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"He knew he had exhausted his imagination, his wealth, and his libido. He knew he had lost his precious gift. He knew he had once been Raymond Roussell. He knew the hollow longing and guilt were growing stronger and that there was no money or memory to hold on to. There were no facts to grip and the finding fictions were worn out. He then realised it was time to die, and he did."
I've recently come out of a terribly abusive relationship. It was after years of losing myself to a job than wore me down. This, however, in some sort way, has been a blessing. I've had body dysmorphia for longer than I can remember. I've finally accepted that a good number of women find me attractive. My penis isn't nearly as small as I once thought. Not big, but not small either.
I have maybe nine months to dedicate my days to working on myself. My goals are to read more; I was once a voracious reader but have touched few books in the last few years and my vocabulary shows it; to work out, to do PE, to work on healthy daily habits that were once second nature, and to stop biting my fingernails.
I figure this could be a good place to work on all of these things, to keep track of it all. By using these forums as a means to remain motivated, maybe I can help motivate others as well. Life, I've learned, is as much about helping others as it is helping others.
I'm here to create and establish my third life. The other two weren't conscious creations. This one, I will be putting as much care and thought into it as I can.
I've recently come out of a terribly abusive relationship. It was after years of losing myself to a job than wore me down. This, however, in some sort way, has been a blessing. I've had body dysmorphia for longer than I can remember. I've finally accepted that a good number of women find me attractive. My penis isn't nearly as small as I once thought. Not big, but not small either.
I have maybe nine months to dedicate my days to working on myself. My goals are to read more; I was once a voracious reader but have touched few books in the last few years and my vocabulary shows it; to work out, to do PE, to work on healthy daily habits that were once second nature, and to stop biting my fingernails.
I figure this could be a good place to work on all of these things, to keep track of it all. By using these forums as a means to remain motivated, maybe I can help motivate others as well. Life, I've learned, is as much about helping others as it is helping others.
I'm here to create and establish my third life. The other two weren't conscious creations. This one, I will be putting as much care and thought into it as I can.
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