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Hi. I made this journal to be able to keep track of my Progess ,stay motivated and ask for advice from more Experience members.
A little bit about myself and PE background for anyone interested.
I am 21, South East Asian and come from a Muslim background and with this very sentence comes a shit tonne of problems.
Being South Asian ( Pakistan) means joint family lifestyle. I live with my Grandparents and parents under the same roof. PRIVACY is rediculosly hard to get.
I'm out of my teenage and becoming a doctor right now( typical right?) I have a separate room where I do most of my studying and sleep. This is where I have started my PE aswell. I will be open about some of my problems and while maybe nobody is interested in them or maybe if they are, I'll just write them down to get them off my chest lol.
My mom is a very controlling kind of woman, loving but she likes to know what I'm upto. I've been much of an introvert my entire life and have been in her sights ( for lack of a better expression) for most of my life. She keeps track of where I am ,what I am doing (mostly) ,my friends and company ,what I'm eating etc which is okay I don't blame her for being a caring parent. She doesn't force me with anything but just wants to know. Father works abroad and comes homes after a Couple months give or take one. He doesn't care about anything I do. Not that he doesn't take interest but isn't the kind who would stop me even if I started smoking or something of the sort.
So since everything I do /buy goes through my mother getting a heating pad and finding an excuse for it is difficult af. Sneaking some rice off the kitchen and finding a sock with no pair was easier lol. I got coconut oil for my hair a couple months back so i have it for the lube ( I will be changing it soon (probably next month) for a mosturiser or cocoa butter with vitamin E if I can find it in the super market ,atleast will try to get something with vitamin E since more than a few people on the forum seemed to be recommending lube with vitamin E).( This is also tricky since I have shown a hate for sticky substances like lotion since I was a child but I'll make an excuse if she asks)
Getting supplements will be easy since I am from the profession and also have a thing for gym(not a body builder) but I like to keep myself somewhat fit so if I will get the supplements needed. Multivitamins and B-complex I already have and take them regularly (2day on 1 off) and a weekly pill of soft gel vitamin D3 ( physician recommended).
Now comes privacy. I can lock my room but incase someone wants to use my washroom ( attached) they are going to inquire why I locked the room. I have zero things in mind to counter this. Also I can't do the PE in the washroom because I saw some people say it should be done in a reclined position. So what I decided is to do it during the night time. It's quarantine and everyone is up will late 2-3 am so I wait for everyone to leave the sitting and then do my PE. If my sisters knock my room its easy to tell them to go away or just don't say anything at all since I'm the eldest but if mom comes in its a bit of a problem but I hope it never comes to it. ( My mom likes to get up at the random most times and check on me.) (F for me)
Also if someone is thinking ( hey why not just tell them) so here's an easy answer for it.
Talking about genitals with parents (never done that)
Masterbation( they don't know about)
Porn ( they don't know about )
On PEgym ( there are people with dicks and frontal nudity) so can't tell about it either.
If they ask why I decided to make my penis longer I would have NO justified answer. I saw everyone in porn have a longer dick than me so I started searching? Well that's a suicide idea haha. So there's that I can't tell anyone about it and have to do it in secrecy.
Sleep schedule isn't a problem since I'm used to waking up at nights and studying. ( Asian life 101) usually I study for 10-12 hours in regular days and 14-15 during exams months so waking up and spending an hour on PE isn't hard.
Guess I've said enough about myself. Now onto the PE
A little bit about myself and PE background for anyone interested.
I am 21, South East Asian and come from a Muslim background and with this very sentence comes a shit tonne of problems.
Being South Asian ( Pakistan) means joint family lifestyle. I live with my Grandparents and parents under the same roof. PRIVACY is rediculosly hard to get.
I'm out of my teenage and becoming a doctor right now( typical right?) I have a separate room where I do most of my studying and sleep. This is where I have started my PE aswell. I will be open about some of my problems and while maybe nobody is interested in them or maybe if they are, I'll just write them down to get them off my chest lol.
My mom is a very controlling kind of woman, loving but she likes to know what I'm upto. I've been much of an introvert my entire life and have been in her sights ( for lack of a better expression) for most of my life. She keeps track of where I am ,what I am doing (mostly) ,my friends and company ,what I'm eating etc which is okay I don't blame her for being a caring parent. She doesn't force me with anything but just wants to know. Father works abroad and comes homes after a Couple months give or take one. He doesn't care about anything I do. Not that he doesn't take interest but isn't the kind who would stop me even if I started smoking or something of the sort.
So since everything I do /buy goes through my mother getting a heating pad and finding an excuse for it is difficult af. Sneaking some rice off the kitchen and finding a sock with no pair was easier lol. I got coconut oil for my hair a couple months back so i have it for the lube ( I will be changing it soon (probably next month) for a mosturiser or cocoa butter with vitamin E if I can find it in the super market ,atleast will try to get something with vitamin E since more than a few people on the forum seemed to be recommending lube with vitamin E).( This is also tricky since I have shown a hate for sticky substances like lotion since I was a child but I'll make an excuse if she asks)
Getting supplements will be easy since I am from the profession and also have a thing for gym(not a body builder) but I like to keep myself somewhat fit so if I will get the supplements needed. Multivitamins and B-complex I already have and take them regularly (2day on 1 off) and a weekly pill of soft gel vitamin D3 ( physician recommended).
Now comes privacy. I can lock my room but incase someone wants to use my washroom ( attached) they are going to inquire why I locked the room. I have zero things in mind to counter this. Also I can't do the PE in the washroom because I saw some people say it should be done in a reclined position. So what I decided is to do it during the night time. It's quarantine and everyone is up will late 2-3 am so I wait for everyone to leave the sitting and then do my PE. If my sisters knock my room its easy to tell them to go away or just don't say anything at all since I'm the eldest but if mom comes in its a bit of a problem but I hope it never comes to it. ( My mom likes to get up at the random most times and check on me.) (F for me)
Also if someone is thinking ( hey why not just tell them) so here's an easy answer for it.
Talking about genitals with parents (never done that)
Masterbation( they don't know about)
Porn ( they don't know about )
On PEgym ( there are people with dicks and frontal nudity) so can't tell about it either.
If they ask why I decided to make my penis longer I would have NO justified answer. I saw everyone in porn have a longer dick than me so I started searching? Well that's a suicide idea haha. So there's that I can't tell anyone about it and have to do it in secrecy.
Sleep schedule isn't a problem since I'm used to waking up at nights and studying. ( Asian life 101) usually I study for 10-12 hours in regular days and 14-15 during exams months so waking up and spending an hour on PE isn't hard.
Guess I've said enough about myself. Now onto the PE
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