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I am a bit depressed lately, so I decided to create a post here.. Maybe I find some advice.
So, I am a 20yo guy, I don't know if I'm a virgin, at this point it doesn't matter.
When I was 17, I started my first relationship. When I was about to have my first time, puff. Nothing happened down there. We tried all the day long, and nothing. Sometimes I had a weak erection, but the condom killed it before anything could happen. I thought I was nervous, so we tried again some time later, and again, and again.. And it was the same every time, coudn't make it.
I went to a doctor, he said it was anxiety and prescribed some viagra. I used it, nothing happened. Maybe helped a little bit, but I wasn't feeling nothing, so we stopped.
Four months later we broke up. I felt like shit. Started avoiding girls, but I was always going out with my friends (always came back home drunk and sad). Then I started going out with some other girl, and the fear started again. I went to another doctor, psychologists, and nothing helped, so we stopped seeing each other (I blame my lack of initiative). The same story repeated until I found my gf, who I am still with, 7 months ago.
When we was about one moth together, I found The Great Porn Experiment video, I almost cried, because it gave me hope, something I was about to lose. I've been watching porn since I was 11, every f*cking day. I read everything in YBOP and /r/NoFap and started my No PMO challenge. I promised to never watch porn again, deleted about 200gb of porn I had in my pc, and started avoiding masturbation.
5 months later, my EQ improved a lot (I coudn't have an erection, unless she was constantly sucking me), but not enough for PIV sex. So I started searching again what could I do to improve my EQ. Found PEGym. Started it in the very first day of this year and have been doing until now. My morning wood have been stronger, I noticed my EQ improved too, but me and my gf have been together only twice this month. Still not enough for sex.
Now I arrived my sixth month without porn and still a 'virgin'. I have spontaneous erections basically everyday, sometimes it lasts some minutes. I don't really care about being a virgin, but I fear losing my gf again. Our sex life is just about masturbating and blowing each other. I am in a point that I am starting to avoid being with her, so I don't have to be frustrated anymore. I fear I'm just broken, but I am still doing everything I can do to get out of this hell.
I am doing the JP90, 2 days in 1 off. Last week I masturbated three times (I masturbated once in the first 5 months), I feel like I am losing my willpower to not make it. Today I promised to not do it until next month.
Sorry for the depressing post, it is just hard to carry on alone.
Btw, I want some growing too, I started with 5.1 inches in erect length and 5.1 girth.
Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks
I am a bit depressed lately, so I decided to create a post here.. Maybe I find some advice.
So, I am a 20yo guy, I don't know if I'm a virgin, at this point it doesn't matter.
When I was 17, I started my first relationship. When I was about to have my first time, puff. Nothing happened down there. We tried all the day long, and nothing. Sometimes I had a weak erection, but the condom killed it before anything could happen. I thought I was nervous, so we tried again some time later, and again, and again.. And it was the same every time, coudn't make it.
I went to a doctor, he said it was anxiety and prescribed some viagra. I used it, nothing happened. Maybe helped a little bit, but I wasn't feeling nothing, so we stopped.
Four months later we broke up. I felt like shit. Started avoiding girls, but I was always going out with my friends (always came back home drunk and sad). Then I started going out with some other girl, and the fear started again. I went to another doctor, psychologists, and nothing helped, so we stopped seeing each other (I blame my lack of initiative). The same story repeated until I found my gf, who I am still with, 7 months ago.
When we was about one moth together, I found The Great Porn Experiment video, I almost cried, because it gave me hope, something I was about to lose. I've been watching porn since I was 11, every f*cking day. I read everything in YBOP and /r/NoFap and started my No PMO challenge. I promised to never watch porn again, deleted about 200gb of porn I had in my pc, and started avoiding masturbation.
5 months later, my EQ improved a lot (I coudn't have an erection, unless she was constantly sucking me), but not enough for PIV sex. So I started searching again what could I do to improve my EQ. Found PEGym. Started it in the very first day of this year and have been doing until now. My morning wood have been stronger, I noticed my EQ improved too, but me and my gf have been together only twice this month. Still not enough for sex.
Now I arrived my sixth month without porn and still a 'virgin'. I have spontaneous erections basically everyday, sometimes it lasts some minutes. I don't really care about being a virgin, but I fear losing my gf again. Our sex life is just about masturbating and blowing each other. I am in a point that I am starting to avoid being with her, so I don't have to be frustrated anymore. I fear I'm just broken, but I am still doing everything I can do to get out of this hell.
I am doing the JP90, 2 days in 1 off. Last week I masturbated three times (I masturbated once in the first 5 months), I feel like I am losing my willpower to not make it. Today I promised to not do it until next month.
Sorry for the depressing post, it is just hard to carry on alone.
Btw, I want some growing too, I started with 5.1 inches in erect length and 5.1 girth.
Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks
Member of the Month Nov 2013
. I'm very happy at this moment and want to thank you all for for the support.
hehe
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