Erratic's consistency log

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Oh, and I tokk 900mg Ginseng and and some maca this morning, after a one-week break. Felt absolutely no difference in energy. Now that I think of it I didn't feel any loss of energy when I stopped taking them. Maybe the ones I buy don't work well ? I buy them from the supermarket. Any brand to recommend ?

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Hi guys !

Day 16: Honesty I can't remember if I Pe'd. I think I didn't. But, even if that's not PE related, I felt pretty much alpha the last part of the day, very good eye contacts and smiles with girls on the street and in class, definitely good for the ego. It had been a long time since I had felt that confident. I also felt more connected to my dick, it's hard to explain but when looking at a girl in class I was actually able to have a semi-boner just picturing her naked, and I had like this tiny uncontrolled Kegel you get when you're turned on, just by looking at girls. That also is rather unusual for me and -I think- noteworthy.

Day17: one hour session today, and among my best so far. My kegels felt strong and I was able to go from EQ 6 to 8 almost at will. I did the usual 3x (50 sloooow jelqs and 50 slooow V-jelqs), with a bit more stretching than usual ( I just felt like it ) and less helicopters. Still haven't been able to solve the warm-down problem, do you guys think it could hinder my progress?

Anyway I'm tempted to say my penis is a bit longer than when I started 2 weeks ago but it's moot since it might be my imagination and I'm not going to measure before a few weeks anyway. I even hid the ruler away to avoid temptation :- )

E.

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DAY 18- the usual routine, felt really good. After a 15 minutes warm-up, and 50Jelqs + 50 v-jelqs, I took a little nap, haha. Woke up, finished the session and edged a godd 40 minutes. That was NICE. no orgasm at the end.

Day 19, today- Had a great session again, it seems to get better each time ! No proper warm up but I edged a good 15 minutes before actually Jelquing. Crazy good edging, I could tell the orgasm would have been mind-blowing if I had crossed the limit. But I didn't; instead I did my jelqs, and in between each set or so, I would helicopter then edge 5 minutes. When I say edge I don't mean 100% erect, more between 70- 90 % erect with pikes at 100 as I kegelled. But it felt awesome; my kegels have never been that good. And I am more than pleased by my progress in the PONR domain; not just because of an increase control over my cock but mostly because of a strengthened willpower. Never before had I ever walked so close to the edge of the cliff without falling. Of course I still have lots of room for improvement, but the perceived control gain is motivational to say the least. In 48h I have an appointment with a very, very fine lady and I hope to make my first contribution to the " success" forum by reporting a " it feels bigger " type of comment from her, haha. Now I hate myself for jinxing it ! I hope my performance anxiety won't get the better of me...

E.

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day 20: rest.

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It's been a while since I last updated my log...

Day 21 to 32 : " rest ". I couldn't PE because of privacy issues for one week, then my lower back started to hurt pretty bad so I haven't PE'd or been to the gym for almost two weeks ! Thankfully I'm back on track. Day 33 and 34 I had nice sessions, definitely not as intense as before. Not because my PIs were bad, just because I seemed to lack energy and stamina. My EQ is still perfectible.
I have spent a bit of time with my GF over the last weeks and to my disappointment, the PE effect has yet to be really felt. One thing's for sure: I don't want to gain to much erected length because she already says often that I go " too far ". 10/10 EQ is still my #1 goal but girth and flaccid size are the only dimension I would like to change. It appears that according to the smooth muscle theory, girth exercises are the way to go for me. I haven't decided yet if I should keep my 2day on, 1day off routine or start PEing more often. We'll see!

E.

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Day 35
Basic routine but no warmup. Warm down in shower.

150 jelqs, 200 v-jelqs
A few helis and stretches.

I added a set of 50 V-jelqs because I felt like it. Like I said, I 'm focused on girth; should I favor one type of Jelq over the other ?

Day 36 ( thursday )- rest !

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Day 60: nothing.

Basically I haven't been able to PE properly in more than a month. That means less than 5 JP90 sessions in the last 40 days, which sucks. There were some very valid privacy issues I could not overcome (and still today; basically I share my room with a buddy who needs it bad, and there is one bathroom for 5 flatmates so unless I wake up on purpose at 3AM, there is no way I can spend a serene hour-long session in the bathroom. Not to mention having to carry my lube to the bathroom with me in a stealth fashion.... Very unpractical. ) It would be lying to pretend that this was only because of these privacy issues that I had such a long break; I lost motivation as well. My mild ED is still very annoying and to be honest, a source of anxiety since it's close to impossible to get my glans engorged and hard. I can get a shaft stiff enough for penetration rather easily, but the head just won't get big and hard. Unless I apply pressure with my thumb on the top of my dick. So I can't help but fear I might have some kind of physical ED, and of course that sort of thinking won't help me with the psychological part of my ED. I've failed many times to actually balloon or edge, and came instead. I must say depriving myself of a great, free pleasure like giving myself orgasms is for now beyond my willpower. Anyway I still love my penis, I still want to enjoy a fully functional cock that tickles "that" spot in my girls belly and I need all the advice and encouragement you guys could give me ! I'll try my best to make some time for my PE but for the next few weeks that's going to require some serious organization. Oh well. The way things look I'll have to start the JP90 all over again anyway... sigh

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Day 61:
Rice sock warmup for 10 minutes
50 V-jelqs, 50Jelqs.

I've had morning wood the past 2 days which was nice. Today's session got shortened when I came without having an orgasm ( that tells you how far I am from dry orgasms ^^).

E.

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Day 61: Nothing on the PE front but interactions with girls, which boosted my self-confidence. No worning wood.
Day 62 ( Wednesday 10th): Morning wood!

-50 V-jelqs. I took measurements and I'm definitely around the 8 inch mark BPEL, and a bit above 5 inches in girth. So that's about a 0.75 gain in lenght, and nothing in the girth department. It's hard to get a precise measurement because the length is EQ dependent, but when I kegel however briefly I am above the 20cm mark. That's kind of cool but I didn't want any length gain ( except maybe flaccid) but girth and EQ instead. The increase in length is not due to EQ improvement because there is still much to be desired in that area... I think I'm going to focus on the V-jelqs for now. Any comments/advice welcome...

E.

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Hey guys and gals

I'm afraid I have nothing thrilling to report. Recently I have been held back in my PEing by several factors, the first of which would be privacy issues. I have no place to myself and after helping people out by having them sleep in my room, it's my turn to live as a guest at someone's place. The worst part is that it could last a few months. I guess I could sneak-PE but the motivation's not really here, and I want to be able to relax fully when I'm PE-ing.

Another factor is that I've been reading a bit on masturbation addiction, and at least some of the symptoms I read of, ring a bell. I've been masturbating several times a week, ( say between 1 and 10 times per week) for more almost 15 years now, and while porn addiction is not a problem, I'm starting to wonder how big a toll this masturbating habit has taken on my sexuality and on my johnson. To be clear, I feel kind of disconnected to my penis, and overall I seem to be lacking sensitivity, both mentally and physically. Ive always used a pretty hard grip on my penis, clenching hard and pulling the frenulum to stimulate my erection, and it might (or might not) have unsensitized my dick. I think they call it the "death grip". Bottom line, I've made the sole possible decision and stopped orgasming since last tuesday. My willpower will once again be tempted when I see my GF I a few hours, but i've made up my mind not to orgasm for at least a few months. So far, so good, but if I happen to " flatline " along the way, I will probably resort to using a chemical aide to be able to get hard and bone her; even if I'm doing this so that she might benefit my better sexual health on the long run, there's no need that she suffers the short-term consequences. If the temporary loss of libido cannot be avoided, then I guess I'll have to explain and hope that she's supportive. All this means that I won't be PE'ing for the next few weeks. I want to try and leave the damn thing alone as much as possible, so to speak. I'm even refraining from fantasizing, in an attempt to truly reboot my brain.

Wish me luck guys, and as usual, feel free to chime in with words of support and/or advice.

E.

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Hey guys and gals

I'm afraid I have nothing thrilling to report. Recently I have been held back in my PEing by several factors, the first of which would be privacy issues. I have no place to myself and after helping people out by having them sleep in my room, it's my turn to live as a guest at someone's place. The worst part is that it could last a few months. I guess I could sneak-PE but the motivation's not really here, and I want to be able to relax fully when I'm PE-ing.

Another factor is that I've been reading a bit on masturbation addiction, and at least some of the symptoms I read of, ring a bell. I've been masturbating several times a week, ( say between 1 and 10 times per week) for more almost 15 years now, and while porn addiction is not a problem, I'm starting to wonder how big a toll this masturbating habit has taken on my sexuality and on my johnson. To be clear, I feel kind of disconnected to my penis, and overall I seem to be lacking sensitivity, both mentally and physically. Ive always used a pretty hard grip on my penis, clenching hard and pulling the frenulum to stimulate my erection, and it might (or might not) have unsensitized my dick. I think they call it the "death grip". Bottom line, I've made the sole possible decision and stopped orgasming since last tuesday. My willpower will once again be tempted when I see my GF I a few hours, but i've made up my mind not to orgasm for at least a few months. So far, so good, but if I happen to " flatline " along the way, I will probably resort to using a chemical aide to be able to get hard and bone her; even if I'm doing this so that she might benefit my better sexual health on the long run, there's no need that she suffers the short-term consequences. If the temporary loss of libido cannot be avoided, then I guess I'll have to explain and hope that she's supportive. All this means that I won't be PE'ing for the next few weeks. I want to try and leave the damn thing alone as much as possible, so to speak. I'm even refraining from fantasizing, in an attempt to truly reboot my brain.

Wish me luck guys, and as usual, feel free to chime in with words of support and/or advice.

E.

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It is gonna take a while for sensitivity to come back.You are going to go through a limp dick phase where you will feel miserable because you can't feel anything done there. But don't worry it is your penis trying to go back to normal.When you regain sensitivity you will find that you will ejaculate quick quickly but that is also normal.

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Interesting.

Care to share your particular experience in this process ? Any advice on how to deal with the GF " issue" ?

Anyway thanks for your input.

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Oh, and Week 1 of no orgasm is down. That might seriously be a personal best. Yay...

E.

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You could try to have sex with her to see how much of your sensitivity has returned. It is unsuccessful, all it means is that you have to get your penis some more time to balance out.