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I've found this forum a few days ago and have lurked and finally decided to join.
I'm a 23 year old that's slightly obsessed with bettering myself but I'm not here because I want to feel more secure about the size of my penis, I'm very pleased with the size of my penis however I'm interested in the information about libido, EQ how it relates to testosterone levels and stuff like this.
Between January and the end of March I went through a major depressive episode which I got out of after forcing myself to go out more, trying to stop smoking tons of weed, improving my diet, taking supplements ( St John's wort, Omega 3 and a multi vitamin thing) and giving up porn.
I've been off porn and weed for almost 2weeks now and have cut down on masturbation however 4 days ago on finding this forum and reading about erection tea and the "G's" I went a bit overboard and started taking ginko and ginseng and drinking erection tea with the idea of boosting libido and testosterone levels since I'm by nature reserved and quiet, overthink stuff and anxious around women even though I'm in good shape with average to above average looks and intelligent.
The cocktail of supplements worked unexpectedly well but it led to a quite extrem hypomanic episode(still grounded in reality with no hallucinations) where I've turned into a "bizzaro me" that is hyperactive overtalkative extremly spontaneous and creative like I've never been in my life.
The past 4 days I've slept about 4-5 hours a night and woke up very rested unlike my normal 8 where I wake up slightly groggy and the days have been filled with constant activity from cycling to extremly long talks with friends and even strangers going to the theatre, reading(something I'd never do before) and clubbing where I was feeling like the life of the party and ended up making out with 3 girls dancing with I'm not sure how many (before this I wouldn't be able to dance even after a lot of drink) and going with 1 girl home.
I LOVE this super confident new me but after a very long talk with a friend studying medicine I've become worried since this seems like bi-polarity rearing it's head even though the manic episode was probably triggered by the fact that I took ginko and ginseng together with a serotonin reuptake inhibitor( St John's wort)
Sorry about the wall of text it's due to my insomnia (can't fall asleep after being awake for 17 very active hours)and mania. I'm in a very weird position right now since I love my new self so much I'm very tempted of continuing this madness even though I know it will lead to trouble maybe very soon.
Right now I'm telling myself I'll go to a doctor and do some blood tests but I feel like I'm lying to myself and I'll more then likely end up going on a spree until I crash badly. Hope it's readable!
TLDR: HALP PROBABLY GOING CRAZY (although I've never been too close to normal)
I'm a 23 year old that's slightly obsessed with bettering myself but I'm not here because I want to feel more secure about the size of my penis, I'm very pleased with the size of my penis however I'm interested in the information about libido, EQ how it relates to testosterone levels and stuff like this.
Between January and the end of March I went through a major depressive episode which I got out of after forcing myself to go out more, trying to stop smoking tons of weed, improving my diet, taking supplements ( St John's wort, Omega 3 and a multi vitamin thing) and giving up porn.
I've been off porn and weed for almost 2weeks now and have cut down on masturbation however 4 days ago on finding this forum and reading about erection tea and the "G's" I went a bit overboard and started taking ginko and ginseng and drinking erection tea with the idea of boosting libido and testosterone levels since I'm by nature reserved and quiet, overthink stuff and anxious around women even though I'm in good shape with average to above average looks and intelligent.
The cocktail of supplements worked unexpectedly well but it led to a quite extrem hypomanic episode(still grounded in reality with no hallucinations) where I've turned into a "bizzaro me" that is hyperactive overtalkative extremly spontaneous and creative like I've never been in my life.
The past 4 days I've slept about 4-5 hours a night and woke up very rested unlike my normal 8 where I wake up slightly groggy and the days have been filled with constant activity from cycling to extremly long talks with friends and even strangers going to the theatre, reading(something I'd never do before) and clubbing where I was feeling like the life of the party and ended up making out with 3 girls dancing with I'm not sure how many (before this I wouldn't be able to dance even after a lot of drink) and going with 1 girl home.
I LOVE this super confident new me but after a very long talk with a friend studying medicine I've become worried since this seems like bi-polarity rearing it's head even though the manic episode was probably triggered by the fact that I took ginko and ginseng together with a serotonin reuptake inhibitor( St John's wort)
Sorry about the wall of text it's due to my insomnia (can't fall asleep after being awake for 17 very active hours)and mania. I'm in a very weird position right now since I love my new self so much I'm very tempted of continuing this madness even though I know it will lead to trouble maybe very soon.
Right now I'm telling myself I'll go to a doctor and do some blood tests but I feel like I'm lying to myself and I'll more then likely end up going on a spree until I crash badly. Hope it's readable!
TLDR: HALP PROBABLY GOING CRAZY (although I've never been too close to normal)
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