still reeling from the death of a dear friend back in Feb.

My phone deleted all my contacts so her number disappeared from my phone but I kept the last text messages from her.

I was scrolling through my phone and saw the familiar number. thumbed through our conversation and it still genuinely makes me laugh. I f*cking miss her...

I type this with tears in my eyes. Just needed to vent.

If it hurts more than this to be a "widow" I want to die first.