Soft On's and then this .......

[so2speak04 Member Find all posts View Profile Close so2speak04]

Wow am I getting busy these days with everything other than pulling my PUDD ! Here it now is Sept 15th and I have nothing to report so to speak. I just am on auto pilot as far as this new lifestyle with no porn or jerking off. I am still waiting on this magical non induced boner that I once had in my youth. May be some days before my next post as I am heading out of my home base for the week. if I get a chance ill type in as time allows. Cheers and thanks for the Likes and thumbs ups. TAAB

can I ask how long you're going to do a no touch reboot until you switch it up? I tried rebooting that way and it didn't really work for me, so I adjusted my regimen. I'm just curious to see how long you're going to reboot this way as I'm going to be following you over the next few months.

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Im back after a week away. Its Sunday 22th of September and I am still in this full on. As I read the above post from so2speak04 I see the question that is on my mind as well as some who are reading my thread.
To answer as to how long does one go before changing up or falling off the wagon. First thing to answer is ,...... I will never use porn to masturbate other than what pops up in my head, I will touch and get off with the mind set of sensations of touch, feel and pleasure. This is something lost when you try to connect totally with visual other just the sensation. We all at some point get into the got to get off scenario , instead we need to give ourselves a more pleasurable time. Dare I say emotional state ! So the other thing that I am committed to is getting the inner physical parts of my body back to teenage status. Yes I have done, and do my sexual muscle contractions, and I feel that they are not a much of a problem in strength, but maybe imbalance. However I am very very fit in my lower body due to my athletic endeavours. I feel that as I get to the THREE MONTH mark in not touching, or any PE it is time to do what I have talked about some time ago. I will go back to a prostate massager, although I only tried this a few times before my reboot, I feel if not having sex with my partner it may be time to relieve my build up.
So the answer is SOON, and I will still stay no touch other than getting the massager in place. TAAB

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Well a new day and it seems a bit of good news as well. Its bright and early Monday the 23rd of September and had a day yesterday where better thoughts and relationship stuff was all positive. One of the main things that porn will do is as you go through a relationship it can change the way you look at your partner. Some of us may be more effected than others , but even with our ideal mate we may think they should be better/ different and more like watch porn projects as normal. I am sure that as my mind changes and reboots my physical ED will start to come back in line as well. I may have days that I worry the years of masturbation and porn may have really finished me off. I mean I am on almost three months of no orgasm and approaching nine of no porn.............But then I have a day of clarity and I know I am winning, and I am getting back to normal in far less time than it took to F myself up. Locked in for the long hull ! TAAB

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Hey Taab, this is my first post on this site. I have been lurking around thinking of PE for a little extra length/girth. But I would like to really encourage you on a few things. I am a recovering sex/porn addict. When I was a porn addict it was a heavy addiction, looking at porn and masturbating or sex at least 3 times a day. I constantly thought of sex, every woman I saw I looked at sexually. Now I didn't kick my addiction the way you are doing, mine came through a spiritual experience where it was just gone overnight. But that aside, what I want to encourage you about is don't feel so much like its a problem if your not getting hard or thinking about sex for no reason. For me, I never really think about sex unless I am in a sexual situation like kissing, flirting, ect. I have not masturbated but a few times in the past 4 years and the reason for those few times was because I got horny from a situation like flirting or kissing.

I feel soooo much more healthy now, Im not walking around thinking about sex all the time, living in a state of desperation. I can see women first and foremost as a personality as opposed to seeing them from a sexual perspective. I don't walk around thinking of sex or looking at women thinking "Id like to hit that". It really just doesn't cross my mind that much.

HOWEVER, when I am in a situation my penis is full on hard, veins popping, no kidding its hard as steele. The benefit is I think full hard is more pleasurable than size (to a point if you have a decent size anyway). The reason is because when your somewhat soft and flexible as she moves you just bend around inside her. When you are rock hard you have leverage, she can get in a position and rub the head hard into various areas inside. I've had more than one woman tell me this and that my dick is way harder than other guys they have been with. (and the girls knew their other guys watched porn a lot) The other benefit, is when I cum, I still stay hard for a long time, as long as I keep going I will stay hard. I can usually cum twice and she can keep going and having orgasms until she just gets so exhausted and collapses.

I just want you to be encouraged that I for one think you are on the right track for removing sexual addiction from your life and that I think it is going to be a HUGE benefit to you and the people you are with. Don't worry too much about it if you get where you aren't thinking of sex much, your penis isn't getting hard through the day. Mine is under 50% most all the time unless I'm in a situation that calls for it. Also it becomes hard very quick and easy when in the situation.

Your never really going to know how much impact its made until you are in a situation....and I think you are going to be surprised with the results!

At this point in my life I think our natural design and what is most healthy is what I think of as "situational sexuality". Its all based on a sexual situation and if your not in a sexual situation, your not worried about sex, not hard, or really thinking about it, ect. But when the situation is sexual, your all in, full force and ready to go!

Keep up the good work!!!

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Sept 24th/2013 Well thanks for that xposure I am well aware that we can all come back from this addiction, but we all have a different time line. I am sure now looking back that my depression was caused by porn. I am also sure that I had no idea I had depression. You have good days and bad through out life, but when you get away and on a cleaner path things just add up. One thing that you touched on is looking at girls and wanting to hit that. I'm not sure if that's a bad thing, I only say that because we are all sort of programmed different from the get go. My get go was having sex earlier than most. That said I don't think about sex as much, but I just still have a eye for females like I have all my life. I'm not sure I think of them as I have in the passed, I just love there shape. We will just keep waiting for that double dipping abilities, and hard veiny dick to return. I'm not so worried of my great return to sexual abilities any more or less than the ability to get back to PE and hit the goal. I "long" for PE to make things work better, other than tiring things out more when all ready being on the down slide of porn. TAAB

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Sept 26th and a couple more days in the bank on my road to becUm a Monk ! All joking aside I have hit a better mind set, daily things are looking better through my eyes. I always look at this, and always remind myself that Three months is a very small amount of time over a life time. If it takes a year it will be only 1/100th of a life time. Being I plan on hitting 100 yrs old,and I plan on having a big hard member when I get there ! TAAB

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Sept 28th 2013
So maybe its because I haven't pulled my rod for a very long time, but when I get up to use the bathroom in the night and I have a "Half On"...... The thing is huge ! I maybe have forgot what my gains look like, and feel like in my hand. Even more reason I miss and want to get back to my PE goals once I fix my dick. TAAB

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Sept30th/2013 Well I have been posting in others threads I thought I should stop in on my own. Still happy mood, and getting things done, almost at the official three month mark(ill need to check back on dates). Now if things slow down a bit and can get some quality time with the GF to see if this THINGY of mine works,that would be great. On the plus side I see that you guys are reading this thread, and see that I am on the long hull. I wish I could say that I know things are getting better on the physical side of things, but that's for another day. At this point I am a more positive Pearson in my day to day life, and that's with not masturbation or release of any kind. I do advocate towards a prostate massage, and supplements for good prostate health. All though I have that working well these days, I do feel that a prostate massage would be of benefit simply because I have not had that allusive wet dream. I feel I must be some sort of backed up at this point. God help my GF if she wants to do some oral. So ill back track a bit and find my so called last release date just to find an official date. Till then ...... TAAB

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October 2nd/2013 One again yesterday I spent time here on the site and didn't post in my own thread. Me Bad ! For the record I found the last day that I stroked off. I must say I have jumped the gun on the three month time line, but I am into my third month. How's that all fixed. July 19th was the last time I ejaculated. So that said I am 17 days away from three months without PE/masturbation or touching. At that time I will look into changing things a wee bit to jumpstart my body. Its would be good to add that over the last few weeks I have gone from an aggressive coffee drinker to one small cup per day. This is again one more piece to this puzzle that I needed to try. I have also been off the 3G's for about a month and will start up on that again as well. I do continue to drink green tea with ginger daily give or take a day a week. So the count down continues for the reboot to take hold. For those just reading this latest post, its been since Feb 1st no porn. TAAB

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Oct 4th and the official 90 days would be the 17th of this month of No Touchy My Dicky. So its all a big waiting game till then. I keep busy with lots of stuff now, and even on this PC I once called the Porn Machine I do everything but look at, chat,read or think porn. Oh and I always like to put this in just so if your just reading this last post you know, and I am proud of.............The no porn is from Feb 1st,the no touch was starting July 20th. On my way to greatness ! TAAB

[gfunk Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close gfunk]

So now we start with a bit of history. You may relate, and or notice that it looks like a lot of other posts on ED anti porn masturbation forums.
So once I discovered my dick, I was pulling and shaking that thing every morning and night. You remember how it was as a teen at home living with your parents, sneaking around under the sheets. Then the chase for a female that would help a guy out and get rid of that virginity thing. I remember the first time I got laid, like a champ I did her twice. She didn't believe it was my first time, well it was, and it was the second as well ! I did fine back then all young and full of testosterone. You could have pulled your pudd day in and day out and still got it done.
So masturbation became a daily thing and most of us never thought twice about it. Along the way there was the Playboy Mags, and then a few harder core Hustlers, Swank,...........and there was Chicks With Dicks snuck into some of the pages. Some where along the line we discovered that girls love to take it in the Ass as much as there pussy's. They didn't care if you were hot and muscular, or Ron Jeremy, They wanted it any way we would give it to them. All you had to do was show a girl and point it out in the latest mag rite !
So the next faze after a few long term girl friends and live in arrangements was the video. Now when living with or dating the porn and masturbation would ease off some due to actually having sex with a real human partner. I was starting to have issues with condoms and staying hard, but again with the long term set-ups my girls were on the pill. I had seen my fare share of strippers here in Canada when I turned 19,and again it was the weekly Friday beer run after work, or a crawl of sorts on the weekends. BUT when I started buying video tapes when living alone, what an eye opener. They would always send a small catalogue with all the latest. Don't forget the two for ones and package deals. Funny thing was I was buying for a guy who didn't have a credit card. Yes he was of age, and it was all legal. The thing was he would tape what he wanted, then gave me the originals. Soon the normal scenes didn't do it and video anal that gave me a woody was passé.
And the next faze is..................................Yaaaa we get a PC............................And Wait There's MORE ! WE get HIGH SPEED INTERNET ! Man there was days I wouldn't leave the house because I knew there was more to be seen that I hadn't seen , and I wanted to see that shit no matter what. Even when I had a GF and she would come by and blow me,I had to pull another load later when she left for my PC girls and all that other stuff going on. How Fucked up is that ? But I could still pop a pill and get it on. Its because I was tiered, or I rode my bike a long distance. Maybe it was because I was online late. Yes , That's the reasons my dick isn't what it was. You just keep telling yourself that. It just becomes the norm, every day blends into the next and we don't even put it together. I read where Call Girls know as soon as a guy cant get it up they are porn users. Ringing any Bells Boys ?

All too familiar... So I am not alone... Damn I am glad I found these forums...

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So I am good with the no porn thing, I hope, but deleting my porn collection... That is where my true addiction stands out. I deleted a portion of my collection at one point of time, then spent months trying to find all the shit I deleted. I still miss some of those porn girls I have not been able to find back. I may be able to give up porn, but I don't know if I will ever be able to hit that delete button again.

Oh AmberCam and your butterfly, I will never see you again.

I guess you kind of have to hit rock bottom (ED issues) before you realize how big of an issue this really is. I am already thinking ahead how to try to teach my boy that porn is no good. Yea, that is going to work.

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Well ill tell you about the start of my reboot. I was aiming at Dec 1st,but.................I had found some deeper darker, and more of the grid stuff I just had to see, ahhhhh. It was so the same but different. Finally It just happened that I was way over the top, and making me think of things that wasn't me, or was it. I was so far gone, and so deep into this shit for so long I had no idea. The days get better as you start to see things change with out the porn. Its so hard to give up something that I think to this day has its place. Now I kind of look at it as something that can give guys that stay away from it a Big Hard Advantage in the dating game. Not to mention the long hull of life ! TAAB

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Well, Day 2... Should I start my own log now? No biggie, not missing porn one bit. But, already thinking ahead about the day that will come when I need some action and my wife is not interested. That could start getting a little rough. I had my outlet before, now I won't...

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Hey gfunk The answer is do other things, projects that you now have time for, walk around the block, go for a run................. TAAB