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Hey everyone,
Some of you may have seen me in different parts of this forum, thinking I suffered from SPA as well as an odd patch on my unit. I have spent tons of time researching everything and my final theory is this has to do with a porn addiction. A very quick summary of myself:
-I'm in my late twenties
-I grew up bullied and with self-esteem issues
-I never had a serious girlfriend until recently and we are moving towards getting engaged (can't explain how big this has been to me
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-I started watching porn when I was 18 and it just took off. I would download like crazy but never got any myself. Looking back, my biggest problem was that I would masturbate with a semi-erection and would ejaculate with it, just to get going fast. Now I see what a full erection is on my body and yeah, what a screw up on my part.
-I have an appointment with a urologist to discuss this odd white patch on my unit. I don't know if it's impacting my sex life or not, but a slight bend to the left came with it when I'm soft, but when I'm hard I go straight as an arrow with no pain.
-I have noticed that I do go soft a little more quickly than I would like.
-I have noticed a low sex drive since I started to watch porn and masturbating felt very mechanical.
-My sex life has been pretty decent. Sometimes I can pull it off, but other times I just lose it and it's no sex. My gf is very understanding and tells me we'll get it next time. She's been great about it, but I want to be normal and I want to be able to do it every time. I'm still young enough that I shouldn't have ED from physical symptoms, barring the possibility of the patch addressed above.
I am now four weeks into a reboot. I am starting to notice things I haven't since before watching porn. I have the desire to want sex more and more and more, sometimes it peaks and I totally shut down and just need it there and then. Sometimes I get hard with that and other times not. I do take Maca to help boost my drive and have seen results with it but even when I'm off it, I get the urges. I was getting zero boners alone for the first three weeks of the reboot but they are really starting to fire back up of late. I get crazy feelings down there all the time like I'm ready to go, but I don't always get a boner with it.
My question is, does this seem like good progress at this point? I'm hopeful this is done and over with within the next month or so but as you can imagine, it can be a little frustrating at times! Any advice, encouragement and support, as always, is very appreciated!
Some of you may have seen me in different parts of this forum, thinking I suffered from SPA as well as an odd patch on my unit. I have spent tons of time researching everything and my final theory is this has to do with a porn addiction. A very quick summary of myself:
-I'm in my late twenties
-I grew up bullied and with self-esteem issues
-I never had a serious girlfriend until recently and we are moving towards getting engaged (can't explain how big this has been to me
)-I started watching porn when I was 18 and it just took off. I would download like crazy but never got any myself. Looking back, my biggest problem was that I would masturbate with a semi-erection and would ejaculate with it, just to get going fast. Now I see what a full erection is on my body and yeah, what a screw up on my part.
-I have an appointment with a urologist to discuss this odd white patch on my unit. I don't know if it's impacting my sex life or not, but a slight bend to the left came with it when I'm soft, but when I'm hard I go straight as an arrow with no pain.
-I have noticed that I do go soft a little more quickly than I would like.
-I have noticed a low sex drive since I started to watch porn and masturbating felt very mechanical.
-My sex life has been pretty decent. Sometimes I can pull it off, but other times I just lose it and it's no sex. My gf is very understanding and tells me we'll get it next time. She's been great about it, but I want to be normal and I want to be able to do it every time. I'm still young enough that I shouldn't have ED from physical symptoms, barring the possibility of the patch addressed above.
I am now four weeks into a reboot. I am starting to notice things I haven't since before watching porn. I have the desire to want sex more and more and more, sometimes it peaks and I totally shut down and just need it there and then. Sometimes I get hard with that and other times not. I do take Maca to help boost my drive and have seen results with it but even when I'm off it, I get the urges. I was getting zero boners alone for the first three weeks of the reboot but they are really starting to fire back up of late. I get crazy feelings down there all the time like I'm ready to go, but I don't always get a boner with it.
My question is, does this seem like good progress at this point? I'm hopeful this is done and over with within the next month or so but as you can imagine, it can be a little frustrating at times! Any advice, encouragement and support, as always, is very appreciated!
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