my story...

[faithandhope Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close faithandhope]

relax dude. Take a breather. I've had anxiety over my dick as well. Oxys aren't gunna help either! fuck those things man they are gross. I'm trippin balls right now lolol but relax dude this whole thing actually does work, I did it for the first 3 months and got NOTHING but once I started hanging I just began to see results. Im 20 years old, you seems young so chill take a breather you have a whole entire life ahead of you. My life is shitty too. I have to see shit about my exgirlfriend with her new boyfriend and im gunna sit around thanksgiving and christmas and watch life pass me by as well. Work is hard to find, I don't know what the hell I'm gunna do with my life, no fucking clue in the world. My family isnt there like they should be, I spend most of my days alone.. but fuck it. Everyday I go through so much pain, but life goes on. We are all in this together, and I'm not gunna let this bitch of a life get the best of me. I'm gunna wake the fuck up tomorrow morning and PUSH and DRAG my unsatisfied ass through the day til I get to the end.. and do it again. And when I find happiness whether I meet my future wife tomorrow, Or finally start boxing, ALL of this pain will have been worth it in that moment. That one moment where I realize I am happy, I will think back to all the pain I've felt in a lifetime... and when I smile, it will all disappear

[Glamissand1 Senior Member Member of the Month March 2014 Find all posts View Profile Close Glamissand1]

Indeed once you meet your goal thru all of the hard work it takes to get you there, you will be a better man. You will be able to say I did it, I am the man, I beat my demons back and came thru the better for it. Just know failure is not an option. So just never quit tryin and you will never fail. When the smoke clears you will have the life you seek, and be thankful for too.

[MikeShlort Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close MikeShlort]

Well, you sound a lot like me 15 months ago.

First off, quit drugs. I don't care how hard it is for you, just fucking do it. No excuses. I can tell by your post that you are defeated. I was a crack addict for 7 years and I quit 15 months ago and have not done any drugs since.

Get started on a newbie manual stretching routine. Stick to it religiously for at least 3 months. Start off with light tension in your stretch, then gradually add tension. Don't start out pulling as hard as you can hoping to gain fast at first. You'll just actually make your ligaments tougher and make it tougher to gain. Don't get into this thinking you'll be at your goal of 1.5" in length gained in a year. It will take you a long time. Over a year most likely. If you do it properly.

Monitor your gains, your BONE PRESSED FLACCID STRETCHED LENGTH and your BONE PRESSED ERECT LENGTH. Don't worry about girth right now. The only girth exercises you should be doing at this point is jelqing.

Once you stop seeing gains on the newbie routine, I suggest hanging with a bib hanger. This is once you have maxed out your gains from manual stretches.

First you hang at low angles for lig stretch, then at high angles for tunica stretch. I am convinced the only way to gain any significant lenght is with hanging, after the newbie manual length gains stop. I am hanging a set as I type this.

Then once you have reached your length goal in a likely two-three years, you can start girth work. You are fortunate that you are 5.5 girth. You will likely grow in base girth through hanging. DO NOT WORK GIRTH UNTIL YOU ARE DONE GAINING LENGTH. It can cause you to limit your possible length gains.

All this PE shit I am telling you can easily be researched by you. I will send you a PM with a basic outline of everything I've learned PE wise in the past year, from manual stretching to sticking a needle in your dick to gain size with prolonged erections (not to be done until you are ready to work girth)

Here's a link to my progress thread at MOS (another PE forum). Read the entire thing, including the links. It will give you a good basic understanding of PE and the different possible ways and theories on how to approach it. I've spent a lot of time and money figuring out the best way to enlarge my penis and I believe I have found a good formula. It took me 12 months of fucking around and wasting time, doing things wrong and learning to figure it out. So hopefully I can spare you that wasted year. You can choose to listen to me or not. I think you will find many people advise hanging once newbie gains are maxed out.

Here's my progress thread link: Mike Shlort's Journey To Becoming A Real Man

As far as your attitude, you are a broken human being right now. Just like I was 15 months ago when I was sitting in my room smoking crack, planning to smoke until I had a heart attack and end it all because of my small penis and how real men got the women and shat all over me. Boo hoo.

I quit drugs and started working out. When I was still on crack, I developed a plan to get a big penis by any means necessary. I was prepared to solicit scientists in the field of stem cells and personal trainers of pro athletes who had connections on HGH if it were necessary. Fortunately, Penis Enlargement is much easier than that. I had no idea. What a relief when I discovered these forums.

I went full blast on a newbie routine like a retard for 3 whole months, yanking as hard as I could for an hour each night with almost no gains. Then, like a retard, I decided to get a pump and work girth because I was frustrated with no length gains and wanted to give my ligs time to heal. Well, I was successful with pumping and jeqling (I have two routines in my progress thread) and I gained around .3"-.4" of erect girth, which I still have now. I probably started PE at 5.4" EG, now I am 5.75" EG minimum and have not worked girth since late April. However, I had no idea that working girth before length is problematic and I actually wish I still was at 5.4" EG because now it will be tougher for me to deform my tunica when I get into tunica hanging at higher angles. Also, pumping leads to fibrosis, which also makes stretching harder. It is to be done when your length goals are pretty much cemented.

The first 6 months of sobriety, I felt depressed about my penis, as I had for years. I felt unworthy of a woman, felt like half a man etc. A defeated pussy. But then, something happened. I had been going to the gym every day and doing PE every day for a good 6 months at this time and I started to grow a testicle sack (my testicles literally grew. They are now the size of small eggs. My sack hangs lower too, in part from testicle massages and scrotal stretches. Lots to do with increased testosterone from working out - legs especially).

I started to look at women for what they really are. You said it - they get treated like shit by a guy but still "love" him because he has a big penis and is good looking. What kind of human being is that? I find that pathetic, someone so insecure and needy that they will put up with someone shitting on them because they need good sex and companionship from a man who is socially accepted? I grew to not respect or care what women think, to make a long story short. I still love them, but I really don't care at all what they think of me. And that is the attitude you need to get a woman.

Right now you are basically a door mat. They use you for human companionship and entertainment when they are bored. Plus you will buy them things, you retard. They don't respect you. They use you. You think you are being nice to them and they appreciate it but they are just using you for what they can get out of you, while your friend is using them for what they were made for. Look at how they are wired - they are so needy. They can't be single for any length of time. They can't take the time to be by themselves and find themselves and take a look at themselves and figure out who they are and where they stand in the world. And neither can you. You've gone through your life playing video games and using drugs. Wake up.

Do you really think it matters that you have a 5 inch dick? Yeah, sexually you won't be as good as your buddy. But the way you're acting, your dick could be 10 inches and you'd still get shat on. You are being weak and that is why you aren't getting women. You should be happy you have a friend. I don't have any friends. At least you have a friend who has stuck by you in your shittiness. He is likely a true friend. Don't go pushing him away because you are jealous of him. Once you figure out what it is to be a real man, you will want him in your life because it is easier to meet women when you are with others as opposed to meeting women as a loner. knowing more poeple and being close to them opens up social possibilities. But if you're going to be a video gaming, pot smoking, beer drinking loser who does fuck all his whole life except sits alone in a sea of sorrow and cries, then nobody is going to be around you.

I was exactly liek you dude. Now I'm not. It's very possible to change. You just better hurry the fuck up. Time isn't on your side. You're 33 and acting like a confused teenager still. Fortunately, in this day and age, people are immature and selfish for longer, so when you are 40 it doesn't mean you are out of time to get married and have a child. But the sooner you get your shit together, the better.

I'll admit, if you had a big penis you would have the confidence around women. But you can't blame your whole life on your penis. It's more than that. Your penis is one aspect of your life. You are clearly upset about your appearance and adequacy of a man. So was I.

Lose the drug addiction.
Hit the gym.
Work on your penis.
Read - educate yourself.
Get a hobby - play an instrument, play sports, write poetry, stories, get into filmmaking, get into building things, woodworking etc.
Get a fucking job. Work towards a career eventually, if you can.

You have to stop worrying about what others think of you and start saying fuck you to the world when they tease you. Who cares? Everyone gets teased. It's human nature.

You will find the longer you stick to trying to better yourself as a man, the bigger your testicles will get (figuratively) and the stronger of a person you will become. But you have to stick with it, not try it, find it hard, then cop out and go back to being a teenager.

Good luck to you. Any questions, send me a message.

Just start working on a light newbie routine. Warm up entire pubic area with a microwave bean bag or heating pad and start stretching your penis with baby powder for grip. Start lightly and work your way up to higher intensity each week. Give me a shout if you want to know anything, I am on the forums a lot, researching and talking shit. I hope you do well because I know how shitty of a life being an inadequate drug addict is.

[faithandhope Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close faithandhope]

Well, you sound a lot like me 15 months ago.
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Respect. Heartfelt responses like these are what we need.

and response to the maker of this thread, Don't go pushing your friend away, thats very low and you will hate yourself for it in the end. Envy is one of the evils of men.

[jaqc Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close jaqc]

JasonJanes.. I'm in the same situation as you.. I have been all my life like this.. I used to play water sports in my childhood and I quit due to a depression caused by my lack of confidence and shyness 5 inch bpel when fully erected. I never told anything to my parents and they never tough that something was going wrong with my development. So I lived avoiding close relationships with the others and without a proper and normal sexual education/development.
I hate my hometown because all the bitter reminds of the feeling weird and lonely like a black sheep of my teenage. I had to pick a college and i joined med school in someway becouse i found it as a excuse, i could say that i have to study.. that i'm bussy etc.. so i can feel a bit less weird... but thats not the reality

With the time that went deep into my-mind and i just realized that i cant have girlfriends nor making some activities and lived with it, but not having it constantly in my mind.I masturbated constantly and in prone position driving me to other problems like TMS and premature ejaculation.
So now my situation:almost virgin with premature ejaculation, tms and this 14 year old penis. Sad... Everybody thinks that i'm homosexual or religious.
The time I tried sex it was very difficult and uncomfortable to move such a small penis attached to a tall men like me.. plus PE... dissaster... the girl got scared.

I got in love with a girl and all this problems came again around my mind..in the worse moment of my life, because im preparing my residency exam and it needs like 12 hours of studying a day during 8 month.. and i'm totally depressed without lust for anything neither medicine.

I think that showing you that you are not alone might help... this forums brings me more hopess than going to the sexologist/psychologist which i can barely afford. Its not fair being born like this, i agree that it can be worse, but in our context its horrible. You cant say it openly and relief yourself and get some social support and recognition as with other problems.

[Glamissand1 Senior Member Member of the Month March 2014 Find all posts View Profile Close Glamissand1]

We are here for you and will help get you the cock you dream of. I know this thread replys seem rough, but its medicine you need.

[faithandhope Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close faithandhope]

It makes me sad. It truthfully makes me sad that I cannot help you gentleman. I Have felt so many variations of pain in my life, at 20 years old, I know I am ignorant of some types of pain, but I have felt things that no other human in the world has felt, and thought things that no one in the world has thought. And reading your problems, and Jaqc, your post as well, actually makes me sad. Because I understand exactly how hollow and useless and shitty you feel. I'm not complaining because although I feel it all, probably worse than alot of people, I just realize that life comes with the pain and thats it. I just feel worse about other peoples issues because their is nothing I can do as an outsider to help them. Only you can help yourself, EVER in any life situation. It just takes a long time for this to dawn on some people. I wish you men the best of luck.

[Unforgiven Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Unforgiven]

There's an expression one of my old friends used to say and it is "you think too much" quit thinking and start doing. Eventually it makes sense. Having a small dick is an absolutely terrifying experience. It lives with you all day every hour of the day and affects everything in your life if you let it. One thing I used to do as a young guy was ask the sexiest hottest girl to dance. Now it only worked a few times and I am average height and looks but when it worked it worked I look back many years later and say good for you. And I still remember the sex there were no complaints from the girls or me Be a confident man. Women love confident men. The world loves confident men. The world is an amazing place start enjoying it. If a young man has no ties and bad habits my advice is travel. Ever been to Europe? It's amazing. Madrid Barcelona London Prague Berlin. And lots of open minded cool girls who love Americans. Get out there man and live! Also lots of cool American guys everywhere in Europe. You will get looked after hit the research and you can do your PE anywhere you have an hour some privacy and a hot flannel so no excuses.

[Iwasfiveinches Member Find all posts View Profile Close Iwasfiveinches]

Bro first of all do not take it out on god ...I always feel like im not experience enough to give an advice since i lost virginity at 18 n have had sex wit two girls but have had plenty of sex that lost count at still 18 years old, n i have been PEing for almost 3 months n i have gained all 1inchx.25-.45inches lenght n girth im a fast gainer thats my only success stories for now...but i was 5inches long when i started!!!i know you have heard of it matters how you use it n not the size what matters, well thats true sjnce the g spot is no very deep in most women, but thats not my point You shouldnt look at it not only in the size but the shape of it...i strongly believe now that my succes to make my partner orgasm even the one night sex stand with this one other girl was due to my upward curve , idont know if your dick is straight but i was only five inches if your are you you can try to bend your penis when edging n shape it over time along your PE ...i dropped to the upward curve conclusion after researsh n with the comments my girl friend said after sex or just talks n the first time she seen it that makes me believe an upward curve is a big plus to rub her spots,,,n yes iknow friends that get women n treat them like shit n still keep them because of their huge cock but fuck it dawg it is what it is! i know some old ass homies that still be hooking up with women on their late 20s n my friends are like one is 35 n the other one is in his 30s forsure probably late 30s idnt really know n i dont think they have a huge dick no homo rite here but ive looked down on thema couple times NOHOMO just by accident because they talk bout sex n stuff icouldnt see any signs of a dick wich makes think their just average..... i hope you get thru this n gain some comfidence with PE because you better trust n believe it works !

[WhiteNectar Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close WhiteNectar]

hey jasonjanes, really moved to read your story. and till now i thought i was the only one who had issues. glad that you felt good putting your deepest feelings here in this forum. your dimensions are pretty much good especially the girth. i'm also understanding & learning new this in this forum. i think while you are working at bettering your boner, you must first be confident with yourself however you are & that will work wonders. life is too short to spend on negative thoughts & too much resentment. don't blame God coz you are not the only one but there are many others with much bigger 'difficulties' than yours. don't get too caught up on what your good friends got but instead focus on what great stuff you can do for yourself. While behaving with women with such rudeness & cheap behaviour is absolutely disgusting, your being too good is not good either. Often being too sober & good is taken as meek, timid & the like. start looking at things at a new light, focus on your happiness rather than wasting time on thinking over others & keep it working what you came here for. make the best of what lies ahead. I'd be a very happy man for a 5.5" EG. Will attain that now that I'm here!

[WhiteNectar Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close WhiteNectar]

hey iwasfiveinches, your post is really a great help. this forum seems incredible becoz people come forth with their real life experiences. Learning of the stories of people here not only has given me a huge boost of courage & confidence, but more than that the hope that now I can do something about what I'm not so happy about. Seeing people with bigger cocks sure gave a lots of inferiority complex & its these mental depressing situations which make things way bad than it really is, if at all. In fact I've seen that many with bigger members don't understand the finesse of love making & just kinda go along. Having confidence in myself, in my body, my physical attributes coupled with the new found insight & knowledge and having the skills of great love-making & relationships go way far ahead than just a big, dumb boner. I'd like to know about your journey which for sure is gonna help me big time. See ya around