My Story:Man of Science, Man of Faith

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Okay folks,
As sister of my flatmate had just sex in the next room I felt really bad because I missed to make a girl moan and scream my name.
Actually I went to a urologist April 2010 because I had no morning erections for a long time, I thought it might be indicator of something but he said it is nothing and prescribed me nothing. So I thought porn may have something to do but never wanted to believe because I was an addict. But now I know what I was and trying to quit. It is difficult actually and as you lack confidence you want to check yourself with porn or with hook-ups. So far for B-J I still have a %70 erection but not enough for penetration. And the think is not erection quality only but time. I can get morning woods thanks to deleting all the porn and installing a software that block adult websites. But I continued to hook ups even without hard erections and MB. To see any improvement I checked porn and I end up with MB.
But now I feel confident to go clean at least 90 days. It is difficult because I still fancy some girls in the street so I guess I have no problem with my libido, but definitely I have problems with ED. For last 5 months I hoped an improvement. thanks to god and amazing advises here I saw some improvement but it was unnoticeable. I want to penetrate not fool around. So tomorrow morning Ill go to hospital to have an appointment with my GP. To be honest I said I waited for 5 months but my longest abstinence was 12 days.
So when Ill see my GP I tell her these following things I still hope some of you can still give me an advice because for a 22 year old guy this is difficult to overcome.
-I produce precum a lot, my partners always recognised it but I thought it was normal
-I lost my morning wood earlier this year maybe even before, and lost ability to penetrate this summer where because of my graduation I had plenty of time to spend time on porn.
-I broke up with my girlfriend the day after my graduation I still have feeling to her I cant deny it
-I had another gf which I failed to perform
-I went to gym regularly and I was on a low fat diet
-I never use salt and sugar but I eat chocolate
-My grandfather died at mid 60s because of diabetes
-My father and his parents have hypertension
-No smoking and occasional drinking
-I dont drink water but I eat fruits and drink juice-but also drink tea and dark coffee

As far as I remember these are the things its in my mind. Do you guys think I might skip something that is common among ED sufferers.

Thanks and have a great year with great improvements.

[sensiti Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close sensiti]

Okay I've got my blood results and everything seems normal.(walking everyday, 22 year old, 5.43ng/Dl testesterone)
Only thing was slightly high was my prolactin levels which is 17ng/ml ::upper limit reference is indicated as 13
So what my uro said to me it is more likely to be psyhcological so I'll go to see a therapist.
But he didn't eliminated biological reasons since I've history as following. While I was having sex with my gf(cow girl position), there a sound came from my penis base, no pain no change in colour so I've always ignored, but he said that might be the reason, but also he said doppler test might be risky if the fluid would remain and ejaculated manually in the process. So I'm waiting to have an app with a therapist. Actually I always thought my ED appeared because of following reasons and facts to help what's wrong: any comment will be great
-Disappearance of morning wood: last year
-Since I was in a long distance relationship, I bought this make your own dildo thing for her before breaking up--difficulty to remain a firm erection in April while we were dating.
-Wrong technique while PEing might caused ED- I was doing June-July after break up, in fact my erections were firm
-Breaking up
-and history of watching porn and masturbation since age of 13
-Also one remarkable information is: I was able to get hard by looking at myself in the mirror( egoism:/ ) or imagining me with a girl but this ability is also gone

So, I think my uro is right and underlying reason is masturbating to porn BUT I've tried to abstain from porn(thanks to K9 software and deleting all porn, but sometimes I've watched) and masturbation(1-2 a week) for 1.5 month and I'm not happy with results. Still my erections disappear quickly.

Any thoughts, similiar facts, and motivation?

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Have you started any sort of routine (didn't read anything about you doing one in your posts)? If not, that'd be a good place to start: JP Beginner Routine

[sensiti Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close sensiti]

This is what I was doing back in August but after figuring out my ED, I've stopped to do any further potential damage without understanding underlying cause.