I swear... I think LOL!

been really depressed today. i guess it's from not going to the Gym. i think that's good. I need to go to the gym in order to feel better about myself. I hope that sticks.

day sucked.

but what i did find out was how to put it into Words. I'm the parts car. I'm the vehicle with the big engine, the best brakes, all the cool sh*t you want, but i don't have the chassis.

Basically my Volvo is me. She's the 93 with the Piston Squirters, the AW71 transmission with the Dana 30 Locker dif. With the boost controller set to 12psi, she's just a damn joy to be around. However she's not at all much to look at... It takes a special kind of someone to love that car and want to be seen with it.

if you were to build a nice car you would take a bunch of things from her and make a cool little sports car. I liked her, even the body. I grew to like the big square interior too... But in her condition (uncared for ratty and damaged) I too was somewhat embarrassed to be seen with her, and my mom? forget about it, she didn't want to be seen with it at all, but she LOVED driving it. My volvo had this insane ability to make you smile everytime you drove it. I liked, in fact, I loved the way she looked (body style) but the condition she was in, looked bad on me.

I can understand where people say you look bad if you're fat... Working on that now. It's like keeping your car clean and maintence up.

I'm tired of being that Volvo. I'm Tired of being the car with all the cool stuff someone would want to take and put into their project (That douchenozzle that she dated). Why can't I be that "chassis" that someone wants to modify? Well that's what I'm doing. I'm trying to go from being the Volvo to a 911 Turbo or something. Something so universally awesome you can take me anywhere and I shine. The only thing you could possibly do to me is put some "wheels" on me and probably improve quickness. outside of that you wouldn't change anything.

Hell i could be the volvo, but instead of being "uncared for and ratty (i.e. fat and sloppy)" I'd be the upgraded version, S90 front end and taillights, some dished 17" wheels and a bigger turbo with more boost! Not universally accepted as "hot" (never will be, being brown) but definitely more desirable and less embarrassing to be seen with.

basically From this
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To This:
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Neither are my car, but the second one is exactly how I wanted my Volvo to look... The Second one, is Incidentally the EXACT same car as the first. What a wonder a bit of work does.