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The arguments I read here all made too much sense so this is my brand new log , right here. As a person I often lack willpower when it comes to myself but less about others so I hope keeping this log alive will create some external motivation and make me enter a virtuous circle.
One of the best arguments for starting a log is that it helps one keeping track, that is also part of my decision. In fact I've already lost track of my PE'ing when I started only a few days ago ! So I'll put it in writing here. And to punish myself for my lack of rigor in the first days, I've decided to restart counting days from 1, starting today.
After much debate with myself I decided to stop ejaculating. Until a week ago I was on a 5-ish time/week basis, I plan to switch to one time per week. As I wrote elsewhere, I stopped watching porn 2 month ago without much difficulty. I didn't feel addicted to it, in fact I would watch porn only every 4 or 5 masturbation, but that's still an average of once a week, and I simply cannot justify having this in my life. It doesn't bring me anything good, makes me feel awful about myself just after orgasm ( I KNOW you guys know the feeling, turning off the video in a rush right after you're done because you feel so bad about what you watched). I don't EVER want to feel bad about sex or about anything for that matter, so I am determined to suppress it from my life once and for all.
So without porn, for the last 2 month I was still masturbating often, fantasizing almost exclusively about my GF, but when I read testimonies about how ejaculating drains your energy, I couldn't help but relate. I lack energy very often and while there might be other causes, I don't want to neglect anything. Besides, my EQ is not satisfying so I'll keep my mojo and stop ejaculating- at the same time I'm starting to PE. Changing too many parameters at the same time is will not exactly bring scientific data but who cares, I don't want to lose time, I want a radical change. It's been about 48H since I haven't ejaculated and can already feel it's going to be harder to abstain than say, smoking a joint or watching some porn.
This brings us back on the topic of willpower/procrastination; this will be an interesting experiment. The quick research I have made on the subject suggest that we have a finite amount of "will" and that we should apply it wisely for the things that matter the most. It is problematic for me since I feel like I am in a big period of change in my life, for the better, in many areas and all of them require some degree or persistence and mental strength. In other words, something has to give. I've quit any form of cannabis a few month ago, I try to stay away from alcohol, I study new subjects, I've been going to a Gym to gain muscle ( I'm really slim) for 2 weeks, now it's no ejaculation ( or masturbation without climax, probably even harder to resist) and a regular, methodical PE routine, plus the log... So I'm afraid I'm going to crack somewhere along the way, I feel I might be asking myself too much too soon. So to counterbalance a bit I've decided to indulge myself on the things I like, like buying an expensive book or buying a fancy pair of shoes/ piece of clothing. I think clothing can play a big part in one's self confidence so in the end I'm still in the virtuous circle.
We'll see, I'll do my best not to disappoint, but I invite you guys to post here and give me all the advice you can, all constructive criticism is welcome and it takes a lot to hurt my feelings so comment as much as you like and encourage me! I feel more determined than ever but I'll need you guys. Logs are one of the best things about this forum. Oh, and feel free to correct all my english mistakes, even the tiny or stylistic ones. I'll be thankful.
E.
The arguments I read here all made too much sense so this is my brand new log , right here. As a person I often lack willpower when it comes to myself but less about others so I hope keeping this log alive will create some external motivation and make me enter a virtuous circle.
One of the best arguments for starting a log is that it helps one keeping track, that is also part of my decision. In fact I've already lost track of my PE'ing when I started only a few days ago ! So I'll put it in writing here. And to punish myself for my lack of rigor in the first days, I've decided to restart counting days from 1, starting today.
After much debate with myself I decided to stop ejaculating. Until a week ago I was on a 5-ish time/week basis, I plan to switch to one time per week. As I wrote elsewhere, I stopped watching porn 2 month ago without much difficulty. I didn't feel addicted to it, in fact I would watch porn only every 4 or 5 masturbation, but that's still an average of once a week, and I simply cannot justify having this in my life. It doesn't bring me anything good, makes me feel awful about myself just after orgasm ( I KNOW you guys know the feeling, turning off the video in a rush right after you're done because you feel so bad about what you watched). I don't EVER want to feel bad about sex or about anything for that matter, so I am determined to suppress it from my life once and for all.
So without porn, for the last 2 month I was still masturbating often, fantasizing almost exclusively about my GF, but when I read testimonies about how ejaculating drains your energy, I couldn't help but relate. I lack energy very often and while there might be other causes, I don't want to neglect anything. Besides, my EQ is not satisfying so I'll keep my mojo and stop ejaculating- at the same time I'm starting to PE. Changing too many parameters at the same time is will not exactly bring scientific data but who cares, I don't want to lose time, I want a radical change. It's been about 48H since I haven't ejaculated and can already feel it's going to be harder to abstain than say, smoking a joint or watching some porn.
This brings us back on the topic of willpower/procrastination; this will be an interesting experiment. The quick research I have made on the subject suggest that we have a finite amount of "will" and that we should apply it wisely for the things that matter the most. It is problematic for me since I feel like I am in a big period of change in my life, for the better, in many areas and all of them require some degree or persistence and mental strength. In other words, something has to give. I've quit any form of cannabis a few month ago, I try to stay away from alcohol, I study new subjects, I've been going to a Gym to gain muscle ( I'm really slim) for 2 weeks, now it's no ejaculation ( or masturbation without climax, probably even harder to resist) and a regular, methodical PE routine, plus the log... So I'm afraid I'm going to crack somewhere along the way, I feel I might be asking myself too much too soon. So to counterbalance a bit I've decided to indulge myself on the things I like, like buying an expensive book or buying a fancy pair of shoes/ piece of clothing. I think clothing can play a big part in one's self confidence so in the end I'm still in the virtuous circle.
We'll see, I'll do my best not to disappoint, but I invite you guys to post here and give me all the advice you can, all constructive criticism is welcome and it takes a lot to hurt my feelings so comment as much as you like and encourage me! I feel more determined than ever but I'll need you guys. Logs are one of the best things about this forum. Oh, and feel free to correct all my english mistakes, even the tiny or stylistic ones. I'll be thankful.
E.
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