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So im at work and Im bored, ive whined to you guys to the point where the majority of posters who's opinions i respect probably try to ignore most of what I post. Same can be said about the people around me. I am always thinking and to be more specific solving problems or figuring things out in my mind. Even things that do not effect me. So I talk a lot about problems and the reasons why, but after awhile people get annoyed and its like shut the fuck up already, which is understandable. Which brings me to my point, in order to avoid annoying you, or my friends and family, i was looking for a helpline. Now im 23, with no extreme addictions (back to smoking weed daily but i dont think i can phone the addiction people and expect to be anything other then humored) im incapable of suicide (suicide is simply natural selection at work, its on the rise cause we had to go and invent things like seatbelts).
But at the same time, in the past month ive lost my license(my own fault), my house, my job security (still have renovations business, but the hotel/bar i was working at got sold and everyone is getting laid off and re-hired at minimum wage). My Grandfather is sitting in my parents living room starving to death as he goes through the final stages of i think three different kinds of cancer, (he hasnt eaten in like 5 days at this point so i figure two weeks at most) and the business of my ex phoning me and putting my head through another shitstorm.
The painting business I run employs my father and pays his mortgage, so this is also a lot of stress. I also live with my sister so loosing our place meant finding somewhere for her to live too. and theres other shit too that im forgetting.
OOH like my lymph nodes are swollen AGAIN so im waiting for the results of yet another biopsy to tell me whether or not i have cancer.
Now i have solved all these problems that are solvable, talked licensing people into a work permit (owning a business really helped here) found a new house (pretty hard with no license or job security but i did it) have a 16000 sq ft warehouse to paint alongside a few residential houses, next month, and I think I may have actually figured out why I was in love with my ex which may have freed me from the misery she causes.
But damnit i wanted to talk about this shit, and there is no one for someone like me to call, which brings me to my other point.
They have so many hotlines for so many different things, but nothing for an over 20 male who's alone figuring things out for himselt. I just think if you helped people in situations like mine, we would have a lot less people turning to drugs, popping out children they cant take care of or killing themselves upon the realization of their insignificance.
Now ima go smoke a bowl before i take out all the stress ive accumalated on the next poor undeserving idiot who walks in to by beer.
P.S this is all because a girl asked me how my day was going and I held back the urge to give her an honest answer, I laughed and said i was happy to be alive, but i think she got it.
But at the same time, in the past month ive lost my license(my own fault), my house, my job security (still have renovations business, but the hotel/bar i was working at got sold and everyone is getting laid off and re-hired at minimum wage). My Grandfather is sitting in my parents living room starving to death as he goes through the final stages of i think three different kinds of cancer, (he hasnt eaten in like 5 days at this point so i figure two weeks at most) and the business of my ex phoning me and putting my head through another shitstorm.
The painting business I run employs my father and pays his mortgage, so this is also a lot of stress. I also live with my sister so loosing our place meant finding somewhere for her to live too. and theres other shit too that im forgetting.
OOH like my lymph nodes are swollen AGAIN so im waiting for the results of yet another biopsy to tell me whether or not i have cancer.
Now i have solved all these problems that are solvable, talked licensing people into a work permit (owning a business really helped here) found a new house (pretty hard with no license or job security but i did it) have a 16000 sq ft warehouse to paint alongside a few residential houses, next month, and I think I may have actually figured out why I was in love with my ex which may have freed me from the misery she causes.
But damnit i wanted to talk about this shit, and there is no one for someone like me to call, which brings me to my other point.
They have so many hotlines for so many different things, but nothing for an over 20 male who's alone figuring things out for himselt. I just think if you helped people in situations like mine, we would have a lot less people turning to drugs, popping out children they cant take care of or killing themselves upon the realization of their insignificance.
Now ima go smoke a bowl before i take out all the stress ive accumalated on the next poor undeserving idiot who walks in to by beer.
P.S this is all because a girl asked me how my day was going and I held back the urge to give her an honest answer, I laughed and said i was happy to be alive, but i think she got it.
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