like I need to force more than usual.
14. Low back pain. My low back gets very fatigued if I stand for even 20 minutes. But the catch is that I cant even sit because sitting is extremely painful. As if my pelvic floor is on fire. As soon as I sit, I get this burning sensation in my glutes that extends into my hamstrings.
15. I noticed that my glutes and hamstrings go numb if I sit on the toilet for longer than 5 minutes.
16. When i stand, I notice that the muscles in my pelvic floor feel tight.

So I did a bit of preliminary research and from the sounds of it, I think I have pelvic floor dysfunction? With that being said, could you guys help shed some light on all of this and what I should do? I've noticed that my left testicle has atrophied by a good bit which is common with varicocele. Should I undergo a varicocele repair procedure to fix it?

This (and horrible gut symptoms) has absolutely consumed me for the past couple of years. I get invited to go and hang out with friends and I blow them off because I'm never in the mood to do anything. Feels like the life has been sucked out of me. All I want is to start talking to heal and start talking to girls again.

With that being said, any help would MEAN THE WORLD to me. I have had enough of this.

Thank you for your time guys!

[Pegasus AdministratorPE Gym EditorPEGym Hero ☺ Admin of the Month Mar 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close Pegasus]

Ok do this and teel how you go with it how it feels etc .

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qSr2S3MG_5I

[AmbitiousGrower Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close AmbitiousGrower]

Hindu squats make my scrotum feel better. It gets rid of the enlarged veins in the scrotum temporarily.

[Pegasus AdministratorPE Gym EditorPEGym Hero ☺ Admin of the Month Mar 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close Pegasus]

Hindi and hindu sqquats are 2 different things both worthy in their own way but it is hindi squats for this issue .

[Pegasus AdministratorPE Gym EditorPEGym Hero ☺ Admin of the Month Mar 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close Pegasus]

Ok so a physio who does male pelvic floor work is the treatment of choice .

You have pelvic floor issues which are having a range of effects including cuting nerve and blood flow to your penis .

[Pegasus AdministratorPE Gym EditorPEGym Hero ☺ Admin of the Month Mar 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close Pegasus]

Oh and since hf is usually asociated with anxiety and head issues you may need help with that also.

[Pegasus AdministratorPE Gym EditorPEGym Hero ☺ Admin of the Month Mar 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close Pegasus]

You can go to the physio for cpps and associated issues .

[AmbitiousGrower Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close AmbitiousGrower]

Thanks for all the help thus far Pegasus! Ive gone to a couple PF therapists and was given exercises to do so I guess I'll just stick to those. Im guessing itll take quite some time to return back to normal functioning. Regarding HF, I've thought of that as well but not sure what it could be exactly or who to see.

[Morterwind Member Find all posts View Profile Close Morterwind]

Hi!
- sensitive scrotum, shooting pain in penis, and loss of penile sensitivity - it all sounds like nerve issue. It will be a good idea to test your spine (MRI)
-if MSI results comes clean, start to do what Pegasus tells you.

- about libido and stress. Stress just kills libido and also drops test levels to zero. It's hard to do, but do not focus all the time on your problems. You need to find some others goal for next 6-12 months at your work, or hobby. Just make a plan on your daily exercises, nutrition and forget about force yourself to test your penis or get sex life.

[Breaker Boy Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Breaker Boy]

Thanks for the insightful and informative post. I replied because (minus the pain) I've been having many of the same symptoms as you for the past 4-6 years.

I too often have trouble passing gas, and almost always need to strain when having a bowel movement. I always wind up passing flat stools, leading me to believe there must be some problem in the muscles that are involved both the erectile process, as well as defecation.

Did you have any luck with the squats in the YouTube video, or any pelvic floor work you may have pursued? Any tips or advice on successful treatments would be appreciated. Good luck with your treatment.

[Eyeronik Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Eyeronik]

Reverse kegels will fix your issue passing gas/taking shits. I, too was walking around feeling like butt was always clenched and tight. After practicing reverse kegels for a few days, I was able to sit and use the bathroom much more comfortably.