Realized my size isn't enough.going through depression cause I was cheated

[lavalava Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close lavalava]

Hello guys ....I am new to this site....i am also a member of ************* ...I wanted to send you my story exactly like i sent it to ************* ...

I ‘ve been lurking for about 2 months after my tremendous brake up I had with y beautifulex girlfriend who cheated on me with my best friend and now they are together.

Since the break up I am on antidepressants (ssri’s) and struggling to find out what I’ve done wrong in our short relationship(5 months).I realised it was my penis size that couldn’t satisfy her though she was telling me the opposite.

I am about to months into PE now following the JP90 so I can enlargeme penis by about 1 inchlenght and 0.5 girth .that’s my goal to fight my insecurities created by this relationship .The thing is I follow the newbie routine now with 5 minutes warm up with hot water 15 min stretches 15 minutes jelqing and a little edging for about 30 minutes after PE session and finally 5 minutes warm down.

The thing is I just can’t feel the stretches nor the jelqing and I am feeling that my ligaments are so tight that they just can’t stretch, every time I make a PE session I feel that I am wasting my time.

As for PI’s I don’t have much to say because I have all the neutral PI’S the only difference is when I stretch I feel my glans burning a little but no stretching feeling anywhere on the shaft or the base and when I finish my session my penis is bigger and hangs lower for about an hour and that’s it .

My stats are Height 6,1 feet 211 pounds and my penis size is 6,1x5,8 inches NBPEL - 7 inches BPEL - 3,9 inches NBPFL..

I could really use any help and I am sorry for my short thread but I am at work right now .Sorry for the bad English too .I am GREEK

[closed291 Retired ModeratorPEGym Hero Member of the Month June 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close closed291]

Welcome to the forums and thank you for sharing.

You stated the following:

I realised it was my penis size that couldn’t satisfy her though she was telling me the opposite.

I'm curious...How did you come to the realization? What made you come to this conclusion? Could there has been other factors beside size that came into play (e.g. lack of communication, lack of romance, etc)?

[lavalava Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close lavalava]

Ok....thank you for your reply...i will copy paste a message i wrote just to give you a taste of what things made me realize that...I don't know if it is bad to write it here....but on ************* the members are trying really to help me out...I just am so desperate.. ok,here we go:I am 29 years old …My ex girlfriend who cheated with my best friend she was acting strangely and distant from week one ….Also she was cting towards me with a lot of love when we where alone home ,but a kind of disrespect among others …I was always make excuses to myself for her behaviour but deep down i knew she just disrespects me ….I was asking her why is she so sad all the time and she eas telling me ”i am not sad ,i this is how i am ” …She was lying for the simplest thing to me …She was wearing her ex -boyfriend’s underwear before we go to bed after we have discuss for her ex boyfriend who she was chatting with him…..she was telling our personal things to some ”friends” and to my ”best” friend and i didn’t know anything ..When her friends were coming to town to stay for 3-4 days she was dissapearing like she didn’t want to be with me …but she always made an excuse and i believed her….She was working late and never left a little early from the job …..And all these from the first fucking week ….So don’t tell me it was not the sex ….Do you know how it is to realize that all the people surrounding you (and your best friend) know whats going on and you don’t know everything ????Do you realize that i was talking to my best friend for all the matters and he was fucking her at nights when she wasn’t coming home ????and then he was coming the next morning for coffe to the place i work?do you believe i wanted to end things like this ….To be in a severe depression …to have zero self respect and feeling the most inadequate man on the planet every morning i wake up till i sleep as long my best friend fucks my girlfriend on their new fucking apartment and they are all happy ???And my fucking friends who i know for 10 + years telling me ”get over it ” ”its not the end of the world” and things like this but they hang out with them at events and i am the one whos been cheated …..best friend betrayed me ,my ex girlfriend too and THEY supporting them only because they are having a good time with them ….I came here just to write my situation and be helped to continue PEing because YES that is my problem …MY size ..If i can fix it i will be more confident ..That is what i believe.i just wanted help with my routine and some tips to try to overcome this …Haregar doesn’t even believe when i say… what i saw….You can’t change your mindset when you can’t find any other thing that made her FROM THE FIRST WEEK to act like this …Believe me i tried to find other excuses before i come to this conclusion of why she was reppeled of me ….And the irony is that she was telling me every fucking day how much she likes me that she wants to make plans with me …but she was acting so much different ….i was and am too confused to the point fooling my self that its all in my imagination ….i really can’t find any other reason to be cheated from the first days even if we were having sex everyday …as long as for initiate ….No i don’t believe it …a woman who likes sex with her boyfriend ,she will initiate sometimes because he make her horny cause of the good sex ….Me and my girlfriend were having very rough sex so i don’t believe she wouldn’t initiate sex if she wanted me ….

[mrplayer1984 Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close mrplayer1984]

1. First of all your penis size is enough to satisfy a woman and it is a good size, she was a plain ho. Women get satisfied by smaller sizes FYI.
2. Your intentions were good, she was wrong and the way i see it, she was not good enough for you. She is not worth your depression and sadness.
3. Put dedication into your routine and dont give up, it will work out. Just stay consistent, you have come to the right place and people can guide you here.

[lavalava Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close lavalava]

mrplayer1984, i know my intentions were good .....i am a mess because realizing my size is inadequate is something destructive really.....that is why statistically i can't believe i am above average....i trully believe i am small now ....

[closed291 Retired ModeratorPEGym Hero Member of the Month June 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close closed291]

I'm curious...What were the responses to your issues on Thunders' Place?

Positive? Encouraging? Negative?

[lavalava Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close lavalava]

yes ...they were encouranging ,most at the mental part....but you know ...when you know that you are small .it's very difficult to change your mindset..

[closed291 Retired ModeratorPEGym Hero Member of the Month June 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close closed291]

yes ...they were encouranging ,most at the mental part....but you know ...when you know that you are small .it's very difficult to change your mindset..

Their words will most likely match what you will receive here as well. The issue lies within yourself and counseling may be in order to overcome this. We can only offer encouragement yet the real work will come from you.

[mrplayer1984 Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close mrplayer1984]

mrplayer1984, i know my intentions were good .....i am a mess because realizing my size is inadequate is something destructive really.....that is why statistically i can't believe i am above average....i trully believe i am small now ....

your size is fine, maybe it was something else. Who the hell says 7" is inadequate or small ??

[lavalava Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close lavalava]

it is 7 bpel ....6,1-6,3 nbpel ....it matters....and as long as my expriences with women and friends ....i strongly think the average is about 6.5-7 nbpel at least....as goes for my length routine ....i am to 2 months now ....and i have a thrombosed vein like (cord) on my skin about 2.5 inches lenght from my pubic bone along the shaft and Very thin...it is white (no blood or something) and doesn't cause pain at all...only a little burning sensation if i pull the skin(not the penis)....As for my routine .....no newbie gains or something ....my penis seems like it is stiff at the ligs and tunica and just doesn't stretch

[Sticke Senior Member Member of the Month March 2018 Find all posts View Profile Close Sticke]

Hello guys ....I am new to this site....i am also a member of ************* ...I wanted to send you my story exactly like i sent it to ************* ...

I ‘ve been lurking for about 2 months after my tremendous brake up I had with y beautifulex girlfriend who cheated on me with my best friend and now they are together.

Since the break up I am on antidepressants (ssri’s) and struggling to find out what I’ve done wrong in our short relationship(5 months).I realised it was my penis size that couldn’t satisfy her though she was telling me the opposite.

I am about to months into PE now following the JP90 so I can enlargeme penis by about 1 inchlenght and 0.5 girth .that’s my goal to fight my insecurities created by this relationship .The thing is I follow the newbie routine now with 5 minutes warm up with hot water 15 min stretches 15 minutes jelqing and a little edging for about 30 minutes after PE session and finally 5 minutes warm down.

The thing is I just can’t feel the stretches nor the jelqing and I am feeling that my ligaments are so tight that they just can’t stretch, every time I make a PE session I feel that I am wasting my time.

As for PI’s I don’t have much to say because I have all the neutral PI’S the only difference is when I stretch I feel my glans burning a little but no stretching feeling anywhere on the shaft or the base and when I finish my session my penis is bigger and hangs lower for about an hour and that’s it .

My stats are Height 6,1 feet 211 pounds and my penis size is 6,1x5,8 inches NBPEL - 7 inches BPEL - 3,9 inches NBPFL..

I could really use any help and I am sorry for my short thread but I am at work right now .Sorry for the bad English too .I am GREEK

You do know your girth is 0.3 from my ultimate goal and 1.3 inches from where i stand now, and I still have a great sex life. You know women choose men for other reasons other than penis size, your girth is really big so is your length. If a person cheats on you she is NOT WORTH your time. You can bang as many women as you want and they will love your cock, you have a great cock. Oh one more thing... I am greek too PM me if you want to talk.

[lavalava Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close lavalava]

no its not a great cock unfortunatly....as i said ,my exprience taught me other things ...and it's an injured cock now ,too hahaha...whenever you want PM me ....i could really use some help

[Big Al AdministratorPEGym EditorMale Enhancement Coach Rep.PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Big Al]

Welcome to the forum!

Blaming and brutalizing yourself over selfish and even evil actions of others is a destructive habit! Get your mind right first, then you'll be able to approach this type of training with a productive attitude.

[Sticke Senior Member Member of the Month March 2018 Find all posts View Profile Close Sticke]

no its not a great cock unfortunatly....as i said ,my exprience taught me other things ...and it's an injured cock now ,too hahaha...whenever you want PM me ....i could really use some help

Is this your first time having a "bad" sexual encounter? I really doubt your best friend is bigger than you. Maybe you need to work on your technique, because what you have is more than capable but it's useless unless you know how to utilize it. Also don't mess your cock up, it's your only one take a rest from PE until you recover. In the meantime have fun with your single life, with all the single senioritas :3 Trust me no other girl is going to complain

[lavalava Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close lavalava]

i was always selfish according sex....anytime i had sex i never focused on her pleasure but mine ....i am son of divorced parents ...my mother cheated on my father ....so i didn't get ivolved emotionally with girls/women/....only with this girl i was trying to be the best of me on every aspect....but i saw the signs from the first week....as far as goes for the sex .....i really was very good and long lasting with my ex girlfriend ....i loved to eat her out ,pounding her and speak to her ...