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I've been lurking for a couple days and thought I should get involved as it may keep me motivated.
So... Hello, everyone
There really isn't much of a story to tell about being made fun of regarding the size of my penis, I've just always known it was a little under average, so never gave anyone the opportunity to make fun of it. As a result of my lack of confidence with my body I'm one of those lucky boys that felt the need to develop things other than his ego, like a personality, hobbies, skills and the ability to type full sentences.
Reaching my mid-twenties and having nothing particularly interesting ever happen to me led to a (minor) crisis of self which has resulted in a rather severe backlash of having no free time left anymore. After 10 years of wanting to learn I picked up an electric guitar (I was trained on classical), started writing songs again, I attend vocal training and kickboxing lessons and I run a small design studio that helps funds my little independent projects (short film, both live action and animated).
I should mention at this point that I'm no longer unhappy with my body. I don't look at myself in the mirror and cringe anymore, in fact, for the most part, I'm passed caring as I've become comfortable with who I am and what I'm trying to achieve. As a gay man who never felt quite 'cool' or 'hip' enough to hang with the scene queens, or pretty enough to get dates regularly, I always played second fiddle to friends in my social circle. I spent many years feeling inadequate and inferior to everyone I knew until I realised that I had something they didn't - the potential and motivation to be better. In fact, I love that I'm taking the initiative to make myself better at everything and aiming higher. I was lucky enough to have met a very special guy a little over three years ago and he's helped me with learning to appreciate myself and my potential by loving me for who and what I am, as opposed to what I could or should be.
That being said, I acknowledge that there's always room for improvement and it's with that in mind that I've begun JP's 90 Day PE routine since I've always wanted a larger/healthier penis. That coupled with a recent trend of premature ejaculation and flagging libido has brought me here. I haven't decided on any goals, nor have I taken the time to measure correctly just yet, however I would like to have a penis roughly on par with my boyfriend, which is about 7" (BPEL) and a bit thicker than my own. I suffer no delusions (I believe I'm starting on just 5.5" BPEL and thinner than his) and I'll complete the conditioning to see if I can make any noticable gains, but I remain skeptical, as I always do. If I can get even half an inch I think I'll be quite pleased as I can't say I care to have a monster cock or some sort of third leg. At very least I'd like to improve my stamina and EQ, but, if nothing else, it's a fun way to fill another hour of my free time.
I've run into some minor difficulties, being uncircumcised with a high frenulum join and quite a bit of overhang, and not fully understanding the 'correct' methods for certain techniques (they seem fairly straightforward for you cut guys), but I suspect that with time any inconsistencies will be ironed out and perhaps I could contribute a thread to help other uncut guys who are having issues with the stretching and jelqing after I've completed my conditioning. I'm relatively well informed regarding foreskin and I may be able to address some issues or concerns that uncut guys may have. One of the benefits of being gay, I suppose
A final note: Despite my skepticism after just one session my morning glory's returned. On closer inspection it felt much 'fuller' than it has since I was a teenager. I masturbate and have intercourse quite often, so I'm quite certain it felt different. Thanks to the founder of this site/forum and thanks to all the contributers who've help me understand the underlying principles of PE in the last week, especially JonPop for his easy-to-follow beginner plan. A good few days of reading has left me feeling better equipped to understand my penis. Thanks again, everyone
So... Hello, everyone
There really isn't much of a story to tell about being made fun of regarding the size of my penis, I've just always known it was a little under average, so never gave anyone the opportunity to make fun of it. As a result of my lack of confidence with my body I'm one of those lucky boys that felt the need to develop things other than his ego, like a personality, hobbies, skills and the ability to type full sentences.
Reaching my mid-twenties and having nothing particularly interesting ever happen to me led to a (minor) crisis of self which has resulted in a rather severe backlash of having no free time left anymore. After 10 years of wanting to learn I picked up an electric guitar (I was trained on classical), started writing songs again, I attend vocal training and kickboxing lessons and I run a small design studio that helps funds my little independent projects (short film, both live action and animated).
I should mention at this point that I'm no longer unhappy with my body. I don't look at myself in the mirror and cringe anymore, in fact, for the most part, I'm passed caring as I've become comfortable with who I am and what I'm trying to achieve. As a gay man who never felt quite 'cool' or 'hip' enough to hang with the scene queens, or pretty enough to get dates regularly, I always played second fiddle to friends in my social circle. I spent many years feeling inadequate and inferior to everyone I knew until I realised that I had something they didn't - the potential and motivation to be better. In fact, I love that I'm taking the initiative to make myself better at everything and aiming higher. I was lucky enough to have met a very special guy a little over three years ago and he's helped me with learning to appreciate myself and my potential by loving me for who and what I am, as opposed to what I could or should be.
That being said, I acknowledge that there's always room for improvement and it's with that in mind that I've begun JP's 90 Day PE routine since I've always wanted a larger/healthier penis. That coupled with a recent trend of premature ejaculation and flagging libido has brought me here. I haven't decided on any goals, nor have I taken the time to measure correctly just yet, however I would like to have a penis roughly on par with my boyfriend, which is about 7" (BPEL) and a bit thicker than my own. I suffer no delusions (I believe I'm starting on just 5.5" BPEL and thinner than his) and I'll complete the conditioning to see if I can make any noticable gains, but I remain skeptical, as I always do. If I can get even half an inch I think I'll be quite pleased as I can't say I care to have a monster cock or some sort of third leg. At very least I'd like to improve my stamina and EQ, but, if nothing else, it's a fun way to fill another hour of my free time.
I've run into some minor difficulties, being uncircumcised with a high frenulum join and quite a bit of overhang, and not fully understanding the 'correct' methods for certain techniques (they seem fairly straightforward for you cut guys), but I suspect that with time any inconsistencies will be ironed out and perhaps I could contribute a thread to help other uncut guys who are having issues with the stretching and jelqing after I've completed my conditioning. I'm relatively well informed regarding foreskin and I may be able to address some issues or concerns that uncut guys may have. One of the benefits of being gay, I suppose
A final note: Despite my skepticism after just one session my morning glory's returned. On closer inspection it felt much 'fuller' than it has since I was a teenager. I masturbate and have intercourse quite often, so I'm quite certain it felt different. Thanks to the founder of this site/forum and thanks to all the contributers who've help me understand the underlying principles of PE in the last week, especially JonPop for his easy-to-follow beginner plan. A good few days of reading has left me feeling better equipped to understand my penis. Thanks again, everyone
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