Blurgh... I so need a PE partner, preferably a boyfriend that just so happens to be into PE. I've been into it since I was 17 and never been able to stick to it for more than a few months, averaging usually just a few weeks at a time with months-long gaps between. I don't know why I have such trouble sticking to such things. No, strike that, I do. I'm the personality-type that needs constant affirmation - pitiful as that may sound. I drop so many projects and hobbies when not-enough or no attention and validation/support is shown directly.

I also tend to work on projects with much more efficiency and drive when I have a partner. I'm not one that meshes with the whole individualist culture. Not out of competitiveness, which is something I abhor. Rather, it seems to be a reason hidden even to myself - that or I'm just blind to it. Maybe I just don't know how to define it. It may just stem from the fact that I've never been good at making friends.

I envy those that succeed in brainwashing themselves above life's little annoying tendencies.