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I am super depressed today. I'm recently divorced, so I can't know how much of it is that.
My problem is that I still have PE, despite working to try and resolve it. I may have pulled out a few more minutes out of it.
But my ex and I had terrible sex. Terrible. I couldn't last, and she didn't like toys or other versions of manipulation (I tried sleeves, vibrators, and everything I could think of, and she basically rejected them all) we went sexless for about 2-3 years before we split. I would have done anything to make it better, and I tried tons of stuff and all she ever said was no. No to oral (wasn't enough) ,no to slow sex (she wanted to have fun), no to toys to help my issues of being too small and too fast.
She told me sex with her previous lovers was always good while we were married. She never directly criticized me, but she would make jokes about my size (I bought a cup that fit my size shorts and she laughed and suggested a junior instead).
I don't miss her, to be clear. What I hate is the idea that my fucked up junk wouldn't work for her. That meant a ton to me, to be seen as a good lover, and not be made fun of behind my back. But I have tried to fix it alone, no major results, doctors say I my size is fine, and yet it still eats at me.
And it EATS at me. I'm OK being spastic, clumsy, goofy, childlike and all the other stuff. If people don't like me as a person, they can fuck off... I don't care if people don't like that part about me. But my dick? Different story. If I could last, my size wouldn't be an issue. If I was huge, I would worry about PE, but worry much less about it.
But I have both, and I can't seem to fix them. Pot works OK, from what I can tell. Bit I hate the idea of having to get high to work even slightly decently.
I just don't know what to do, it really eats at my guts in a bad way. At my biggest, I am smaller than most of the people on her before they even stared. And at my best I may have ever in my whole life lasted like 7 minutes. An hour? Literally impossible.
I just want someone to tell me why I am fucked up and how I can not feel like shit all the time about it...
My problem is that I still have PE, despite working to try and resolve it. I may have pulled out a few more minutes out of it.
But my ex and I had terrible sex. Terrible. I couldn't last, and she didn't like toys or other versions of manipulation (I tried sleeves, vibrators, and everything I could think of, and she basically rejected them all) we went sexless for about 2-3 years before we split. I would have done anything to make it better, and I tried tons of stuff and all she ever said was no. No to oral (wasn't enough) ,no to slow sex (she wanted to have fun), no to toys to help my issues of being too small and too fast.
She told me sex with her previous lovers was always good while we were married. She never directly criticized me, but she would make jokes about my size (I bought a cup that fit my size shorts and she laughed and suggested a junior instead).
I don't miss her, to be clear. What I hate is the idea that my fucked up junk wouldn't work for her. That meant a ton to me, to be seen as a good lover, and not be made fun of behind my back. But I have tried to fix it alone, no major results, doctors say I my size is fine, and yet it still eats at me.
And it EATS at me. I'm OK being spastic, clumsy, goofy, childlike and all the other stuff. If people don't like me as a person, they can fuck off... I don't care if people don't like that part about me. But my dick? Different story. If I could last, my size wouldn't be an issue. If I was huge, I would worry about PE, but worry much less about it.
But I have both, and I can't seem to fix them. Pot works OK, from what I can tell. Bit I hate the idea of having to get high to work even slightly decently.
I just don't know what to do, it really eats at my guts in a bad way. At my biggest, I am smaller than most of the people on her before they even stared. And at my best I may have ever in my whole life lasted like 7 minutes. An hour? Literally impossible.
I just want someone to tell me why I am fucked up and how I can not feel like shit all the time about it...
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