What am I doing wrong guys? Srs thread!

[ZeNigmar Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close ZeNigmar]

I've sent both you and Kakal a PM.

Smoking and alcohol make your problem worse. Smoking clogs your blod vessels, alcohol raise your cortisol and is a histamine releaser. If i were you i would try to cut it down as much as possible.

If you smoke regularly and consider yourself addicted try transitioning to vaping at least, it is far less harmful for you overall health.
I guess red wine and gin are not the worst type of alcohol, just try not to get excessive.

[SoraSora Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close SoraSora]

How's your posture? If you have a tight pelvic floor still, even after doing hindi squats for a good while, chances are it may be caused by anterior pelvic tilt, which is a potential cause of pelvic floor tension.

[Kakal Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Kakal]

I think my posture is pretty bad to be honest and I think most likely I've done a lot of harm to it over the years, so I'm trying to be conscious of that and fix it as well as doing some yoga exercises, child's pose, cat cow and cobra every night.

Need to check for the pelvic tilt to see what exactly is going on in that area as I've yet to fully check what's going on.

Thanks for the replies

[Kakal Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Kakal]

03/07/18
Today's session I begun with dry tight gripped edging for about 10 minutes, which seems to be about the longest I can go before my EQ drops and I need to use lube or fleshlight these days.

After 10 minutes I lubed up and edged for another 10-15 minutes and felt very in control and my PF felt relaxed (I had been doing some hindi squats throughout the day whilst teaching although not for long periods of time I think it definitely loosened things up again after not doing any squats like that for a while.

Because my EQ wasn't great and my arousal was low and sensitivity as well, I decided to try porn again.

I found a video with a girl who wasn't particularly 'hot' but she was ok and she was Asian (like my girlfriend) and the video wasn't too overly fake if you know what I mean.

The video was 8 minutes long and I managed to edge throughout the whole video, I did need to stop once and had to a few long RK holds to keep the area relaxed and try to not get too into the video really but overall was fairly chuffed with the session. I noticed that the video gave me a much stronger EQ than before when I was using my imagination and when looking at some explicit photos of my girlfriend, it went from about a 6/7 up to a 7.5-8.5.

Finished without ejaculating and felt pretty good.

Not sure if I'll really have time to edge tonight (04/07/18) as I took on a new part time student and didn't get back until 9PM, I still need to shower and do my PF stretches and routine which I prioritise over the edging at the moment.
Although I'm not sure if that's the way to do it or not really.

I need to make the time to just edge daily really, but it pretty tough at times when I have part time students 3 times a week outside of the school hours (8:30-5:30) and then I don't get home until 9 (10 on Fridays) , I always feel pretty exhausted and still need to do a few things once I get home and when you're exhausted you don't really feel in the mood to stroke your dick for 30 minutes or longer, well at least I don't.

[nofun Member Find all posts View Profile Close nofun]

I've sent both you and Kakal a PM.

Smoking and alcohol make your problem worse. Smoking clogs your blod vessels, alcohol raise your cortisol and is a histamine releaser. If i were you i would try to cut it down as much as possible.

If you smoke regularly and consider yourself addicted try transitioning to vaping at least, it is far less harmful for you overall health.
I guess red wine and gin are not the worst type of alcohol, just try not to get excessive.

Thanks for the message.

The alcohol thing: You are talking about long-term? Cause when I am drunk I can last pretty long in intercourse as well as masturbation. So the intoxication is doing smth that makes me last longer. Losing sensitivity due to less sensitive nerve system? Or am I more relaxed when drunk so the pelvic floor is not so tight?

How's your posture? If you have a tight pelvic floor still, even after doing hindi squats for a good while, chances are it may be caused by anterior pelvic tilt, which is a potential cause of pelvic floor tension.

My posture is bad. That is a fact. I just do not know how bad. I got anterior pelvic tilt and scoliosis. For the anterior tilt, I try to do strenghtening exercises and stretches. Think it would be good to see a doctor for that too.

[Kakal Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Kakal]

Update from last few days :

I've only managed to get in a couple of edging sessions these past few days and have been falling a bit behind on my RK's throughout the day, I just seem to forget to do them recently but have been doing some hindi squat sits for a few minutes throughout the day. Interestingly enough my knees feel uncomfortable and painful when I do it but now they're starting to feel a bit better since doing them again.

I did purchase some knee straps, but they're not very comfortable actually and cut in to the back of my knees which is annoying as I was hoping to wear them throughout the day to try and strengthen my knees up again.

Before I talk about my edging sessions I want to just talk about the day my girlfriend came back from her hometown and stayed around mine.

So previously there have been a few times when me and my girlfriend are laying in bed and it's getting heated, kissing, touching etc (I'm unable to have sex with her for those who don't know for at least another month, it has been 2 months already due to something going on with her ) and I ended up ejaculating without any sex or physical stimulation a few times previously except for some slight body touching and kissing etc.

So when she came back, we were laying on the bed and it got to that moment again where it was getting quite heated and it was getting erotic again, we were touching each other, kissing, and it was almost like we were having sex but without the sex if that makes sense and I started to get her off with my fingers and she was really in to and that made me feel super turned on and she knew that as I felt her feel my cock a few times to see if i had ejaculated.

To be honest I actually did feel like I was close to prematurely ejaculating just through sheer kissing, and passionate touching (she wasn't touching me in a physically sexual way) and hearing her getting aroused and moaning was almost enough to send me over the edge but through deep breathing and telling myself to calm down and some RK I managed to hold it back.

It's crazy how this has started happening again, I can only assume its due to being sexually frustrated and/or deprived of it, as when we were having sex I never came during foreplay except for maybe the first few weeks but I put that down to nerves/inexperience.

I'm hoping this isn't a sign of future problems with this. I mean it must all be in my head as its not like she's touching my penis or anything like that but yet suddenly I'll feel this strong feeling of arousal all of a sudden and then I know I'm about to cum but it's a different feeling to ejaculating through physical contact.


Edging - the 1st of the 2 sessions which was a couple of days ago was pretty good, I edged for 15 minutes lubed with my hand and felt very relaxed and in control and then used the fleshlight and went for another 10 minutes, in varying positions thrusting and stroking, and was able to control my arousal through breathing, trying to really relax my whole body and not think about ejaculating too much.
Once my girlfriend came out of the shower I sat down beside her on the bed and begun kissing her neck and decided to ejaculate in the STU after a total session time of 25-30 minutes.

Today's session 7/7/18
I'd basically decided that I wanted to try going straight in to the STU for this session and perhaps the next few sessions rather than edging with my hand for 10-15 minutes prior and desensitising my penis before using the STU.

After bringing myself to an OK ish level of EQ,I went in to the STU which ofcourse made my EQ even stronger, from a 6 to about an 8; the sensitivity was fairly high and I could tell going straight in to the STU would provide a much more of a challenge than warming myself up a bit first.

It was pretty difficult to control it really, and I begun on back stroking, followed by on side thrusting, standing thrusting, seated stroking and kneeling thrusting (doggy) on bed, all in a space of 6 minutes, going slowly at times, varying stroke depth, deep breathing and Reverse kegals which didn't help at all today really.

I physically couldn't hold off and ended up blowing my load after 6 minutes.

Will try and do this more often from now on, going straight in to the STU I mean.

I suppose on the bright side a couple of months ago I was only lasting 3 minutes every time in the STU and today 6 minutes (maybe 5 without all the stops), and other times I've lasted 10-15 minutes the past few times so progress is happening.

[Kakal Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Kakal]

08/07/18
Today I decided to try and hit legs at the gym for the first time in about 6 weeks, although nothing too strenuous for now, just until I can get my knees stronger again.

Did 4 sets of ATG squats, with plate under my heels, 1 set just body weight 20 reps, 2nd set holding a 5kg plate, 3rd and 4th set holding a 10kg plate all for 12 reps and between each set I'd sit in the hindi squat position for about 30 seconds - 1 minute (which is about all I can do until my knees start to give out.)

Then did 4 sets of weighted romanian deadlifts at 35kg and 4 sets of walking lunges (just bodyweight) so nothing too strenuous but hopefully I can start to gradually build it back up again.

Today's edging session was purely using the STU and I was sceptical how long I'd be able to last after only 6 minutes last night but I managed to last 14 minutes, although the first 5 minutes were the most challenging really. I find that's always the case for me at least, usually getting past the 5 minute mark is a challenge but once I do everything starts to calm down and I can usually go much longer and the arousal decreases.

I begun laying on back stroking and instantly knew the sensitivity was high again but I didn't use too much lube and went slow, switched to laying on my side thrusting and again I felt close to the PONR a few times, after doing some deep breathing and saying out loud to myself I'm in control I can fuck for as long as I want and staying positive I managed to regain control although I did change positions to standing thrusting which now is the easiest position for me to do and I can go at a decent speed with full strokes and it's more or less ok.

After that I tried missionary, which is the only position my girlfriend really enjoys but also the most difficult for my stamina and within about 10 thrusts my arousal was a lot higher and I was nearing the PONR and had to change positions again.

Varied between laying on back (stroking) standing stroking and thrusting combined (which was a bad idea as it made me go from about a 7 to a 9 within about 5-10 seconds and laying on side.

Unfortunately after doing missionary and the stroking /thrusting combined my arousal was at a point where I couldn't really bring it back down and I ejaculated.

But I'm pretty pleased with 14 minutes really, I did have to fully stop once to stop myself from ejaculating at around the 6 minute mark but after that it was just through varying breathing, relaxing and RK's that I use to control my arousal.

I also tried ballooning with the STU, which was interesting and used the taoist method of doing several shallow strokes followed by 1 deep stroke and returning to shallow thrusts from anywhere from 1-10 shallow thrusts per deep thrust.

I've also tried that previously in sex but can't recall how it affected my lasting time.

[Kakal Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Kakal]

9/07/18
Today was a pretty long day and when it came to edging I wasn't really in the mood to do it as I just felt tired and my mindset was that it was going to be a bad session, how wrong I could have been though!

Went straight in to the STU again today, starting on my back and then switching between right and left sides and thrusting. Then went straight for the dreaded missionary and although it was definitely more difficult to control I still could control it somewhat although it's kind of awkward to do missionary with and STU I've found,so I didn't do it for more than 30 thrusts I'd imagine.

For the whole session I varied between all positions I could think of really and I was very much in control, just being aware of any tension in my body and consciously trying to remain untense, I was imagining myself as a feather just floating through the sky with no tension and not trying to control anything.

The session time was 22 minutes but I definitely could have gone much longer, I had to stop once due to my fleshlight falling apart and needing to put it back together (about 10 seconds) but the only reason I ejaculated is because I decided I'd had enough (stupid I know) but my body was so relaxed I probably could have gone for 30 minutes but I laid on my back and really power pumped it which brought me to the ponr I paused for a few seconds and contemplated if I wanted to ejaculate and decided to let myself at that moment. Previously I'd thought not to but you guys know how it's difficult to hold back when you're at that stage.

The STU doesn't feel overwhelming anymore,I can't say what it's down to though, perhaps a combination of all things, the only thing that's changed these last few days is I hit legs at the gym yesterday and I've been doing some hindi squat sits throughout the day for short periods.
I was thinking originally the tight grip masturbation had made my penis used to tight stimulation and when I go in to the STU (which is also tight but not a tight as death grip) it allows me to not be overwhelmed by the tightness and become more 'used' to it.

This was all before my stretches and exercises by the way, but I'm definitely keen to see if I can go for 30 minutes in the next session!

Also last week I ate salads everyday pretty much, with brocoli, I wonder if that had an effect?

[Kakal Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Kakal]

Update from last few days.

I've only managed to get 2 edging sessions in these last few days due to working plus being out with my girlfriend and not getting back until rather latish.

Unfortunately both of the sessions weren't as good as the previous one and I'm not sure as to why, everything was pretty much the same conditions wise that I can recall at least.

10/07/18
This session was 15 minutes long, and I was just using the STU again, however I had a few issues with the actual fleshlight this session and had to sort it out as it broke for some reason.
That Took a few minutes to fix.

Spent the session in various positions but mostly Laying on my side, closing my eyes and kissing my self imagining it's my girlfriend which ultimately brought me up to high arousal, so after changing position a few more times and doing reverse kegals (which didn't do much) I ejaculated in kneeling doggy.

I think Setting up a goal and having expectations can sometimes do more harm than good.

I also needed to pee slightly in this session, so perhaps the additional pressure played a role.

13/07/18
This session was even shorter than the previous at only 12 minutes, (fleshlight only) Laying on back and thrusting upwards with knees bent brought my arousal up and I couldn't really bring it back down with RK's. Which ultimately lead me to ejaculation. .

In both sessions I ejaculated, just incase I didn't make that clear.
Need to really get better self control with that still!

I did vary the positions a few times both before and after but thrusting upwards when laying on my back just seemed to really stimulate my penis and rapidly increased my arousal. Usually in this position I'd just stroke the STU and imagine that my penis is being ridden but this time I was the one actually thrusting, which I've never really tried before and the result was a spike in my arousal level.

I was pretty tired in this session and it's also my first session in about 3 days which may of had an effect, I'm not too sure.

This week of just using the fleshlight has been pretty interesting and I'm glad I did it, I've definitely made some progress with the STU but there still work to be done.
Most likely I'll try the STU again a this weekend and next weekend mix thing back up again and start to incorporate tight grip, ballooning, and possibly hand stimulation.

[Kakal Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Kakal]

Sorry for the late update guys, last week was a bit of a busy week, I had to leave the country for a day or 2, I also celebrated my birthday and I really fell behind with pretty much everything PreE related; I was just busy and never really had a chance to get any edging in or pelvic floor exercises in general including yoga for the whole week, which of course is a bit of a disapointment but sometimes taking a break is good!

My last session (Before today's) was on the:

14/07/18
Which again was just using the STU and nothing else and the total session time was about 24 minutes.

During this session I needed to stop 2 times as the PONR was very close, but managed to hold it back.

The first PONR was at the 15 minute mark and the second after 20 minutes. And finally I ended up ejaculating in missionary.

By the way does anyone have any tips on how to use a fleshlight in missionary? I find it extremely awkward and the angle difficult to get right.
This is the position my girlfriend only really enjoys and it the one which I find difficult but yet I can't really practice it.

21/07/18
So today was the first time I have edged/masturbated in about 1 week and I wasn't really feeling confident going in to the session knowing that I had a sack full of semen and having not ejaculated in about 1 week or done any exercises this week.

I decided to use the STU again for this session following on from the last week sessions of only using the STU.

The session wasn't great really, but even going in to the session all I could think about was that this probably wouldn't be a good session.

Total time was 9 minutes, which is better than what I was expecting honestly, but that was with stopping once completely, slowing down a few times, doing RK's, and pushing on the golden point to bring my arousal down.

Varied positions although no missionary and of course I ejaculated at the end of it.

This week I will try to get back in to it properly, and get my routine back on track, the biggest reasons for not practicing for me are time /effort and being too tired.

Mind over matter.

We all gonna make it！

[Kakal Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Kakal]

22/07/18
After training legs at the gym today I was feeling pretty confident about today's session as usually my stamina always seems to be much better and my PF usually feels relaxed and calm.

I decided to use the Fleshlight STU again for today's session but man it was tough, I think taking that week off really set me back a few paces really and now I'm half way down the hill again and need to retrace /regain my steps back.

It was difficult to control my arousal and the sensitivity was pretty high, after 6 minutes I had to stop and then again at 9 minutes I had to stop, as reverse kegals were not doing anything, neither was deep breathing or trying to stay relaxed, I even tried the taoist method of transferring the sexual energy up through my spine and in to my head and then in to my stomach; although it should be said I'm very inexperienced with this and I may have been doing it incorrectly.
My only knowledge of this is from reading The Multi Orgasmic Man by Mantak Chia several months ago and my memory is a little hazy about it all.

Anyway I ejaculated after 10 minutes, which is fairly dissapointing from last week's sessions but still fairly decent considering 3 minutes was always the limit for the STU several months ago.

To add I did also work on missionary and thrusting standing but in an upward direction which really stimulated my head and the back of my shat in a new unfamiliar way so that may have had some effect on today's outcome.

Probably I will switch things up again this oncoming week, do some dry/ lubed tight gripped edging, ballooning and using the STU still as I'd like to work towards 30 minutes sessions with the STU overall but I think I need to work on desensitising my penis again and tight gripped edging seemed to have helped with that somewhat in the past.

[Kakal Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Kakal]

Update:

Sorry guys for the late update the last couple of weeks have been a bit chaotic and I've struggled to find time to even get my practice in, never mind updating my progress on here!

Since my last update I've only been able to get in a about 6 sessions due to chasing around, working late and spending time with my girlfriend and the results have been pretty varied honestly speaking, and at times I've felt frustrated and other times satisfied, but how this transfers over to sex is anyone's guess,but hopefully I'll be able to find out soon, as there is a fairly high chance I'll be able to start having sex with my girlfriend again soon!!

We will find out on Monday (5th August) but honestly speaking I feel pretty anxious about it, we've not had sex now for over 3 months and in the beginning it was pretty tough (for me, not really for her) but after a couple of months I wasn't really thinking about it and I think it actually made the relationship stronger as I wasn't anxious prior to sex or severely disappointed and beating myself up after it.

I have been continuing my exercises (100 reps of each exercise every night), doing my yoga, my diet is the same and I've been drinking green tea everyday, I've yet to implement any additional supplement at the current moment in time.

I'm planning on buying some type of balm to use perhaps Pau Yuen Tong or perhaps another,I've asked my girlfriend to help me find some as you'd think China would have a lot of different types out here! Wish me luck!!


28/07/18
Used my STU again today which probably wasn't the smartest idea as I hadn't previously edged for about 4 days, begun by laying on my back and stroking and then changed to laying on my side thrusting after 3-4 minutes I went back to laying on my back and stroking this time though I decided to vary the suction by turning the cap at the end of the Fleshlight.

Usually I always used the tightest suction as I always thought that this would be the most stimulating and best way to learn control ( plus I didn't really know until a few weeks ago that turning the cap changed the suction) but actually some of the lesser tight suctions were actually more stimulating for me and that surprised me.
Probably its a smart idea to try and alternate between different suctions to get yourself accustomed to the different sensations and feelings, I felt kind of frustrated about that because I'd missed out on different sensations which i could have incorporated and edged with for the past few months.

The varied stimulation really increased my arousal, so I stood up and did some standing thrusting for a couple more minutes but ended up ejaculating after 10 minutes.

29/08/18
Stayed at my girlfriends new apartment last night and due to not having my STU or lube I decided to tight grip edge whilst incorporating porn after 10 minutes of edging with no porn,although I seldom use it and would recommend to not rely or use porn/use sparingly, I previously never watched porn for many years but have started again solely due to PreE training.

The porn definitely made it much more difficult to control my arousal and the porn was pretty intense at times and wasn't what you'd call soft porn, the video was 8 minutes long and I managed to make it through the video although I did need to pause a few times and do some deep breathing and RK', after the video and pauses etc it had been about 23 minutes, and i decided to try another porn video to edge to .

This time the video was more up close and personal and my arousal was very high at this time but EQ wasn't super high surprisingly, after 1 minute the PONR hit me and I tried hard to kegal and hold back, but a little bit of ejaculate was released and a few squirts of cum shot out but without the orgasm, at this point I decided to call it quits as their wasn't much feeling left and it had been about 25 minutes anyway.

I don't want to get in to the habit of watching porn or ejaculating to porn videos as I have a feeling it will cause more issues.

31/07/25
25 minutes edging with hand, 15 minutes of which was dry and 10 minutes lubed I really wasn't feeling this session and my EQ was very poor, probably because my girlfriend was laying beside me and talking to me about random shit which was kind of off putting plus I like to be alone and have privacy whilst edging or at least not discuss random bullshit with her...

No ejaculation.

01/08/18
Today was a busy day again and I was short on time so I decided to use the STU in the shower which isn't something I've previously done before, the session time was 12 minutes and it was pretty interesting experience and felt kind of thrilling as it was something new, but of course I was limited in what I could do position wise and I was stuck between standing thrusting, sitting on toilet seat and stroking/thrusting upwards, and standing stroking.

Not really sure why I only managed to last 12 minutes but that's how it goes sometimes.

02/08/18
Today was the only day in which I had the whole evening free and was alone so I was keen to get a good session in with the STU.

in the beginning my sensitivity was pretty high and I was anxious/scared that I wouldn't be able to last very long today and I knew I needed to go slow and proceed with caution at least for the beginning.
I started laying on my back stroking and laying on my side thrusting, throughout the session I varied positions and did all that I could pretty much think off as after about 5 minutes my body was accustomed to the sensitivity.

Ive noticed now that kneeling thrusting seems to be the position which increases my arousal the most and brings me to the PONR faster, I'd previously thought it was missionary but for some reason now kneeling thrusting seems to have taken over especially if I thrust upwards it stimulates my frenulum.

Total session time was 20 minutes, ended up ejaculating which isn't what I wanted, really I want to get out of that habit of ejaculating after every session.No breaks or pauses in this session except for when changing positions.

4/08/18
This was a really disappointing session.
I used my STU for tonight's session, but it was late and I was feeling pretty exhausted which may have been a factor.
I begun with the cap of the STU off and laying on my back stroking and my arousal was just increasing so fast, I tried changing positions doing RK's and deep breathing but not to much avail, after 4 minutes I had to stop, 2 minutes later I ejaculated.

I've no idea why this session was so bad but its the worst session in a long time, I think I'm feeling pretty anxious about my girlfriend potentially being able to have sex again and that was in the back of my mind and I don't know what else really, but I was feeling very confused and a little annoyed after this let down of a session...

Trying to stay positive though.

[ZeNigmar Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close ZeNigmar]

Hey Kakal, glad about your progress. Don't be anxious about the encounter, in the worst case you go for a second round. If it happens, it happens, don't apologize, don't stutter anything. Just smile and tell her something funny like "I was expecting this, but i didn't expect it to feel so good. Can't wait for our second round" something like this. Massage her a bit. Get loose. Be seductive, being embarrassed about yourself doesn't do good for either of you. She knows about it anyway, so no reason to be nervous really!

Don't put so much pressure on yourself, friend :-) Good luck

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Update :
Decided I'll just do a weekly update on here, with a basic overview of the previous week rather than a session by session update.

So first of all the whole situation with my girlfriend and being able to have sex, didn't really go how I was hoping.

Basically the doctors said that it's still too early to say if what she had has been cured, and in her mind that means we still need to wait (until at least October) so that was massive knock back for me.

I was really feeling positive and hoping we would finally be able to start having sex again, but she is talking about going to another doctors to see what they say / just start having sex anyway again as Chinese doctors vs western doctors say 2 completely different things they say she can't have sex whilst all the information online from western doctors say its absolutely fine.

Funnily enough last night she asked me if I had a condom on me as she was getting really turned on and guess what... I didn't have the damn condom with me! I was devastated!!

Anyway, I've been continuing my exercises, yoga, and tennis ball massage throughout the week and doing RK's when I remember although I'm not sure they're really helping me much anymore but I will continue them, I'm still not doing normal kegals though, perhaps it's time to reintroduce them at some point soon.

Last weeks sessions consisted of about 4 or 5 sessions, varying between dry (tight grip) with porn, lubed with hand, and a couple of sessions with the STU.

This week has been up and down again, I've failed to reach the 30 minute mark really and unless I'm using the STU my EQ is very poor.

The STU seems to be pretty tough again and I'm having difficulties getting much further than the 10 minute mark.

The only time my EQ is very strong is when I'm with my girlfriend and its decent with the STU but with my hand it's always pretty weak.

I have been changing up the positions with the STU and working on thrusting with the STU in a doggy position but angled upwards, this really stimulates the back of the glans and frenulum and is definitely a big trigger spot for me, after 5-10 thrusts of doing that my arousal is sky-high compared to standard doggy thrusting in which it barely effects my arousal.

I've also been having quite a lot of partial ejaculations, especially when using the STU, it doesn't prevent me from continuing but once I've had had that partial ejaculation I always seem to have a full ejaculation very soon after.


My plan for the next week is to continue using the STU more and try and work it back up to 30 minute sessions and incorporating those positions that really stimulate my trigger spots, missionary and doggy thrusting upwards.

Let's see how that goes.

[Kakal Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Kakal]

Update :

This week has been pretty good for me edging wise, plus I finally had sex again with my girlfriend for the first time in 4 months, although I might have to wait a while again as it didn't go too well. (more on that later)

I also incorporated full body stretching every evening for 10 minutes before my PF exercises.

I didn't have too many sessions this week due to seeing my girlfriend a fair bit, but from Monday she will go away for 10 days so I'll have plenty of time to get back on track.

These past 3 days I've really fell behind, I've not done my exercises, edged or massage /exercises due to having a bad migraine for a couple of days and then last night not getting back until late and trying to set things up in my girlfriends new apartment.
This is the first time I have fallen so behind with the exercises since I begun (and the last time).

This week I focused purely on the STU and man I had some really great sessions :

First session was 29 minutes with a renegade ejaculation (after kegaling so damn hard) problem is around the 25 minute mark it was very difficult to control and I pushed it, really aiming for that 30 minutes but just before the 30 minute mark I hit the PONR.

This session was focusing on breathing, RK's, and really relaxing.

Second session was in the shower and this session wasn't too great.
I don't know what it is about edging in the shower but I can never go for as long as when I'm edging on my bed for some reason, maybe it's due to the lack of varying positions but even so, this shower session I was doing other things, shampooing my hair etc but still only lasted around 15 minutes with breaks and ejaculated at the end.

I'm really trying to get out of that ejaculating every session trend.

Third session was 31 minutes or so and this was a very good session, managed to do all positions had very good control, really focusing on relaxing all of my body and making sure there wasn't any tension anywhere, also doing random RK's throughout the session just to keep the arousal from getting too high.

Never felt the PONR come and no partial ejaculation and no orgasm/ejaculation at the end of it, so I was very pleased about that.

I think today's session is a record for me and my best session yet!


Getting to the sex part.
So Thursday 17th my girlfriend was up for trying sex for the first time in about 4 or so months.

Honestly speaking I wasn't feeling it too much, she had to be up early for work the following day and I didn't want to focus on it too much to control my arousal /not get too fixated on the idea, and instead just had a 'whatever' type of mindset.

So as we're starting foreplay, just some kissing and touching she tells me she's ready so I'm like ok, cool.

So I wrap up and get on top of her and try to put it in, my girlfriend is Asian by the way and very short and tight, combined with the fact she hasn't been penetrated in a long time it was incredibly tight and I had to go very slow to get it in, it was also very uncomfortable and painful for her.

After some time and taking it out and putting it back in again I begun thrusting but then it was over...

I really can't remember exactly how long I lasted but I mean it was over extremely fast maybe just a couple of thrusts maybe even just 1. I gave her a few more thrusts whilst it was still hard and then just said "that's it" and we stopped.

So that was shit.

But she was also in a lot of discomfort so either way it didn't matter too much as we would have probably of stopped soon after.

I actually found out that I had tore her a little bit and the following day she was on he period anyway, so we'll see what happens when she comes back from her trip.

It was very strange though, I wasn't even that horny but as soon as I was inside of her I could just feel that pressure in my pelvic floor and knew it would be over. I tried to reverse kegal but it didn't work and that was it really.

Nothing more to say.


Edit:

By the way it's been about 8 or so months since I first begun training and working on my PreE.
From November /December time - up until now.

I'm still very much committed in beating this though.