I'm posting because it's a special date 3/21/13... I'll get to that in a minute, it's a thing about numerology.

I've been "okay" February was a TOUGH month for me. well 2013 has been a tough year so far... First my New Years Eve exploits... holy shnickeys! LMAO! never gonna do THAT again, ROFL! ever instantly regret something? yea...

Well to be clear me and the "dream girl" broke up in Mid January. I go back to my "Full Bars"... At some level she just wasn't compatible. I discovered that she just wasn't 100% mentally ready (didn't help she was 8 years younger than me, LOL! nobody has all full bars, and she pegged them in places I should have made compromises)

Still have my other friends and just got home from a week away with my new lady friend... HOLY CRAP that was leagues of fun. She's a couple years younger than a couple of my previous partners, early 40s, but she has no children and wants some, so she's actually got potential for a long-term thing . She's got a VERY good job and actually a very important job in the Government so I'm proud of the work she does and she's helped me mentally through a very trying time...

Trying time... this is where the date comes in... February 17th I lost my uncle to cancer. It wasn't unexpected but it still punched me in the chest. He was a great artists and a genuine guy... very wise. It kind of made me think...

Then 6 days later, my REALLY good friend (we'd been intimate for the better part of a year about 5 years ago) and her boyfriend of a year, i believe, had been murdered in cold blood. Bodies found in a burning car, both shot in the head. She was the life of any room she was in. Incredibly intelligent but so down to earth that you would have never known she figured out theories of physics, theology, politics, astronomy, and anything else you could DREAM of that you never even knew about. She'd never let you know she had this knowledge in her if you never guided a conversation down that path. I miss her every day. She was 33, her boy friend 34... 3/21/13 gives me the 3/3/4 them together... I loved her more than I knew and I still cry from time to time missing her but I believe in more than earth and she's visited me in my dreams and let me know she was okay. Even got a special full session visit a couple nights ago, like nothing ever happened, all new conversation i hugged her cried on her and told her I loved her. Great release in that moment...

Anyhoo... I've decided to make my last semester in school about her... We were going through together and she never got a chance to finish. I'm going to finish this for her and for her memory.

So that's the bad, back to the good... my new lady friend REALLY likes me and... quite honestly, the sex was fantastic. gotta teach her how to give head a little better but LMAO it's all good! She had this amazingly nice house I wish I could show pictures that wouldn't incriminate me or her! LMAO! absolutely adored her pets... So much so that I REALLY want to get a dog now

Anyway, that's my life so far. Hopefully this year goes a little better... OH OH!!!

I also just bought a new car!!! well... not exactly a new car... new to ME car... 1986 Peugeot 505 turbo 5spd!!! super rare! woot definitely a toy! and finally have another second car and I absolutely love it!

anyway, lots of bad, lots of good, so overall I'm maintaining.

As far as PE, i've been going I got up to an actual 5.6875" girth (just a HAIR under 5.75") before I stopped. It was Absolutely MASSIVE in my hand LOL!... I lost a little bit by the time I got with my new ladyfriend (5.5" at 85% erection level), and she was stupid tight even completely turned on she was pretty shallow and relatively narrow ... we had a bit of an issue, she got a little uncomfortable with me inside of her but she grinned and bared it. she said she wanted it deep and told me "I can handle more than you think i can" so I gave it to her and she asked me to stop LMAO! ALL PE people... keep up your Stretches, Jelqs and squeezes and measure with a tailor's tape or paper strip... no give and don't give yourself any slack... you're only cheating yourself when you don't measure correctly! 5.75" girth is pretty substantial (as some of you know I cheat myself of girth so I can always be a little bigger than the numbers say)

anyway, i got a chance to cook for my ladyfriend too... showed my ass in the kitchen literally LOL! cooked fresh out of the shower in a Towel! shocked the hell out of her "And you can cook?!" hehehehehehe, guess if I could just finish losing this weight i'd be a 10... Damn that, I'm a 10 right now

You've got to stay happy even when bad is around! that's the biggest hurdle I've found, just trying to stay happy!

anyhoo, I just wanted to update some of you guys who worried. I tried to PM you back Pirate, but i can't cause my box is full send a message to my email on record