excessive masturbation and side effects

[gym123 Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close gym123]

hey people, i know its a taboo kind of subject but as its something that ive been through and seems to connect with depersonalization im wondering if anyone can help. Ive suffered with ocd, obsessive compulsive disorder since i was about 15, im 30 now and it has made me lose out on parts o fmy life atleast the last few years. I think the fact that im now 30 it has made me look back and it has affected me, i have missed out on things and missed out in having a sexual relationship with someone ( still a virgin) due to the ocd,. I had the chance with the onyl girfriend i had but couldnt deal with actually doing it due to the ocd and phobia mentality it had created.. The ocd started when i was15 due to the hangs up of sex and what we go through at those times which lead to excessive hand washing and other ocd type behaviour. The problems i have at the moment is that due to how my life has turned out and how th eocd has affected me with stress and missing out on things i think i sued masturbation as a coping method. I have been fine with it but since the lyast year or so up to now i have been experience symptoms which i believe might be due to the excessive behaviour. The symptoms i have been experiencing is a feeling of a blank mind and how it felt like i lost a part of myself.. It has felt like i have become unaware of what is going on in my mind and im only my senses . Ive also experienced a feeling of looseness in my body and a lack of cordination at times. Somethign else which i have experienced is a feeling of the loss of expression in ym face and neck ache although the neck ach has been less often. I have also felt a little confuzed as a side effect of the behaviour and how my feeling of connection to the word, how we feeling that connection to what we are anyalizing around us has become less and a bad short term memory. Im concerned because im worried about what i mgiht have done to myself and if i have put my self at risk of such things as dementia andhow it seems like my hair has thinned somewhat and not growing as fast as it use to as ive been someone who has been known to have thick hair and been commented on how quickly it grew. Earlier on in th eyear or before i ahve been trying to cut down on excessive behaviour but have found it difficult to do so. Im wondering what your thoughts are on this if people with depersonalization has experienced this or heard of others who have due to excessive masturbation and how they recovered. any help is appreciated.

[DoradoGold Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close DoradoGold]

Relax brother. I think you are looking for things. I think you may be a very astute person scouring yourself with a fine toothcomb looking for reasons to believe that you are inferior.. You are not. I go through very similar thought processes from time to time and suffered through ocd when I was younger. Took years of therapy before I was able to stop blowing kisses at crosses and evening everything I did.. It was weird man I feel you.

I am very glad you joined the forum. We are here for you and Ill try to help you any way I can. If you arent getting responses from others message me.

[gym123 Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close gym123]

hey thnx for being open to helping out, I have maybe been someone who hasnt believed in himself, it mgiht have been one of the reasons my health has been the way it has been. i dont know what to think really it seems like the excessive masterbation has had an affect on me. Before this year or so Ive never had experienced this symptoms before due to masturbation. It seems that when ive done it, i start to feel the symtoms not long after it such as the feeling of blankness. Im trying to cut down on it. The symptoms have stayed with me through out the year even when i havnt been doing it.