patchfur's progress log

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Just starting this process. The start BPFSL is 6.5 inch as of four days ago. I don't know the erect girth as I am fighting ED by going cold turkey on the porn and masturbation. I have begun a routine of 10 minutes warmup in a hot water, followed by 10 minutes of stretching, and then 10 minutes of jelqing, two days on and one day off. Twenty minutes of kegels every other day.

I found "Your Brain on Porn" while researching ED issues. I have always been fit, grew up on a farm, military service, some martial arts, camping, sailing, and canoeing. I am a natural trainer with weights six days a week. 6' 1" and 220 lbs. I am 47 years old and have been married for 27 years. We have five children. I never had a problem with getting it up and I never thought about size, or anything else about it, for that matter.

But I started watching online porn and masturbating while doing so for the first time a few years ago, and you are all familiar with how this progresses. Real sex less often, shittier performance in bed, lack of energy, and it finally culminated in a complete inability to get it up during real sex (or non-porn masturbation) and some really wierd shit was on my computer. Brain melting shit. Between the shock of not being able to have sex and taking a cold look at the WTF crap that I had been watching I totally lost my shit for a bit. Started trying to learn what was up.

I dropped the whole porn and masturbation habit cold on 5 February 2013 and performance is better, but not what it was, or what I remember, but of course I can't remember what it was like since I never paid any damn attention to it. So after quite a bit of browsing around this seems to be the best place to try an exercise and diet based solution to better erection quality.

Some normal function has returned since I quit. I get aroused at the sight of a pretty girl or a good day-dream or a hot story in a novel or my wife talking dirty. Some morning wood. It gets hard enough to sometimes enjoy real sex all the way to the end. But it is still kind of flaccid. And I still lose what erection there is more often than not before we finish.

The goals are:
1) To fix the damage I believe I did to myself.
2) To have a reliable functioning erection 99 times out of a 100 when I get it on with the wife.
3) Straighten up a bend to the left that seems to have developed (I don't think it was there before the porn and masturbation.)

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13-04-23 Day 14 BPFSL 7" Which seems odd and sudden.

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13-5-16 10 min warmup, 10 min light stretch, 10 min jelq. bpfsl 7 1/8". Difficulty maintaining a high quality erection for more than a few minutes. Just started PHGH supplements. Have tried erection tea but that made little difference - have developed a taste for green tea though, so that is something new I would never have otherwise tried. I feel like there is improvement but it is very slow. Will have to get a flexible tape measure as I could actually be able to measure erect girth now.

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13-5-22 Have had a few high EQ erections in the morning. Still cannot maintain a high EQ erection through intercourse. Completely failed to get even partially erect when doing jelqs tonight. Still on the 10/10/10 routine one day on and one day off.

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@ patchlur. Keep me informed as to how the PHGH works. As for your ED problems, it appears you have some sort of generalised anxiety at home and/or anxiety about sex itself. You are much to young and fit to have a physiological cause of ED.

Try to think about what it is causing your subconcience, Could your inner mind be punishing you for enjoying the new avenues of gratification you now enjoy, ie. porn, masterbation? Have you had marital problems of any sort? It sounds as if your performance begins to wane as soon as intimacy starts. Do you have time alone to watch porn and just pleasure yourself? These are the sort of questions you should ask yourself. And remember, most guys are not as big as the porn stars. 6.5" is not small by any means.

Feel free to bounce any questions you may have off me after you've had time to meditate on all these things. Good luck brother.

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13-6-2 Went to see a doctor, and while he had nothing to say beyond the "90% is psychological" he did write up some blood test work. He also provided a sample of Cialis and 1/2 tab allowed a hell of an erection all the way to the end but I would vastly prefer this to be a psychological or health issue.

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@Hellagoody - I am picking up what you are putting down. I am mostly worried that I just don't find my wife attractive any more. She has a very pretty face and is helpful, kind, and supportive - the best possible wife. But here is the issue: she has gained a lot of weight over the last several years. Not quite land whale quantity but she has a gut and a couple of rolls. Now, I grew up thinking fat is a grim thing - a sign of serious lack of discipline. And I personally find it grotesque. I get it on, but if I see the fat, I start thinking about it, and then the erection just dumps, and then I feel guilty for not being into her body, and then it is really over. I have brought up her weight a few times, but the thought of crushing her feelings that hard with an in your face confrontation about the issue is hard. And really, what if the problem is actually me and I am just using her weight as an excuse? So I am going to eliminate my health as an issue before I go down that path. Shit, I'd rather talk to a doctor about ED (and that was hard and I've done some damn tough things) than hack on her about weight causing my lack of lust. So I am trying everything else first. As far as the size goes I am not worried about that - it is the erection quality I am hoping to address. And yeah, I feel seriously off about the porn and the masturbation. I am hoping the cold turkey approach makes a difference to the real sex.

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Also, re PHGH, it might make a difference but I am attempting so many different things at once that it is unlikely that I'll be able to pick one factor out. I do appreciate that I don't have to run all over looking up random supplements and combine them. Who the hell knows what's really in these capsules anyway? I do think my weight training is going a bit better - I have more stamina per my records than I did a few months ago and my squats and bench (free weights) have gone up about 10% since I started the PHGH two weeks ago. Which is a lot in a hurry for me, actually. I maintain strength rather than push for growth - low rep high weight stuff.

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13-6-11 Doc says nothing wrong with me physically. Testosterone is actually higher than normal, which probably means all the various things I've been trying is pushing it up a bit. Erection quality is up when v-jelquing. Still doing 10/10/10 three times a week and various versions of kegels off days. Still having issues finishing - starting it up seems to work fine. So that leaves mind games: confidence, stress, and functional. I am guessing stress. So we did the whole no talking about stupid shit, low light, soft music, and she plied me with massage and oil. No problems everything works. Eight times in one weekend, with one fail to finish on the fifth go likely due to exhaustion after about an hour of pounding away.

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13-6-12 10 minute warm up, 10 minute gentle stretch, 10 minute v-jelq. BPFSL 7-1/8". I tried to get a full erection and it was pretty close but not all the way there. NBPEL 6-1/4". Still haven't bothered with girth as I don't have a cloth measuring tape yet. It seems to be a bit larger toward the head, and somewhat straighter.

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13-6-25 10/10/10 Could not get a complete erection but it was pretty close - erect girth 6-1/8"

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13-6-17 10 warmup 10 stretch 10 jelq. Started a bit more firmly with the stretching. BPFSL 7-1/8"

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How are your erections now ?

Are you still off porn ?

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They are better - not what I remember, but then, I wasn't really paying attention way back when. Haven't used porn since February. Definitely signs of progress on the home front though. I have to say, I don't miss the porn, and I don't have any cravings to masturbate. I have started having wet dreams again.

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13-6-25 I found a few books and resources for older men. One of them mentioned that the anatomy that keeps blood inside the penis works better if the penis is aligned upward against the stomach. Also, anything that distracts blood from the penis (tense groin muscles or digestion or physical effort) will reduce erection quality. I tried this and I have had the hardest erections that I can remember. Good Christ it was impressive. NBPEL was 6-3/4". So I now need to find a way to try actual sex with the penis lined up in this manner, without too much physical exertion, and on an empty stomach.