Enlightenment :)

[faithandhope Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close faithandhope]

Hey everybody. I've had a very long, tough life. But I am truly enlightened, and I wanted to get all of this off my chest. I feel free as a bird. I finally hit rock bottom!!! And boy, how powerful it really is. I learned alot from it. I have hope now. And faith . I can finally be happy.. I took an objective look at my life and realised I almost had nothing left in the line of family and friends, and this truly fixed me. I found myself I am happy. I am loving life. I love my family. I love my friends. I love PEgym. I love you all. I am still crazy, but then again I am not!! I am so ready to finally live my life for Me. I wanted to thank you all, you have all played a big roll in my recovery by simply letting me come on here and express my feelings when it seemed that no one was around to listen to me. I hope you are all happy, and happy for me like I am. I could go on forever and ever, but I am going to cut myself short and leave with a thank you and a blessing. Everybody say a prayer for my grammy in the hospital, she is dying a slow death. But she is so positive. I looked her in the eyes and told her I loved her, and the happiness I brought her with those words were truly irreplaceable. She is happy to finally give up and let the cancer take her away, and I am happy for her happiness. It was very sad though. She looked at me and coughed and says "Ow, my neck hurts. I just want to feel nothing. I am happy to let it take me away so I can just feel vacant." I was crying, but it also made me laugh. Laugh and cry out of true happiness. I can understand the light at the end of the tunnel, and she is on her way there

Thank you everyone, Happy PE'ing, and God bless you all <--Coming from someone who is 100% Atheist, those are powerful words.

The funny thing about this Enlightenment is, it was drug induced!! I honestly and truthfully tripped myself into reality Who says drugs can't be fun?!

[Wolfemother Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Wolfemother]

Cool!

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

Cheers brother, cheers! Live Happy

I lost my Grandmother to cancer some years back, and although I do I miss hugging her and talking with her, she's my wonderful Guardian Angel

Keep your head up bro

[faithandhope Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close faithandhope]

Thanks fellas

[Qarzan Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Qarzan]

Can I ask what drug this was? My guess is that it's either ecstacy or mushrooms. Not trying to discount your experience, since drug-indued enlightenment is still 100% valid enlightenment.

From my experience, enlightenment is a roller coaster. There are times when I'm up, and there are times when I'm down. It's not just a sudden cracking in the shell and then I'm free. It's more like the weather: some days are sunny, and other days are cloudy.

But please know this: you are exactly where you need to be, always. If you're down, you're meant to be down; be sad, feel alone; relish it, because it is the experience of life. If you're up, feel up; be happy and free. And, don't ever be afraid to express how you feel.

Congrats, bro. I'm happy for you.

[faithandhope Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close faithandhope]

Can I ask what drug this was? My guess is that it's either ecstacy or mushrooms. Not trying to discount your experience, since drug-indued enlightenment is still 100% valid enlightenment.

From my experience, enlightenment is a roller coaster. There are times when I'm up, and there are times when I'm down. It's not just a sudden cracking in the shell and then I'm free. It's more like the weather: some days are sunny, and other days are cloudy.

But please know this: you are exactly where you need to be, always. If you're down, you're meant to be down; be sad, feel alone; relish it, because it is the experience of life. If you're up, feel up; be happy and free. And, don't ever be afraid to express how you feel.

Congrats, bro. I'm happy for you.

It was DXM. It is a disassociative found in cough syrup. It causes brain damage that truly makes you emotionless. You can kill people, cut your arm off and not feel a thing. I almost jumped in front of a train, honest to god. I can understand retarded brain dead people now, they aren't stupid but they just CANNOT feel there emotions. It is a sad thing.

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

It was DXM. It is a disassociative found in cough syrup. It causes brain damage that truly makes you emotionless. You can kill people, cut your arm off and not feel a thing. I almost jumped in front of a train, honest to god. I can understand retarded brain dead people now, they aren't stupid but they just CANNOT feel there emotions. It is a sad thing.

Sounds kinda like LSD. Watch that shit bro, being emotionless would kinda suck

[faithandhope Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close faithandhope]

Sounds kinda like LSD. Watch that shit bro, being emotionless would kinda suck

Yes, and at the same time not suck. It just hurts everyone around you. I know to watch it out, I had a spiritual awakening man! Crazy. No more guilt, shame, depression. I realized that the selfish people around me have been hurting me for years and I've had it all bottled inside me because I blamed myself for them being fucked up. I just got caught up in the insanity, but how can anyone blame me? Isn't my fault I was born into a family of drug addicts who do fucked up selfish irresponsible things

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

Keep standing tall brother!