Stilinski's Activity Log

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Stilinski's Activity Log

Welcome to my activity log!

Now that I’m a couple of days into the JP90 routine I've decided to take the step of actively recording my activity on-site to hold myself socially accountable, gain feedback and offer a way to reflect on what has and what hasn't worked for me throughout my PE journey. I've decided to refer to it as an activity log as opposed to a progress log for now just to avoid getting too caught up in numbers so early on in my PE journey as although it may be a desired outcome I don’t wish to think of it as a current goal until my penis is appropriately conditioned.

I’m sure I will flesh out this initial post in the future when I am past my JP90 period – most likely to reflect the structure of a typical contents page you'd find in a book which is referring to points where routines drastically change and measurement periods occur. Until then I will be making 10 updates between now and the end of the JP90 period with an initial starting point and then at every ten day interval up to the 90^th day. I'll be using a word document and excel sheet however to track myself daily and make any notes necessary to flesh out said updates.

Feel free to take a gander at my journey and leave any feedback you wish!

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The JP90 Period - Update One
Day 0 – Starting Size, Goals and Expectations

Starting Size
As recommended I have taken my starting stats just as an indicator of the JP90s effectiveness when the initial recommended duration is over in order to help me decide my next steps when the time comes. I will avoid taking any more official measurements however until after the 90 days are complete as this period is not about gains, but mainly about the conditioning of my junk.
My starting stats are as follows.

BPEL – 5.75
NBPEL – 5.5
EG – 4.875” (Mid-Shaft)

Note* All measurements at this time have been made with foreskin retracted to prevent unwarranted length being attributed and for the sake of consistency across measurements. I am to do this across all future measurements

I have decided to leave out flaccid measurements for a number of reasons such as it being the least stable of states, the act of measuring results in observable blood flow external factors ranging from heat, clothes worn to last PE/Sexual activity etc. I may adopt them into my log at a later date but as it stands I prefer to look into this state in a purely visual way.

Initial Size Reflection:
These measurements are fairly close to what I expected with my NBPL pretty much being my expected BPEL which means I’m already a fraction above what I perceived myself to have which is a mild boost to my esteem I guess! In terms of girth, it’s slightly smaller than I thought I would be but only by a fraction as I expected roughly 5.0", That said it doesn't bother me. My girth visually in my opinion complements my length quite well in terms of proportions, preventing it from seeming ‘stumpy for its length’.
I’d love to increase girth it in the future but in conjunction with length to try and maintain such proportions.

Ultimately, in my erect state I feel as I’m one of the smaller guys. This doesn't surprise me but the experience I have had over the past seven months with my boyfriend has reduced the length and girth I would have been yearning for to be something more practical in the bedroom and over years, potentially realistically attainable.

Goals:

As my perspective on penis size is currently still shifting and it's early days in my PE journey I've decided to not place any length or girth goals onto myself In this early stage and have decided to favor some less traditional goals through the JP90 period instead.

1) No Aid From Porn.
This goal is simple, I shall not stimulate my junk in front of pornographic material. Although I’ve had no issue with EQ or getting it up (In fact just kissing my partner with the anticipation of more gets me going) I have noticed it often leaves me either rushing through the act or spending way too much time stopping and starting which when accompanied with PE exercises may lead to symptoms of over training in these early days. Weather these implications are likely or not, it’ll still free up some time which is always a good thing.

2) Become more attuned to my pelvic floor
After doing some reading, I have come to the conclusion that I may be rather imbalanced as a possible result of very present involuntary kegels. I’ve found myself becoming aware of their presence and the implications that comes with them as of late, and so would like to do some more reading and self-exploration to reach a conclusion on the best course of action.

3) Ejaculating only with my partner
Rather self-explanatory and likely to be achieved hand in hand with the ‘No Porn’ goal. I adore being able to give a great load and previously abstained to improve upon these but motivation dropped when revision time came around and my procrastination technique involved a lot of right-handed movement… This should also help keep erection levels low during the routine by separating it from a lustful nature to a more methodical and meditative style and make will encourage my no-porn goal.

I’m hoping these goals along with the JP90 routine will aid in giving more rest to my junk than it would gain otherwise during this early conditioning stages and could act in favor with my EQ which I don’t believe to actually be an issue but I’m sure it could see some potential room for improvement. We will see in due time!

*Technically, this post was posted on my 4^td day into the routine, but it’s content was mainly documented before the start of my very first workout. Next update should be in just under a weeks time, assuming I remain committed!

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The JP90 Period - Update Two
Day 10 - Warming up, Goal Progress, The Pelvic floor & Sensitivity

Routine:

As I am trying to follow the JP90 routine to the letter, there is little to mention here. That said, I have noticed a couple of things in the past 10 days of the routine.

Firstly, Warming up. I try my best and so far have fully managed to warm-up and complete the routine while in the shower. I share my house with 5 other students, but only three are here at the moment thanks to summer, and there are two bathrooms. I take an extreme amount of time getting ready, and that’s without PE! and so I’m thinking of investing in a heat pad to allow me to do the routine within the confines of my room as to avoid running up a bill.

Secondly, I’m uncut and preform the routine un-retracted. It’s uncomfortable and downright hard to do so without keeping my glans covered however as a result I feel like I’m stretching my skin and that some tension is taken from the penis as a result. The skin at the base as a result tends to be soar, which is likely not helped by the fact I shave the base/lower shaft and trim the rest of the area which may be causing irritation within the warm-up. My only concern is gains, as this mild irritation is normally brief and doesn't get in the way in the bedroom if felt for longer but would be disappointed if it was overall hurting the routine by not adequately letting me stretch.

Overall, I feel I’m slowly getting closer and closer to being able to tell when my unit is over/under-worked and where the sweet spot is thanks to my PIs.

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Goal Progress:

1) No Aid From Porn

Although my tumblr feed is covered in head to toe with pornographic material, as is my partners who is constantly on his, I have yet to view it while masturbating. In fact, I’ve not even masturbated for pleasure since the start of JP90. I have however edged on a handful of the nights around day 4-8


2) Become more attuned to my pelvic floor.

I have done some reading up on this and feel like there is something to be discovered within my pelvic floor balance, however have yet to adopt a routine or had the time due to revision for studies taking up time however I have the feeling that on one or two occasions my pelvic floor became less tense/ slightly fatigued for the first time ever... and it had a notable impact – but in a great way. Refer to desensitization section for more details.

3) Not ejaculating without my partner.

I have kept track on a spreadsheet on the days where I didn't get aid from porn (everyday so far) as well as the day’s I had sexual activity with my partner. Day 3, 6, 7, 10, 11 (day of writing) has seen sexual activity and all of these sessions have been incredible. (1-2 hours with great EQ and overall stamina)

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Forskin and Sensitivity:

Now, as PE has had me playing close attention to my junk, I’d like to make a note of my sensitivity. Since I was young my foreskin had always covered my junk and eventually I reached a point where I could retract it in my teens, and eventually while hard too – if a bit tight. These days, I can retract it at will; however it does not do so automatically upon erection.

As a result of this I never retracted it while masturbating as it was just more pleasurable not to..and thus my glans rarely get exposed. This circumstance I believe had got me to a case of hypersensitivity. Until I became sexually active it was never a problem, however since I have been active with my partner for about 9 months it has been getting in the way during oral and sometimes foreplay, but I avoided mentioning it. When stimulated in a certain way it gave me the urge to urinate..which would occur if continued not to mention the overall uncomfortable sensations that almost made me recoil. At first I was utterly confused and found vary few cases of the same occurring online that involved the impulsive urination if stimulation was continues with no solution or explanation (which is weird for the internet which seems to link any symptom to the deadliest of things at the very least).

Once I starting reading up on the pelvic floor and involuntary kegals, I realised that I had plenty of IK’s when I masturbated and especially when my glans were stimulated. As I was not used to the sensations, I believe my pelvic floor was sent to spasm/lose control and thus the impulsive urination was a likely outcome.

Desensitisation:

As I mentioned, I had progressed to a point where I could retract at will, I eventually got used to cleaning with ease over the years and direct contact was okay until stimulation. Gritting my teeth in the bedroom got me used to an extent of stimulation…and so I decided to go for it and attempt to get my glans used to stimulation….and it worked miracles!

Using Johnson’s baby oil with aloe (which I also use during my routine) I applied direct stimulation, even if emptying my bladder occurred, and continued to do so. I did this for what must have been two hours one night, and close to it again another night and again on another. I stupidly didn't make a note of which nights. I noticed not only immediate relief in the department but a less tense pelvic floor as I think I was no longer really performing IKs and the best of all....

I LAST LONGER IN THE BEDROOM AND FREAKING LOVE DIRECT STIMULATION.

This has come hand in hand with less tense and more relaxed back-passage. Basically, anal has become 200x better. I’m not sure if I’m more confident, relaxed/enjoying myself, gaining better control of my pelvic floor, allowing me to allow the back due to greater balance...or if it’s just too fatigued to be tense. Either way, I could not be happier!

Morning Wood/EQ:

It’s highly possible that due to almost always sleeping with my partner and waking up with the possibility of sexual activity that’s giving me wood, or that the lack of porn and increase in sexual dreams is doing it. Either way, my member is quick to grow when sexual contexts arise, even if I thought I was over-worked and often with great EQ, especially in the mornings or before PE has occurred!

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Overall I’m looking forward to seeing how the next few weeks unfold and if my commitment will continue. I imagine with the lack of responsibilities by the end of this week I will have more than enough time to do my routine daily with focus as well as read up more on the pelvic floors role in sexual health.

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The JP90 Period – Update Three
Day 20 – Stretch Improvements, Foreskins Fun and dietary changes!

Routine:
I mentioned previously that warming up was taking a notable amount of time, and it still is. I’m still curious as to the suitability of a heat pad however I would use it in conjunction to a shorter version of my washcloth/shower head combo as opposed to a full replacement, this is mainly due to the comments I've seen in alignment with the effects of moist heats ability to penetrate better. Require a little more research and thought before I make this change however.

I also previously mentioned how being uncut and sensitive was impeding on my ability to stretch and jelq/Vjelq unretracted. I have made great progress through a couple of means in desensitizing my glans to this level of touch as well as taking a greater focus onto my foreskin – I’ll elaborate later in the update, however in relation to the routine I am now able to perform the stretches before and after the main bulk of the routine fully retracted and have felt far less skin irritation and a greater feeling warm up as a result! It’s very encouraging to have these kinds of improvements throughout my performance of the routine as it feels like there is a new set of achievements that can be gained through the discipline that isn't simply orientated around size which makes me feel like I’m getting closer to aligning fully with PE as a discipline, and enjoying the act itself and not just the prospect of incoming rewards.

Any straining on the skin that was reported in my last update is no more!

Foreskin and Sensitivity
I commented previously on how I believe IKs and hypersensitivity were causing feelings of impulsive urination. Although I can just about trigger these outside the bedroom now – it’s more in control and has utterly removed itself as a factor from the bedroom! Now direct stimulation is downright awesome and I’m no longer hesitant going into the act – enhancing the pleasure even more!

I have however seemingly gained an even more notable ‘ anteater’ when flaccid, to the point where my glans are more than totally covered, but the foreskin can effectively ‘close up’. I have been reflecting quite intently on the issue and have flung up and down the spectrum from “I’d consider circumcision” all the way to “Don’t touch my beautiful foreskin!”. As of right now, I’m far closer to the latter. That being said, I have come to the conclusion that not only is my foreskin notably long and loose, but my frenulum could arguably be slightly short in relation to its size.

I have no issue retracting the skin; I do however have issue keeping it there. However, when flaccid I can retract the skin so far down that my foreskin can effectively cover the whole of my shaft – and when done the frenulum causes the head to bend down in a fashion typical to that of a frenulum breve – which makes me think that’s what I suffer from, only the length of the foreskin has aided the issue to go unnoticed.

Ultimately, I have concluded that in my current state and performance in the bedroom this is not a cause for immediate attention – nor do I wish to go for a full or even partial circumcision. I am however intrigued by the concept of frenulum stretching, tying and Frenuloplasty.

EQ and Dietary changes:
Green Tea, Ground/Powdered Ginger, 85% Dark Chocolate and Ginko Biloba!

I have never really suffered in the EQ department, unless I had been having a massive porn binge but even then getting hard was never a problem. I decided however that since I have been known for my junk-food addiction to make some changes. For the last seven days I have avoided all forms of fizzy drinks (I don’t drink any form of alcoholic drink anyway) and have stuck purely to green tea with honey and ginger mixed in as well as water and squash when not drinking tea.

I’ll be honest, it’s not the best drink in the world but my ratios for it and tolerance for it have improved and I’m even drinking some at this very moment! I normally make approximately 800-900ml at a go and drink it slowly over the course of a few hours, or split it into two and drink at opposite ends of the day.

In terms of EQ, at first I didn't notice much of a difference but that was when out of the bedroom and when I had an exam on my mind/doing PE which I no longer get overly aroused for anyway. When in the bedroom however, the lil guy was like freaking steel! I mean, I've always figured myself at about an 8-9 EQ level anyway, but the guy had veins that looked like they were on a mission to improve my girth all on their own! – This in conjunction with the fact I've not allowed myself to ejaculate out of the presence of my partner has led to some rocking erections and voluminous climatic eruptions!

I also feel like the increase in water is the cause for an even greater amount of pre-cum (and it’s slightly thicker too, leading to quite a few stringy trickily moments that my partner has loved!)

Overall, I intend to keep this intake of water and green tea up as high as I can consciously remember to do!

Flaccid Size:
I have noticed great gains in flaccid size! I've lately taken to locking my door whenever in my room and chilling in the buff and when I do my guy can become unrestrained and relaxed to the point of going from 3.5-5” flaccid, typically in the 4-4.5” range! After PE/Sexual activity/In heat he looks plump and healthy with a great swing/side view I can’t help but take in through my mirrors. I've even started sleeping in the buff too, which I love! When I see him boosted in this state, my confidence jumps up too, especially when my balls loosen up and hang with him!

Goals

1 & 3) No Aid From Porn & Not Ejaculating Without My Partner

I admittedly slipped up on day 12 and 14. I was edging/frenulum stretching/desensitizing and eventually watching porn that started as a comparison hunt for frenulum/foreskins which admittedly was silly. That said, I acknowledged the progress I had made over the past few weeks with kicking porn consumption down and ejaculations down to only twice without my partner in 20 days (which I’m sure he has done the same amount in a matter of hours) – After feeling guilty, I demanded myself to recognize it’s natural nature and the remarkable progress I have made with these goals and so am keeping my eyes on the bigger picture. I’m still very happy with my progress.

For full disclosure, sexual activity was seen on days 11, 13, 15, 19 and 20. (With the slip ups on days 12 and 14). I don’t believe it’s known to have a impact, but I figured reporting it couldn't hurt.

2) Becoming More Attuned To My Pelvic Floor.

I am for now leaving looking into my pelvic floor until I have reason to believe it to once again be an issue. The areas It previously was believed to be playing a role l have since subsided/ found alternate solutions and so although I’m curios anyway, it’s no longer an urgent matter.

Final words:
I'm looking forward to letting him have his rest days and to dive back in on days 22-26 and 29-30 before my update on day 30 I will ultimately do post-PE on that day.

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The JP90 Period – Update Four
Day 40 – Commitment, Weightloss & Health, Goal Revision and Size & Porn Reflection

Routine:

So warming up takes hella time. So much so that now that I have all 6 housemates under one roof that I have taken to leaving the warming up to the very end of my showers and then doing the rest of the routine within the confines of my room before then returning to the bathroom a while later to clean up. Stretching has become vastly easier with no side effects and a beautiful hang. Still debating getting a small heat pad of sorts however if only just for the option to be there if needed.

That’s all that can really be said for the routine, 40 days in and it’s really become an easy one to follow with most kinks out of the way. On some days I even look forward to it!

Foreskin

I’ve spoken a lot recently about sensitivity and my foreskin and I feel like my foreskin situation has been more co-operative during my routines as of late. I still feel like I have a large foreskin but a short frenulum, but as of right now, it can just do it’s natural, beautiful thing and if down the line when I reach a point when my PE has left me satisfied (though I have no intentions to stop when that occurs) I will re-visit the idea of alterations down there – but frenuloplasty/frenulum tying is as drastic as I ever see it getting.

As for sensitivity, I’ve started sleeping with it retracted and hanging around the house with it so with no visible ramifications and a more enjoyable level of sensitivity. This appears to wear down when I over time once push my foreskin back into its natural place however, which I guess is both good and bad. It gives me options while also removing my progress – which can happen on its own accord due to its large and bunching up/easy to slip back nature. I’m happy with it as it stands however and look forward to seeing how it develops.

Dietary changes:

My diet has improved tenfold, and I owe it all to my uptake in green tea! Over the last two years I worked my body out of shape, gaining some love handles on my almost now hour-glass like build and sever mood crashes as I started basically living off junk. After the small changes with green tea, I became more and more enticed by nutrition and have been reading non-stop on the subject and am really ready to start getting in shape!

I’ve been losing weight visibly over the last few weeks without much effort (possibly due to my now staggered over the course of the day 3 cups of green tea, and rapidly increased intake of water and now that I’m back at uni after my visit home have full control over my diet! Kale, Spinach, Berries, eggs, carrots, various other fruit and veg have all made home in my fridge along with flax seeds, chia seeds and more fish/chicken too! All welcomed with open arms as the junk has already been kicked out fully! I’m feeling great and working out an introductory work out plan to work on putting back some muscle mass on my weedy self, gradually of course! My self-confidence is on the up-n-up too! I can only imagine better health and fitness with keep my blood pumping strong, in all regions .


Goal Reflection :

I have decided now that I have passed the 30 day mark which would normally be measurement time, to revise my goals. I’m still refusing to measure the guy as I continue to reflect on size and try and not get caught up in numbers, but the improvement visually. However, I feel my goals need adjusting.

Porn is something I am really beginning to dislike. The way it makes you view not just others but yourself. I think the biggest influence on my new negative view on the subject however is my boyfriend’s consumption which is starting to impact on how I feel he approaches our sex life, but an issue I won’t go into here. Regardless, I am thinking about cutting it out 100%, and not even as a goal. I just don’t wish to see it anymore.

I did cave while at home for the week, cumming three times while at home however most were the result of edging for at least an hour with endurance in mind. That said, it used to be a daily thing and it was all littered over my tumblr too – now in the course of 40 days, I’ve only used it 6 times, 50% of which due to being away from my partner and have now wiped it from appearing on my tumblr feeds etc. I’m still going to mention it over the next few updates, but I don’t even want it as a goal as I don’t think I even need to try anymore (though I will still keep track, just to be safe). I’m so done with porn.

The New goals!

1) Ejaculating without my partner!

I’m going to still limit ejaculating without my partner to a very low amount, but I think I may try edging with my thoughts only every now and then soon, more reading shall be done to clue myself into its pros!

2) Size Goals! and Size reflection!

I’m now close to the half-way point of the JP-90 period and just 20 day’s from measuring day, so Its time to start reflecting. I’m going to assume any gains at this point are still minor, and to prevent getting worked up over life-time goals, I’m thinking I will standardize goals into increments. Aim for say. .10 or .25 of an inch at a time, rather than reaching for what could be years of pe work from the start. With that said, I imagine I will from the 60^th day set a size goal for around 6x5, though there is a chance I may actually, if I’m lucky, be close to that already.

Although I won’t set an overall size goal as of yet, I do want to contemplate at which point I feel I will be satisfied with my size. Not necessarily a point where I would stop, or dislike more gains, but a minimum threshold of what I belief will leave me feeling comfortable. In my mind, I think 7x5.25 is a reasonable and modest outlook in terms of a couple of years down the line, but I may still find myself disappointed still, if that day even ever arrives! I shall continue to reflect as part of this goal, while in conjunction with whatever size goals get set from the 60th day on wards.

3) Be more stealthy!

As I stated before, I felt I was taking too much time up in the bathroom, so this last goal is orientated in keeping the quality of my routine high, while moving from the bathroom to my room after warm-up.

Final Words:

With Uni starting in less than a week, and my new health goals in mind, I will soon be able to test weather my commitment to PE is strong enough to work around my daily duties as a full time student, boyfriend and soon to be fitness freak! Days 40-60 are sure going to test me as I deal with juggling these and a social life with the fact my first measuring day approaches!

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The JP90 Period – Update Five
Day60 – Intensity, Looking to post JP90, Measuring day & Gains!

Routine:
My routine has been pretty stable. Warming up now consists of only stretching. I may seek the use of a heat pad if I find myself to feel the need, but following my PIs the last 20 days I have found no measurable negative effects of skipping this step, but have managed to fit PE into my daily life with much more ease. I still go ahead with stretches to warm up and down, as well as briefly edging a while before sometimes, just to make sure the downstairs is flushed and flexible post-hardon.

Intensity and post day 90:
I have been feeling lately like my dick can take the recommended 50, 30, 50, 30, 50 ,30 with no strain. In fact, my hands now find themselves feeling it more than my downstairs. I’m not going to mess with the formula as until day 90, I shall still consider this a conditioning period, however I feel this is a sign that I’m reaching the point where I could consider more reps or a higher intensity to reach that feeling of effectiveness that can be achieved. Also, as I become more used to the PE, the act of doing so feels less arousing, and so I feel my EQ, although only stronger in the bedroom, is somewhat losing luster during PE, making me questing the routines effectiveness.

Measuring day!:
On day one, I started with a BPEL of 5.75, and NBPEL of 5.5 and an EG of 4.875. As of day Sixty, prior to the conduction of my routine for this day, I have reached:

BPEL: 6.0
NBPEL: 5.5
EG: 5.0

Although my girth has increased only by a fraction, and newbie gains of 0.25” in length is hardly un-heard of, I am so, so happy with these measurable gains. To think this has actually had measurable effect in only 60 days, when I’m in this for the long haul, is very motivational. Not only that, but I feel like the perception of being in the 6” bracket and 5” for girth is similar to that of reducing something that’s $5 to $4.99. It feels like such a difference, even when only minor, as I now perceive myself in an entire different bracket of size, in both dimensions!

I am aware that gains will slow down as these are likely newbie gains, but that are evidence to me that this process holds merit and that like most manual, physical body changes, it will take time. I however am young, and at a point in my life where I can afford to fit such work in, and so I am hopeful for my PE future! Knowing the next inch lays between 6 and 7 is exciting. In my perception, regardless of the reality, 7 is when a guy’s size is one to be confident with. Where no matter what, it can’t be brushed off as embarrassing, regardless of a partners past or endowment. 6 Is by no means embarrassing itself, it just doesn't catch eyes or drop anticipating jaws. I am however, happy with it and feel standard, rather than sub-par. (though no one want’s to just feel standard, even when 50% of people are bellow it, humans just want to be as good as they can be…)

Goals:
As stated previously, I will not be setting any size goals, rather, I will kick back and watch the routine play out and reach what it may.

In terms of pornographic consumption, it truly has almost been completely cut out. I did read some explicit stories as a compromise, and have possibly reached a point of watching it with my partner (for the sake of experimenting with it). But as for solo activity, I've only viewed it when edging, with the goal of not ejaculating, as I believe that’s where it’s biggest drawback comes from, conditioning guys to blow faster.

I've been almost 100% perfect when it comes to not ejaculating with my partner, and have only done so on days where I already have with him.

Final Words:
I have found myself very pleased, and hope that the next 30 days hold further, if only minor, measurable gains. I can't wait to consider alternate manual movements, or increasing the reps/intensity of the routine I am currently doing, but will also consider staying with the current routine until gains stop if further gains are made within the next 30 days. I will continue to keep PE on the down low, and will only go as far as to tell my partner if undeniable gains are made over time. As for now, I'm just enjoying slowly getting even bigger than him and remaining curious as to weather he is starting to notice or if he ever will.