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[phil88 Banned Find all posts View Profile Close phil88]

i was having a dream where I was giving the eulogy at my brothers funeral and then my sister woke me up and informed me my grandfather had passed away this morning. Today is my brothers birthday. I cant focus this took me a long time to write and I cant remember what i was thining about.

[second lensman Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close second lensman]

I'm still smarting from the loss of my brother. Hopefully yours' is doing well. Sorry about your grandfather. I never knew either of mine.

[islander Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close islander]

Sorry for your loss. Maybe grandpa wanted to remind you how important life is and to make a point to be with your brother. I had a dream where I saw my best friend playing baseball. He was so happy and had all his limbs. In real life he was missing one. I turned to my left and I was sitting in the stands with his mother. She was smiling. She walked down to the field right thru the dug out fence and onto the field and hugged him. I ran down and the dug out fence stopped me. My friend walked up to the fence and we kissed thru the hole in the fence. They smiled and walked away. I woke up and called his mom right away. Her husband answered and I said where is she what happened. She had died of a heart attack the day before. The day of the death was her sons death anniversary.
Believe in those visits.

[IHaveAHugeNick Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close IHaveAHugeNick]

My condolences to you and your family, Phil. Just remember, this too shall pass. The pain will eventually fade to a dull ache. I wish I had some advice or something to add, but there's really not much to say after someone looses a loved one.

[Going411x7 Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Going411x7]

So sorry to hear about the loss of your grandfather. I loved mine dearly.

[Pirate Retired AdministratorPEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Pirate]

I am very sorry to hear of your loss, Phil.
Thank you for sharing with us.
That means a lot.

[phil88 Banned Find all posts View Profile Close phil88]

im not in any pain yet. after writing this yesterday i jumped on my bike and went driving around the city. Then I came to and i was with her in her car and she was driving me home. I zoned out at a light and someone who knew me saw me and i was unresponsive so they phoned her. Everything still feels really dreamy and I am running through why and I cant figure it out. I am very very tired but not sleepy. I keep zoning out and I cant focus on my thoughts.

[phil88 Banned Find all posts View Profile Close phil88]

now nothing matters except physical desire. Its so wrong yet so much fun. I want it, I go for it, and fuck everyone else. Mine. Very fun but cant last forever.

[phil88 Banned Find all posts View Profile Close phil88]

nothing produces results like anger, rage and shock. You should see me work out lol, its scary.

[TheSperminator Member of the Month Oct 12 Find all posts View Profile Close TheSperminator]

Sorry to hear from your loss :s .. Be strong