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My name is Carl. I'm a 21 year old guy from Finland.
I've been doing PE semi-consistently (taking breaks for healing) for about 2 years now. During this time I've only been able to get 0.3" of permanent gains in EG and almost maxed out EQ.
I've easily spent more than 1000€ on supplements and devices in order to see at least some gains in length or improvement in my penile curvature.
I paid for a PE coaching service for 16 months and I exchanged e-mails with my coach almost daily. I learned almost everything about PE and got a ton of tips. My coach is a pro and he managed in his time to get really huge gains fast. This made me very jealous since I have trouble seeing any gains at all.
When I started PE I was a mess. I had really, REALLY bad depression caused by severe serotonin depletion. Before I got this I was bullied at school. I've never had many friends and girls were totally out of the question (and are to some extent still). I avoid dating because I'm pretty insecure about my penile curvature. My penis curves to the left somewhat steeply and I find it very unattractive. I could also have some more size since I'm a tall guy with an average sized penis.
It has now been 7 months since I last saw gains. Those were gains in girth which disappeared in two weeks. Yes, I lost 0.3" in EG in just two weeks.
In order to get length gains I've done several different exercises including the JP90, Beginner's routine, Oriental Massage, tension stretch, jelq etc. None of these manual stretches have spurred growth.
It is very likely that I'm using wrong amount of force or I'm stretching in the wrong direction. But I've stetched upwards, downwards, to the left and to the right. I've stretched so lightly that penis just barely got to max length and I've stretched so hard that I've almost felt pain. I've trained 2dayson/1dayoff, 5dayson/2daysoff and every other day.
I get the positive PI's: Better EQ (after a day of rest), bigger flaccid size (disappears within 24 hours), improved Libido, longer lasting morning erections and larger ejaculations. BUT NO GAINS IN LENGTH
4 months ago I got so fucking disappointed in manual stretches that I bought an extender and I've used it ever since. But still I haven't gotten any length gains. ;((
Out of the 26 months I've done PE only 6 showed gains, the rest was a waste of time. I seem to get the all the positive PI's an I recover from my workouts BUT my tunica doesn't seem to grow. It surely expands well during my workouts and I always feel bigger afterwards but still I don't get any growth ;(
You could say that after all this time I'm still searching for that silver line of intensity and reps for growth...
I used to be an active memeber here on PeGym but I left for a year to train alone because I got so jealous of others progresses and penis size. I felt like a total failure compared to other PE'ers and to some extent I still do.
It was painful coming back here seeing how others have progressed, I even shed a tear of jealousy after seeing some members achieved goals. I so wish that I could have gained an inch during the last two years but somehow I've fucked up and ended up wasting a shitload of time.
At the moment PE is not a good thing to think about for me. It causes me a lot of pain to visualize my goals and telling myself that "I CAN GAIN".
That's actually why I decided to come back to the forums, I don't want to be inside my own head with PE anymore, I want some support if you can give it and please if someone has gone trough something similar and has been able to reach their goals afterwards please comment! If you can , please tell about what signs you were experiencing/seeing (other than gains) when you got your first length gains. All I want at the moment is hope.
I still want to reach my goals so bad but first I have to prove to myself that I can get length gains.
I will put my "first" log update tomorrow.
(I apologize for the negative vibe and somewhat scrambled text, I just had my 12th measurement in a row without gains so I'm feeling unstable :c )
Initial size (Jan 2013) : BPFSL 19,8cm (7.8"), BPEL 17,3cm (6.8"), EG 13,5cm (5.3")
Best size (Sep 2015) : BPFSL 19,8cm (7.8"), BPEL 19,5cm (7.7"), EG 15,0cm (5.9"), NBPEL 17,8cm (7.0")
Current (Feb 2016) : BPFSL 19,8cm (7.8"), BPEL 19,5cm (6.8"), EG 14,3cm (5.6"), NBPEL 16,8cm (6.6")
Goals
Short term: GET AT LEAST SOMETHING
Mid term: NBPEL 7"x6.1"
Long term : 8"x6.7"
My name is Carl. I'm a 21 year old guy from Finland.
I've been doing PE semi-consistently (taking breaks for healing) for about 2 years now. During this time I've only been able to get 0.3" of permanent gains in EG and almost maxed out EQ.
I've easily spent more than 1000€ on supplements and devices in order to see at least some gains in length or improvement in my penile curvature.
I paid for a PE coaching service for 16 months and I exchanged e-mails with my coach almost daily. I learned almost everything about PE and got a ton of tips. My coach is a pro and he managed in his time to get really huge gains fast. This made me very jealous since I have trouble seeing any gains at all.
When I started PE I was a mess. I had really, REALLY bad depression caused by severe serotonin depletion. Before I got this I was bullied at school. I've never had many friends and girls were totally out of the question (and are to some extent still). I avoid dating because I'm pretty insecure about my penile curvature. My penis curves to the left somewhat steeply and I find it very unattractive. I could also have some more size since I'm a tall guy with an average sized penis.
It has now been 7 months since I last saw gains. Those were gains in girth which disappeared in two weeks. Yes, I lost 0.3" in EG in just two weeks.
In order to get length gains I've done several different exercises including the JP90, Beginner's routine, Oriental Massage, tension stretch, jelq etc. None of these manual stretches have spurred growth.
It is very likely that I'm using wrong amount of force or I'm stretching in the wrong direction. But I've stetched upwards, downwards, to the left and to the right. I've stretched so lightly that penis just barely got to max length and I've stretched so hard that I've almost felt pain. I've trained 2dayson/1dayoff, 5dayson/2daysoff and every other day.
I get the positive PI's: Better EQ (after a day of rest), bigger flaccid size (disappears within 24 hours), improved Libido, longer lasting morning erections and larger ejaculations. BUT NO GAINS IN LENGTH
4 months ago I got so fucking disappointed in manual stretches that I bought an extender and I've used it ever since. But still I haven't gotten any length gains. ;((
Out of the 26 months I've done PE only 6 showed gains, the rest was a waste of time. I seem to get the all the positive PI's an I recover from my workouts BUT my tunica doesn't seem to grow. It surely expands well during my workouts and I always feel bigger afterwards but still I don't get any growth ;(
You could say that after all this time I'm still searching for that silver line of intensity and reps for growth...
I used to be an active memeber here on PeGym but I left for a year to train alone because I got so jealous of others progresses and penis size. I felt like a total failure compared to other PE'ers and to some extent I still do.
It was painful coming back here seeing how others have progressed, I even shed a tear of jealousy after seeing some members achieved goals. I so wish that I could have gained an inch during the last two years but somehow I've fucked up and ended up wasting a shitload of time.
At the moment PE is not a good thing to think about for me. It causes me a lot of pain to visualize my goals and telling myself that "I CAN GAIN".
That's actually why I decided to come back to the forums, I don't want to be inside my own head with PE anymore, I want some support if you can give it and please if someone has gone trough something similar and has been able to reach their goals afterwards please comment! If you can , please tell about what signs you were experiencing/seeing (other than gains) when you got your first length gains. All I want at the moment is hope.
I still want to reach my goals so bad but first I have to prove to myself that I can get length gains.
I will put my "first" log update tomorrow.
(I apologize for the negative vibe and somewhat scrambled text, I just had my 12th measurement in a row without gains so I'm feeling unstable :c )
Initial size (Jan 2013) : BPFSL 19,8cm (7.8"), BPEL 17,3cm (6.8"), EG 13,5cm (5.3")
Best size (Sep 2015) : BPFSL 19,8cm (7.8"), BPEL 19,5cm (7.7"), EG 15,0cm (5.9"), NBPEL 17,8cm (7.0")
Current (Feb 2016) : BPFSL 19,8cm (7.8"), BPEL 19,5cm (6.8"), EG 14,3cm (5.6"), NBPEL 16,8cm (6.6")
Goals
Short term: GET AT LEAST SOMETHING
Mid term: NBPEL 7"x6.1"
Long term : 8"x6.7"
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