Suicide the only way to end my suffering?

[Trazohell Member Find all posts View Profile Close Trazohell]

I'm (26) dealing with hard flaccid/chronic pelvic pain/pulsating prostate for two years now. I've lost friends, girls, my life. Every day is a hell. I tried so many pro sexual supplements and stretching/relaxing exersices. Nothing, it's even a little worser than it all started in december 2017 after just 11 pills Trazodone.
I am currently getting to know a girl again, but if I lose her again, it is impossible for me to continue. The last time I couldn't get an erection with 3 cialis pills. I put it on the alcohol because i was drunk and luckily she showed understanding. But what happens next time?
My genital has become more stranger to me than a pimple on my skin. The skin feels numb and looks shiny on the testicles, like an inflammation. But the doctors can't find anything.
The testicle hangs like a from 100 year old most of the time, while the penis root feels hardened and the core feels like rubber. My libido is non existend.
WHAT IS THAT?! This condition is destroying my life, I was the horniest guy

[IcebergLlama Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close IcebergLlama]

Look into an implant. Go to<removed> for a lot of helpful information and resources.

I have severe ED myself and am just coming around to accepting this could be my future at 28. I have a lot to live for and be thankful and I'm sure you do too. The implant seems to have a high satisfaction rate and women don't seem to mind.

Do NOT kill yourself. Happy New Year.

[HansTwilight Retired ModeratorPE Gym Editor Member of the Month Jan 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close HansTwilight]

Suicide threats are taken very seriously here and are not allowed.

Anxiety and/or depression can have a profound effect on both our personal and professional lives. It also can significantly affect our sexual performance.

This sub-forum was created as a place to discuss the challenges anxiety and/or depression causes in our daily lives. In addition, we hope this will also be a place where members can find support and understanding.

Please, if you are thinking of harming yourself, call 1-800-273-8255 or visit National Suicide Prevention Lifeline - 24 hours a day/7 days a week.

Here are some helpful links, please utilize them.


How to stop catastrophizing
Self Image & Self Esteem



We have plenty of links for treating CPPS, please read them. If you have any questions please PM me. I wrote them and was a sufferer myself. It is treatable

The HANS Protocol
PF Dysfunction and CPPS- Mental or Physical
The Necessities of “Pelvic Floor Health Awareness”
A pelvic floor physiotherapist is also not a bad idea, if you can find one.

Please get help.

[Dangler Senior Administrator☼ Wizard ☼ White Tiger Award 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close Dangler]

This forum is not equipped to handle suicide-oriented discussions, and it is not appropriate that we do so. Please understand that we all want to be helpful.... but this sort of thing is best dealt with by professionals.


To any member in need: if you are having thoughts of suicide please call [US] 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or visit National Suicide Prevention Lifeline - With Help Comes Hope for immediate assistance.
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

A list of suicide prevention hotlines for each region and country.
http://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/

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[Pegasus AdministratorPE Gym EditorPEGym Hero ☺ Admin of the Month Mar 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close Pegasus]

I wrote a recent article on the cuting edge of medical treatment/physio for hard flacid/cpps . The mental side of treatment is important the physical side a male pelvic floor physio deals with.

[JohnnyTooBad Member Find all posts View Profile Close JohnnyTooBad]

I've felt the same way buddy. My sexual life is destroyed which makes me feel like there is nothing to live for. I'm 27 and have had a life-less penis for about 6 years now. Although I'm still hopeful, I just don't see the light at the end of the road.

[Piscean Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Piscean]

I have lurked here since the days of Obitoo after getting hit with HF in May of 2013. I made a profile a while back but only pop in occasionally as I tried to put this past behind me. I don’t generally comment but I had to here. Don’t hurt yourself. Hans and Pegasus are correct. I too went to the uros. The therapists. The psychiatrists. My life was ruined by every hf symptom in the posts. As of THIS writing I have recovered and you can too. My lil fella at one time was like a white lego glued to my crotch. No sensation. No erection. Unearthly anxiety. Just 2 a couple nights ago I was better there than at any point IN MY LIFE. I read and reread posts by Pegasus and Hans. Twice a day I started doing 45 minutes of pelvic floor stretches , deep Hindi, then Seated , heels together pulling my face to my feet. Then Knees to chest. Then On my back , feet together pushing my knees down to the side. And REVERSE KEGELS.
For the mind I screen shot countless success stories and read them daily again and again. Only success. None of the fear mongering. Even if you have to get off this site after you have screenshot all the success stories you need to keep in your file. And now , still doing the 45 minutes twice a day , I’ve been recovered. My worst day back then was trying to get an erection and only the bottom half filled up. The top half was just ,, dead. I was having the thoughts you are now. This , as Hans and Pegasus say , is only a symptom NOT a full on forever condition. You have to get rid of the anxiety which is driving it and then exercise the pelvic floor which is the physical manifestation. You will recover your life, As I did thank God. Literally.
Now man up my friend. Do your stretches twice minimum daily. Do your reverse kegels and read ONLY success stories ,, nothing else. Don’t check it every ten minutes. You will heal. I promise you.

[HansTwilight Retired ModeratorPE Gym Editor Member of the Month Jan 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close HansTwilight]

I have lurked here since the days of Obitoo after getting hit with HF in May of 2013. I made a profile a while back but only pop in occasionally as I tried to put this past behind me. I don’t generally comment but I had to here. Don’t hurt yourself. Hans and Pegasus are correct. I too went to the uros. The therapists. The psychiatrists. My life was ruined by every hf symptom in the posts. As of THIS writing I have recovered and you can too. My lil fella at one time was like a white lego glued to my crotch. No sensation. No erection. Unearthly anxiety. Just 2 a couple nights ago I was better there than at any point IN MY LIFE. I read and reread posts by Pegasus and Hans. Twice a day I started doing 45 minutes of pelvic floor stretches , deep Hindi, then Seated , heels together pulling my face to my feet. Then Knees to chest. Then On my back , feet together pushing my knees down to the side. And REVERSE KEGELS.
For the mind I screen shot countless success stories and read them daily again and again. Only success. None of the fear mongering. Even if you have to get off this site after you have screenshot all the success stories you need to keep in your file. And now , still doing the 45 minutes twice a day , I’ve been recovered. My worst day back then was trying to get an erection and only the bottom half filled up. The top half was just ,, dead. I was having the thoughts you are now. This , as Hans and Pegasus say , is only a symptom NOT a full on forever condition. You have to get rid of the anxiety which is driving it and then exercise the pelvic floor which is the physical manifestation. You will recover your life, As I did thank God. Literally.
Now man up my friend. Do your stretches twice minimum daily. Do your reverse kegels and read ONLY success stories ,, nothing else. Don’t check it every ten minutes. You will heal. I promise you.

Congratz on your success!!
If you like, you can post this here:
Hard Flaccid Success Thread.

[Trazohell Member Find all posts View Profile Close Trazohell]

I have lurked here since the days of Obitoo after getting hit with HF in May of 2013. I made a profile a while back but only pop in occasionally as I tried to put this past behind me. I don’t generally comment but I had to here. Don’t hurt yourself. Hans and Pegasus are correct. I too went to the uros. The therapists. The psychiatrists. My life was ruined by every hf symptom in the posts. As of THIS writing I have recovered and you can too. My lil fella at one time was like a white lego glued to my crotch. No sensation. No erection. Unearthly anxiety. Just 2 a couple nights ago I was better there than at any point IN MY LIFE. I read and reread posts by Pegasus and Hans. Twice a day I started doing 45 minutes of pelvic floor stretches , deep Hindi, then Seated , heels together pulling my face to my feet. Then Knees to chest. Then On my back , feet together pushing my knees down to the side. And REVERSE KEGELS.
For the mind I screen shot countless success stories and read them daily again and again. Only success. None of the fear mongering. Even if you have to get off this site after you have screenshot all the success stories you need to keep in your file. And now , still doing the 45 minutes twice a day , I’ve been recovered. My worst day back then was trying to get an erection and only the bottom half filled up. The top half was just ,, dead. I was having the thoughts you are now. This , as Hans and Pegasus say , is only a symptom NOT a full on forever condition. You have to get rid of the anxiety which is driving it and then exercise the pelvic floor which is the physical manifestation. You will recover your life, As I did thank God. Literally.
Now man up my friend. Do your stretches twice minimum daily. Do your reverse kegels and read ONLY success stories ,, nothing else. Don’t check it every ten minutes. You will heal. I promise you.

Thanks man... I will try to continuine this. I hope you're right :/

[Trazohell Member Find all posts View Profile Close Trazohell]

Shit, seems like I fucked me more up.
After lubricating a warm muscle ointment in my pelvic area and sleeping at night in the draft, I woke up the next morning with a kind of sore muscles in my pelvis and pain in my left leg.
But it can also be DCT exercises that I have done, which I believe less.
I was so optimistic in early December, I had some libido and erections back, and now I have more difficulties than ever. The last bit is gone now, even my sperm is now yellowish with bubbles.
Everyone says you have to relax and a simple muscle balm makes me worse?
That doesn't make sense because I actually feel more loose fown there.
Maybe the warmth has sparked something in the prostate?
It's been over a month now without improvement and I need advice :/

[CUSP82 Administrator Admin of the Month Dec 2014PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close CUSP82]

How about doing nothing for a while and I mean NOTHING!

[Pegasus AdministratorPE Gym EditorPEGym Hero ☺ Admin of the Month Mar 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close Pegasus]

Physio routinely deal with cpps.
Therapist for the catastrophizing

[Trazohell Member Find all posts View Profile Close Trazohell]

How about doing nothing for a while and I mean NOTHING!

Because no one with real hard flaccid/CPPS will cure from NoFap.
Another guy that got it from Trazodone still had it 6 years later in his last post. And he did nothing. No Physio und no drugs/herbs.

[HansTwilight Retired ModeratorPE Gym Editor Member of the Month Jan 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close HansTwilight]

Shit, seems like I fucked me more up.
After lubricating a warm muscle ointment in my pelvic area and sleeping at night in the draft, I woke up the next morning with a kind of sore muscles in my pelvis and pain in my left leg.
But it can also be DCT exercises that I have done, which I believe less.
I was so optimistic in early December, I had some libido and erections back, and now I have more difficulties than ever. The last bit is gone now, even my sperm is now yellowish with bubbles.
Everyone says you have to relax and a simple muscle balm makes me worse?
That doesn't make sense because I actually feel more loose fown there.
Maybe the warmth has sparked something in the prostate?
It's been over a month now without improvement and I need advice :/

This sounds like anxiety, are you able to ejaculate?

[Trazohell Member Find all posts View Profile Close Trazohell]

Prostate/pelvic pain, hard flaccid, low sperm qualiaty & count, ED, no libido and weak orgasm are Anxiety? Lol
However, I can ejaculate.