Hey everyone! I'm new to the forum. I've been browsing through many popular forums (PEGYM included) for many years. Motivated, I've decided to join today and share a bit of my story.
I would assume my story is very similar to most here(mine might be a bit darker than some). I was always insecure about my size since I was about 14. not only that due to my below average girth size (5.5-6X4.5-4.75 then) I had difficulty achieving any sensation during intercourse (my partners and I). Most common positions like missionary and girl on top did not provide any pleasure for myself and whoever I had(attempted) to have sex with. I've been made fun of by my ex, I've heard the infamous "is that it?" from one chick", Ive had one ask me "why is it so small?". I've been shot down by women because of my size (being overweight added fuel to the fire but thats a different story). That psychologically debilitated me to the point where I became terrified of approaching women as I've gotten older.
My friends always bragged about their size. Everywhere I went I've always heard women talk about "how lesser of a man you are". It has haunted me my whole life. I became more and more introverted and less social just to avoid interaction with women that would eventually lead to more rejection. In turn this fueled my addiction to porn.
I know on the flip side, some will say "its all in my head", "size doesn't matter", "every woman is different", "its how you use it", "there's guys in worst situations than me". Sometimes I feel dumb for letting this control my life but this is my life experience and my psychological warfare I've been dealing with for years.
Over the years I've bought $5k+ worth of gadgets but never had the privacy to commit to a routine. Now I'm 29 and have decided to gain control of my psyche and put in the effort consistent with a routine along with getting in shape.
I would assume my story is very similar to most here(mine might be a bit darker than some). I was always insecure about my size since I was about 14. not only that due to my below average girth size (5.5-6X4.5-4.75 then) I had difficulty achieving any sensation during intercourse (my partners and I). Most common positions like missionary and girl on top did not provide any pleasure for myself and whoever I had(attempted) to have sex with. I've been made fun of by my ex, I've heard the infamous "is that it?" from one chick", Ive had one ask me "why is it so small?". I've been shot down by women because of my size (being overweight added fuel to the fire but thats a different story). That psychologically debilitated me to the point where I became terrified of approaching women as I've gotten older.
My friends always bragged about their size. Everywhere I went I've always heard women talk about "how lesser of a man you are". It has haunted me my whole life. I became more and more introverted and less social just to avoid interaction with women that would eventually lead to more rejection. In turn this fueled my addiction to porn.
I know on the flip side, some will say "its all in my head", "size doesn't matter", "every woman is different", "its how you use it", "there's guys in worst situations than me". Sometimes I feel dumb for letting this control my life but this is my life experience and my psychological warfare I've been dealing with for years.
Over the years I've bought $5k+ worth of gadgets but never had the privacy to commit to a routine. Now I'm 29 and have decided to gain control of my psyche and put in the effort consistent with a routine along with getting in shape.

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