Hi all to you, i got penile nerve damage!

[Tesla.86 Member Find all posts View Profile Close Tesla.86]

Hi all to you,

i registered because i read the users "lostintorture" posts beause i got similar problems like him and sadly enough he was banned because i think he became rough with his words against others but the point is this guy is real and knows what he is talking about.

So to me:

I am 26 years old, very good looking/build, well educated and did nerve damage 7,5 years ago.
At this time beeing 18 years old i wasnt one of those professionell PE guys i just read about it of some website banners or spammail i think.
So i did those "jelqing" technics as i realised that this stuff doenst work i thought well you do something wrong here so i one day under the shower i led my penis became flaccid and then pulled on it or "streched" it since then i saw the glans wasnt that full of blood anymore and my flaccid size increased a good size. Then i just stopped that stuff and said to my self its gonna be ok dont think to much about it and masturbated like everyday but i noticed that it takes "work" to get erect. Well one day i recognized that i dont have any sexdrive anymore like i was thinking shouldnt you been masturbating today because you didnt it the last 3 days? So i did it but had no joy while doing it so i stopped it. Because i thought that i lost my sexdrive or libido i was looking for libido boosting supllements and came to yohimbe. I took the stuff and was in a psychologically drive and masturbated but i still felt no joy in my penis but i did it further wehn suddendly out of nowhere i get an orgasm. At this time i thought WTF was this now? At that time i didnt realize i had nerve damage i still though its psychological because at that time i was very tired und infected my self with the kissing desease i thought that was the reason for it. Well when the time passed i regained no energy i still felt "no drive" at all to do anything i did and i enjoyed before in my life, esspecially dancing with girls und hanging out on weekends. One day i was dancing "dirty" with my girl i really liked i realized i dont get exited anymore in my pants and mind and went to the toilette and had the first time no erection when i tried to pee.

Well i can tell you an so long story about it but the fact is i now realized about 3 months ago its dorsal nerve damage why i dont feel any pleasure anymore down there. In the last years i had the hottest girls you can imagine but everytime my friend whould loose his rigidity in no time. I was at some many doctors had a ton of blood panels done but everything came out alright also hormoes form A-Z.
What iam gonna do now is having a EMG and an high resolution sonography to check out the neuropathy.

I lost enjoyment for everything in life and like banned user lostintorture my EGO. And i tell you the EGO is really only driven by your sexdrive in everything you do and if you have no sexdrive anymore there is no EGO. Many would say libido is in the head, jeah they are right but it is stimulated by your friend down there. Its like a cocaine hormone trigger button. You know all the feeling you ge in your head when the most gorgeous girl in the club whhoops her booty on you, what you get is sexdrive and an extreme dopamine release in the head.

Besides that my sleep is pretty bad and also my concentration, my strongest points became my weakest.

All i want to say is that what all youre doing is EXTREMLY dangerous to you but you would only believe it when its too late. I do NOT accept any other opinions about this. I have read how some guys tried to fight lostintorture, but this guy has my biggest respect he tried to save you and so iam. Not feeling anything down there is the worst nightmare you can get and it will not just affect you psychologically like thinking about but way more hormonal. Iam no looser who is pissed of about his life or something like that its the opposite but the problem is when you dont feel "horny" everything sucks.

Feel free to ask me and about my life, if i can save just one guy, i did a lot, i saved one guys life.

[Sean Jacobs Retired Moderator Member of the Month Dec 2012PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Sean Jacobs]

Hello Tesla86. So you did that nerve damage just by jelqing? What was your routine? And how long were you doing this routine?

[Tesla.86 Member Find all posts View Profile Close Tesla.86]

Hello Tesla86. So you did that nerve damage just by jelqing? What was your routine? And how long were you doing this routine?

I honestly cant tell you anymore maybe 2 weeks or something like that well i did not folllow an direct workout or something like that, than i frustrated and pulled on it flaccid state with good force i think about 100-200N. And then i had nerve damage since then no "special" feeling down there and discoloration sometimes i get a blue glans. Fact is i was maybe to invasive, but the fact is you can easily destroy your nerves in no time, because my strenght and paintreshould was way more higher than others in my age so thats it. I totally f*cked up my life in 5 seconds. Just believe me nothing is driven by your mind in first instance its done by the stimulating effects of the penis. Thats why many edge before doing something challenging to get more self confidence and force.

I was one of those "winner" guys always tried to be the best and very often i was no matter in what, but than it changed i dont care anymore anything or look for challenges, everything became boring, and i had many things i was best in. Before i wanted to live, now i must. Sounds like depression right?! I know but the fact is the thing between the legs is the greatest antidepressant/ drug on earth if you loose it, you loose your drug, no drug in the world can give you that drive you get from that thing. If i would show you an picture of me how i looked like when i was 18, you would say what the f*ck this guy is impressive and motivating, well many people knowed me because of that reason. Weightlifting / Sports was my life and i lost the joy in it, i tried it many times that my drug, the workouts, make me happy again but now its just extremely heavy work without pleasure coming trough it. And i was never taking steroids or even supplements, i was doing serious business, i was a rocket starter, now still good build but i dont care and even becoming a degree in engineering doesnt make the situation better, because i just dont care anymore, and thats the problem i want to take care of my things and rush to my dreams to get em, but why running behind a carrot when its just made of plastic?! Just believe me, i got everything what others say is great to have, but if you dont get attracted to girls anymore you dont care anything, because girls are in our brains the most important thing, because its in nature, and all things we do in our life is driven by that, to get one day a nice woman, you get her because you can show her what you all achieved in life, thats what is happening subconcious in out minds.

Read something about Sigmund Freud, he says the the libido is in everything we do, even things that dont correlate with sexuality, he was the greatest psych analyst in all time. When i read his words, i knowed what he was talking about.

Dont play with your friend you play with your life, just imaging youre one of the nicest guys in town, nice charming character, good looking and you are lieing on the beach with a very nice cute woman and watching the sun going down, normally you would kiss her but, when your dick is broken everything feels wrong, i kissed her many times but there is nothing anymore, because even love is driven.

Its very sad, because i wasnt one of those "assholes", i had many EGO but never used against weaker ones, i did take care of em, can you imagine a bouncer of a nightclub with an engineering degree?

[Sean Jacobs Retired Moderator Member of the Month Dec 2012PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Sean Jacobs]

I am sorry for what happened to you. Thank you for your concern and sharing your story.

[Tesla.86 Member Find all posts View Profile Close Tesla.86]

All i can say is, especially when youre young you reach for higher and higher goals, why not having an 50cm penis?! Well i thought my whole life drugs and alcohol can destroy a man. I growed up in this area all my friends were taking stuff, but i was the only one who wasnt! Now i must say they are not that dangerous, killing yourself faster is with PE possible, the stress you get the whole years will affect you way more, cold hands and sweats, sleepless nights, without primarly inducing stress, your mind is stressing you automaticly, just imagine not the masturbate for years, you would get insane, but what if you have on top of that no release button anymore?! You turn insane, i feel like driving full throttle and stepping on the brakes. Restless. Sleep doenst help eather. And i can insure you iam 100% organic healthy.

Kids out there dont do that stuff girls are happy with you like you are if you want to upgrade yourself, build up muscles, go to school, get a good job, they will appreciate it way more than a bigger penis.

[alan020 Member of the Month Jan 13 Find all posts View Profile Close alan020]

I accept your opinion but many people here enjoy great benefits from PE. Just because a friend of mine suffered a heart attack from running does that mean I should quit too? Each to their own I say. And sorry for your troubles. PE is much safer then operations and other things people do to their dicks

[Tesla.86 Member Find all posts View Profile Close Tesla.86]

Well alan020 i understand your point, but the fact is running is good for your health, for what is PEing good?! - For your EGO.

All i want to say is youre doing really dangerous stuff to you, but remember you just got one thingy and maybe no second chance.

Its good that your EGO will arise if it grows, but really there are better ways for pushing EGO.

I know how youre thinking i was in the same boat, i was extreme in many things, with discipline i reached all my goals, many said to me where you want to go isnt it enough what youve got? NO. I was hungry for success, so you are guys but to fixed on one thing.

[alan020 Member of the Month Jan 13 Find all posts View Profile Close alan020]

I am not doing it for my ego (you dont need capital letters for it, its not an abbreviation of anything), and actually implying that I am doing it for my ego, is just going to piss me off, seen as you do not know any of the reasons I do PE.
I do it for to have better penile health and better erections which I have achieved since I started, I have a long term girlfriend so my ego is irrelevant because I know she loves me unconditionally. I am not short in confidence in life I have the right mix between confidence and cockiness which I do not have.

If PE is not good for your health please prove it to me? A medical study? 100's of people it hasnt worked for?
In the end of the day there is 1000's of people who have been successful on this site, MOS, thunders and plenty others. If you need proof that it works, and that it is not dangerous, spend a few weeks reading on these sites and I think you will see.

[Sean Jacobs Retired Moderator Member of the Month Dec 2012PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Sean Jacobs]

Well alan020 i understand your point, but the fact is running is good for your health, for what is PEing good?! - For your EGO.

All i want to say is youre doing really dangerous stuff to you, but remember you just got one thingy and maybe no second chance.

Its good that your EGO will arise if it grows, but really there are better ways for pushing EGO.

I know how youre thinking i was in the same boat, i was extreme in many things, with discipline i reached all my goals, many said to me where you want to go isnt it enough what youve got? NO. I was hungry for success, so you are guys but to fixed on one thing.

Again, Thank you for your input Tesla.86. However, there are inherent dangers do many things in life and it is up to each of us to decide if the risk is worth the potential gain. Personally, I believe following a PE routine is safe as long as you start off slowly and carefully, work your way up to more advanced exercises slowly, listen to your body (penis), don’t over work yourself, be careful, and don’t do anything stupid.

The benefit of the PEGYM is, people new to PE can learn safer ways to increase their size. From what you’ve posted it doesn’t sound like you had an online community who could provide you with information regarding safe and effective techniques which were proven by many people over many years.

[ino Senior Member Member of the Month June 2017 Find all posts View Profile Close ino]

I need to protest a little: Sex is a lot in the brain (but of course not exclusively), and not like you say that it almost only originates from the penis. Let me share with you some knowledge from a field I know about: Spinal cord injury. I've been talking to many spinal cord injured individuals (many paralysed because of that), and typically is that a big percent have problems achieving erection at all. In addition the spinal injury often causes the testestorone levels in males to drop. The lower in the back the spinal cord injury is, the more likely impotence occurs. And if you couple this with such a serious injury that they have no physical (sensation), it means no sex drive at all, right? Wrong. Here is the very interesting part that I learned from different people suffering the worst kind of spinal cord injury causing no sensation and no erection. They are still typically very interested in sex. They think sex, use medication to achieve erections (even when not having a sensation of the erection.) And many still enjoy having sex. Many masturbate without feeling particularly much - or feel nothing. And typically they are obsessed about women even in these conditions. Specialists in spinal injury and sex write that even with those who don't feel a thing around the penis - nor feel any orgasm - still get a pleasure in the area of the brain which has to do with sex. The specialists even write about the brain reprogramming; that individuals learn to feel sexual pleasure from being stimulated on areas of the body which are not affected by the injury (like upper chest, neck, ears etc.)

I wrote this in a simple way. It is so much more to it. The main point is that indeed the libido is really a lot in the brain and not in the penis itself, unlike what you say.

When reading how you describe your life, I do suspect that you are in a depression, which is understandable after your nerve injury. That will definitely be a libido killer (in the brain) for many people. Depression will explain a lot more why you find no pleasure in any other things in life, more so than just the nerve damage itself.

[BigO AdministratorPEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close BigO]

You did not suffer permenant nerve damage from a few sessions of jelquing and stretching. The worst you could do is minor nerve damage, it would have healed in a few weeks. What as your doctor said, have you seen a doctor that specializes in nerve damage?

[CUSP82 Administrator Admin of the Month Dec 2014PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close CUSP82]

Nerves are really tough things. You can stretch them, bend them, twist them, and they still work. Hell sometimes you can even cut them and if given enough time they tend to heal. Oh they can be fussy at times but they're really hard to permanently injure.

[Tesla.86 Member Find all posts View Profile Close Tesla.86]

Its OK guys. All i can say read lostintorture s posts he did everything right. The point is for some guys it works like for alan he gets harder erections for example, well i had so hard ones i wouldnt know what harder means, maybe steel?

I read many posts about guys who did light jelqs and damaged their nerves and lost sensitivity after a few sessions.

Hey i just want to speak out an warning thats it. I know just one thing the natures engineering is the best, and sometimes it fails but there is a reason for it why we dont have overly large penises.

The human was never smarter then the evolution (including me) , he thinks he is god, that thinking will lead to the next wars.

There is an Hitler in each of us, not getting enough of everything. We are so hungry we never can statisfied. I was an victim of my own, young, dumb, didnt know what he played with, he knowed many dangers in life, but that one the biggest he didnt saw that one and he trapped in it with no second chance to learn from it.

Iam not offending anybody of you, but i must laugh because at time as i was working as an bouncer ive seen so many people in different emotions and learned many in that time, i learned with anger you force anger, with respect you get respect - except the other person is an idiot and thinks your respect to him shows your weakness.

Well we humans destroy our selfs - thats a fact.


After me, there will be more me.

[Tesla.86 Member Find all posts View Profile Close Tesla.86]

Im going to do an high res ultrasound and EMG of the pudendal/dorsal nerve by one of the best docs of pelvic nerves. They never healed because i think i did a Neurotomesis to my nerves i think . Fact is. No morning woods since then and no spontaneous ones. My tissue is ok said the urologist but who needs muscle in legs when the spine is broken.

[Tesla.86 Member Find all posts View Profile Close Tesla.86]

I need to protest a little: Sex is a lot in the brain (but of course not exclusively), and not like you say that it almost only originates from the penis. Let me share with you some knowledge from a field I know about: Spinal cord injury. I've been talking to many spinal cord injured individuals (many paralysed because of that), and typically is that a big percent have problems achieving erection at all. In addition the spinal injury often causes the testestorone levels in males to drop. The lower in the back the spinal cord injury is, the more likely impotence occurs. And if you couple this with such a serious injury that they have no physical (sensation), it means no sex drive at all, right? Wrong. Here is the very interesting part that I learned from different people suffering the worst kind of spinal cord injury causing no sensation and no erection. They are still typically very interested in sex. They think sex, use medication to achieve erections (even when not having a sensation of the erection.) And many still enjoy having sex. Many masturbate without feeling particularly much - or feel nothing. And typically they are obsessed about women even in these conditions. Specialists in spinal injury and sex write that even with those who don't feel a thing around the penis - nor feel any orgasm - still get a pleasure in the area of the brain which has to do with sex. The specialists even write about the brain reprogramming; that individuals learn to feel sexual pleasure from being stimulated on areas of the body which are not affected by the injury (like upper chest, neck, ears etc.)

I wrote this in a simple way. It is so much more to it. The main point is that indeed the libido is really a lot in the brain and not in the penis itself, unlike what you say.

When reading how you describe your life, I do suspect that you are in a depression, which is understandable after your nerve injury. That will definitely be a libido killer (in the brain) for many people. Depression will explain a lot more why you find no pleasure in any other things in life, more so than just the nerve damage itself.

I understand your view, the point is iam driven psychologically, but i dont get real aroused anymore just sometimes when a girl says dirty things to me then my friends moves a bit sometimes get fully erect but for example i did get some BJ and didnt feel anything down there even i was driven in my head. I can still orgasm thats a fact but rubbing my friend is like rubbing an arm, when out of the nowhere are short weak feeling comes up und leads to orgasm. There is no plateau stage where i can enjoy really sex. Its an devilscircle.