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Hello everybody,
I’m welcoming myself back.
I am returning to this forum after a long break. I started PE in 2013 and went at it diligently for 5-6 months. I had great initial noobie gains in both length and girth. I was doing my variation of the JP90. At some point when the length gains plateaued I figured it was time for hanging. I did all the research I needed and purchased the proper equipment. In the back of my mind I was nervous with all the wrapping and attachment points and tightness, etc.. I was scared I was going to have irreversible damage. I gave it a shot and soon I fizzled out mentally. Shortly after I got the feeling Inside that this was all feeling more like a chore. I was already very happy with the gains I had made. I stopped PE and I went on a sexual rampage with my new tool. I was much more confident; visually and with my performance.
To me, that’s what PE was always about, being satisfied with yourself. We all come from different backgrounds, age, size, lifestyles, goals..
Satisfaction. Why are you here and what makes you satisfied?
I wanted confidence. I was always shy and pessimistic about myself. I learned I was average (in terms of size; cuz I’m super special yo) and that the roadmap is in front of me how I can create something bigger.
Now fast forward some time, I had already grown my dick approximately an inch longer and half inch wider, I got a girlfriend in beginning 2014 that ended middle of 2017. Let’s say that self evaluation is what I’ve learned from that experience. Everything was great, I even started some PE again in the beginning of our relationship to improve my size for her (i didn’t last long, so my 2nd chapter never had much in it as far as exercise... but boy did I learn a lot). My now ex had always loved my cock’s size and she made me feel like my initial PE efforts was worth it all. But I forgot to check my ego. My head grew too big (no pun intended) and the confidence lead me to being promiscuous behind her back. I kept everything a secret. I didn’t realize I was dying inside from hiding my shame from myself and everyone in it.
Why are you here ?
You see I got what I wanted from PE, but I didn’t know where it was taking me. I became someone I didn’t like. I never felt so low of a person for the pain I caused in others. Having to face yourself after you realize all this was your own doing is one of the hardest things I had to cope. I’ve learned and grown so much in the process. I’ve learned to love myself again and show compassion to others’ needs.
Why am I back ??
After breaking up with the ex and having everything surface and then working on myself.. I reminisced the beginning of PE when I started and everything was so fun and new. I loved being one with my dick and appreciating all the gains that came my way. Back to the drawing board as a single man I can do whatever the hell I want. So I thought, okay back to building a beast. (This was back in October 2017) I was more eager to jump in a routine and not do my research like the first time. Yeah I thought remembered everything and knew it all... I realize I didn't. I came back to this forum to look up what people are posting about since I haven’t been on in over 3 years. I read through the start of my progress forum and thought, damn I’ve changed so much as a person. It hit home to me and had me ask the question again... why do I want to do this ??
I am reincarnated with a different perspective. I want to embark on another successful journey to grow my unit more. I have goals in mind, but I want the fun of the journey again more so. Not ever feel like a chore like I made it become on myself. I know gains are harder for me now, but I’m committed to consistency, patience and always check my ego and know where I stand with myself.
So any old or new faces want to start a discussion, I’m happy to be back here. I have a new girlfriend and she is very special to me. I am completely open (except PE lmao) about myself and the highs and lows I experienced as a human to be where I’m at now. Her understanding and non-judgement gives me such a wonderful sensation that I want to be as much as I can for her. For me to PE now, it’s More than the size of my penis, more than sex, more than the confidence it brings.
It’s the satisfaction and success I feel that everyday I am capable to grow as a human in anyway I desire. I’m incorparating this into my life again because it fits a piece of my puzzle, I truly enjoy it as a hobby.
... I will soon update my chapter 3 of PE in my old progress formula. I’ll let you guys know there my current stats and what my routine now consists of (all manual PE).
Anyways, thanks for listening.
-MM
I’m welcoming myself back.
I am returning to this forum after a long break. I started PE in 2013 and went at it diligently for 5-6 months. I had great initial noobie gains in both length and girth. I was doing my variation of the JP90. At some point when the length gains plateaued I figured it was time for hanging. I did all the research I needed and purchased the proper equipment. In the back of my mind I was nervous with all the wrapping and attachment points and tightness, etc.. I was scared I was going to have irreversible damage. I gave it a shot and soon I fizzled out mentally. Shortly after I got the feeling Inside that this was all feeling more like a chore. I was already very happy with the gains I had made. I stopped PE and I went on a sexual rampage with my new tool. I was much more confident; visually and with my performance.
To me, that’s what PE was always about, being satisfied with yourself. We all come from different backgrounds, age, size, lifestyles, goals..
Satisfaction. Why are you here and what makes you satisfied?
I wanted confidence. I was always shy and pessimistic about myself. I learned I was average (in terms of size; cuz I’m super special yo) and that the roadmap is in front of me how I can create something bigger.
Now fast forward some time, I had already grown my dick approximately an inch longer and half inch wider, I got a girlfriend in beginning 2014 that ended middle of 2017. Let’s say that self evaluation is what I’ve learned from that experience. Everything was great, I even started some PE again in the beginning of our relationship to improve my size for her (i didn’t last long, so my 2nd chapter never had much in it as far as exercise... but boy did I learn a lot). My now ex had always loved my cock’s size and she made me feel like my initial PE efforts was worth it all. But I forgot to check my ego. My head grew too big (no pun intended) and the confidence lead me to being promiscuous behind her back. I kept everything a secret. I didn’t realize I was dying inside from hiding my shame from myself and everyone in it.
Why are you here ?
You see I got what I wanted from PE, but I didn’t know where it was taking me. I became someone I didn’t like. I never felt so low of a person for the pain I caused in others. Having to face yourself after you realize all this was your own doing is one of the hardest things I had to cope. I’ve learned and grown so much in the process. I’ve learned to love myself again and show compassion to others’ needs.
Why am I back ??
After breaking up with the ex and having everything surface and then working on myself.. I reminisced the beginning of PE when I started and everything was so fun and new. I loved being one with my dick and appreciating all the gains that came my way. Back to the drawing board as a single man I can do whatever the hell I want. So I thought, okay back to building a beast. (This was back in October 2017) I was more eager to jump in a routine and not do my research like the first time. Yeah I thought remembered everything and knew it all... I realize I didn't. I came back to this forum to look up what people are posting about since I haven’t been on in over 3 years. I read through the start of my progress forum and thought, damn I’ve changed so much as a person. It hit home to me and had me ask the question again... why do I want to do this ??
I am reincarnated with a different perspective. I want to embark on another successful journey to grow my unit more. I have goals in mind, but I want the fun of the journey again more so. Not ever feel like a chore like I made it become on myself. I know gains are harder for me now, but I’m committed to consistency, patience and always check my ego and know where I stand with myself.
So any old or new faces want to start a discussion, I’m happy to be back here. I have a new girlfriend and she is very special to me. I am completely open (except PE lmao) about myself and the highs and lows I experienced as a human to be where I’m at now. Her understanding and non-judgement gives me such a wonderful sensation that I want to be as much as I can for her. For me to PE now, it’s More than the size of my penis, more than sex, more than the confidence it brings.
It’s the satisfaction and success I feel that everyday I am capable to grow as a human in anyway I desire. I’m incorparating this into my life again because it fits a piece of my puzzle, I truly enjoy it as a hobby.
... I will soon update my chapter 3 of PE in my old progress formula. I’ll let you guys know there my current stats and what my routine now consists of (all manual PE).
Anyways, thanks for listening.
-MM
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