RisingHope's Journey to cure PreE

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I hope you dont think im patronising you but thats made me feel quite sad. i hope you find someone! get yourself out there man you can do it

HOW DARE YOU?! JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE A GF...DIE! Nah jk. Now that I re-read myself, I can see how desperate I was trying to sound lol. My mind is pretty mixed. Sometimes I want to have a woman by my side. Kind,has fun being with me and devoted(especially in bed hehe). Some days I look at females and can only think to myself: ''I have to handle that sh!t just to get sex? What a pain in the ass. Can't they just make it easy?''. I don't desire female contact to the point of despair. It's more of a nagging feeling, like an itch.

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Day 21(June 24th 2015)

Pelvic Floor state: Relaxed for now, if anything changes, I'll edit post to reflect it.
EDIT:Tension kicks in late in the day

Early thread is early but I just want to stop thinking about anything related to sex, so let's get this log done.Man oh man... I knew I was playing with fire. Waking up, can't edge. No problem. I continue in MM's DO routine lvl 0.1, doing 20 of each. Then thoughts about sex start coming to mind. Checking a few escort ads, but really it doesn't interest me, so I stop there. I distract my mind by doing something else. It works for a good while. Around 11AM, I go take my bath and take my Fleshlight with me to get some edging done...

Observations: Getting my gear ready for some action. I more or less feel into it. I know that when I've been having constant sexual thought, I won't get much done. Alas, it proved to be true. Took more time than usual to get hard and EQ wasn't the best,including losing boner before entering. I think it was the fear of being caught. Got myself (semi) hard again and then thrusting a bit to get fully hard. I start moving and...hitting lvl 8-9 arousal in 1 min. I try going again but to no avail. At that point I just give up on edging and go for balloning instead. I had to go at a very slow rate and take some pauses, but managed to last up to 11min. At 12 min mark, I lose control and ejaculate.
Total time : 12 min. Then for fun I try to go for a 2nd round. To my surprise, I got hard really easily by stimulating my glans. Barely 2min after cumming. Boosts my morale a bit and I start pounding Fleshlight. Dick is numb and I could go on for a long. Took the liberty of edging in my weak position: Piledriver (lol,pretty exotic position but it's the only one that targets my magic spot,good luck finding a female to do it. If you do find one,she's a keeper haha)
Lasted about 6-7mins,not because I came but just because I knew this wouldn't change the fact that I lost control. No point losing myself in masturbation

I'm not too down, since I know that I'm capable of much more. I was just too stubborn. I didn't intend to edge today but I went ahead anyway,beacause I was cocky enough to think that I'm already a master of edging. Sexual arousal affects me so much that even HOURS later, it still affects my performance. At least that's how I feel. Even when going to escorts, I just try to forget about the fact that I'm going to have sex. I just say to myself I'm going to have fun. Cuz otherwise I'll be overexcited and I'll blow it real quick. Still very weak to arousal and I haven't been doing anything to fix that part. My plans might have been too conservative. I was underestimating myself. I've gotten the sensation part pretty well. But without other stimuli, there was simply no challenge. It's early, but tommorow I'll add audio+imagination and see how well it goes. Speaking of which....

Last paragraph, I swear! I've known for a while where to get sexy audio(4chan). I go on /soc FSA thread. That's where it goes downhill...Just started binging on sexy audio. Wow that's freaking arousing. Before I know it I'm on reddit's gonewildaudio then gonewild, then gonewildcurvy,then watching a chick squirting with my trousers down,bottle of lube and some paper nearby and stroking myself a bit. I come back to my senses and stop this madness, but not before going on xhamster's squirting category and almost going in endless browsing mode,trying to download a video to go fap in the toilet. I close the browser and just say to myself: No way I'm going down that easily. If anything, my willpower has grown I guess. 1 lapse after 40+ days of freedom.In the past I would have caved in super easily at this point,telling myself it's inevitable. I download some audio(original goal) and GTFO to write my log... Writing this calmed me down..urges are gone and about to distract myself again

Sometimes you win,sometimes you learn...especially with Pre E. It's a quest to find your plateau and rediscover yourself.

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Day 22 (June 25th 2015)

Pelvic Floor State: Slightly tense in the morning, Relaxed for the rest of the day. If anything changes, I'll edit.


Woke up and did my DO.After yesterday's apocalypse, I had quite a bit to reflect on. I've come a long way from before, but I need more patience. Counted the days since I really watched porn. Lost count but it's higher than 50. My record was 19 days(going insane) without watching porn. I'm surprised it took me 49 days to reach meltdown, when usually after 4 days I'd go insane. No reason to feel down! Cheer up RisingHope...or not?

Observations: Got my gear ready, with a new addition: headphones. Kinda weird to have headphones on while being naked but hey, I can't see myself! I didn't fap to porn but it still hurt my EQ a bit. Usually I lose a bit of EQ while fumbling around to enter FL(normal since there's no stimulation). Today I legit lost my boner before entering FL. No stress, just got it hard again and thrusted. Started a 5 min of normal edging, no sound yet. Easy peesy. Then I start the sexy audio.Had to REALLY slow down or else I would have blown it within 1 min. Kinda hard to stay concentrated when you have an horny girl sweetly moaning: ''Hmmm fvck me'' directly inside your freaking cranium.
I reverted to infant state...one slow thrust at a time. Taking pauses when necessary. Managed to last the whole 10 min of the audio. Phew. 1 min pause before ballooning.

Moving on to ballooning. Losing boner. No stress,no stress. Just get it up and start again. It went pretty much without an hitch. Tried using some audio but I stopped cuz ballooning is really a time to focus on what I'm feeling. Can't afford to be distracted. Even did a bit of Piledriver ballooning but too intense brah. Good 15 min of ballooning.
Here's where I screwed up...Tried to go for a second round of edging...with audio. Without audio, I probably would have lasted another 15 min. Slowly thrusting and something comes out. Ridiculous quantity of precum. So cloudy I think I came, but no spasms so no worries. I did lose a bit of EQ,not a lot though. Continue slowly thrusting, thinking I have control. Girls moans again saying :''Hmmm fvck yeah'' and I blow it. Suprisingly, semen is quite clear. Almost as if this was the 2nd time I came. I might have potential for MMO? Total time : 33mins

Made it over the 30 min wall...even though it ended in a way I didn't plan. It's not a bad experience but the audio was so strong that I completely neglected the imagination part and became engrossed by audio. It's too bad because I was planning on using visualization to immerse myself in intercourse scenario. Just see yourself having sex in the 1st person, doing everything you'd usually do.Visualization looks very intresting to cure Pre E. I consider this the natural evolution of ByggD's arousal control. It was intresting to add audio but I'm not quite ready yet. Once I have better visualization skills, adding audio will help me progress even farther. I'll edge with audio tommorow too just to see progression then solely focus on immersing myself in the intercourse processus.

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Day 23( June 26th 2015)

Pelvic Floor state: Tense in the morning, relaxed during day. While I was sitting at comp, I got a real strong IK/PC muscle cramp for like 5 secs. That's a new one for me.It was like when your hamstrings cramp up after doing leg curl. I don't do the routine during the week-end anyway. Hopefully I'll feel nothing by Monday.

Observations: Got my gear ready for some Fledging. Porn really is evil sh!t. I had planned to use it around Month 6 but I'm having doubts. I didn't fap to porn and my EQ is still shot just from watching like 30 secs of porn. Kinda like in the beginning. Trouble getting hard and losing boner with ease. I just calmly stimulated myself. Had to put a bit more effort but I got it hard. 6 min edging with no stimuli. No probs. Then I add the audio and I'm not reaching lvl 8 within 1st min?! Yesterday I was surprised but today I was ready. My logic is simple. Using porn, I conditioned myself to ejaculate whenever I see or hear something arousing. There should be no problem with taste,smell or touch. My goal is just to dissociate what I hear from what I feel. I treated the moanings like background noise, focusing on what I was feeling. Simple desensitization. Over time your brain would react less intensely to audio.
Anyways, still thrusted slowly and I was reaching lvl 8-9 arousal around 9 min mark. This audio was too much lol. It was fine in the start,just soft moaning. Then near the end she got real wet and you could hear the schlick schlick of her poosay along with her passoniate moans. That's what made me pause. Rewinded a bit and did the last min with soft moaning. 1min pause and ballooning. Total time : 16 mins.

Hard time with EQ brahs. A bit of patience and I got hard. I was doing my sh!t, nice control and stuff. Around 23 min mark, freaking grandma comes to bother at FREAKING 4 AM,asking me what I'm doing in the toilet. I say: ''I'm taking a sh!t!'' She's not dumb and says: ''All this time? That's not true'' She just moves along. Boner lost. I get hard again and try going at it. 26 min mark and she bothers me AGAIN. This time she has to pee. Hand her a bucket and this time I just lost my mojo. Couldnt get hard no matter how hard(ha!) I tried. Fvcking wrinkly bish. Next time I'll have to ''kindly'' tell her to get lost. Do I bother her when she's taking her diarrhea dumps? Fvck man. Total time: 26 mins.

I miss getting hard just by touching my balls. Read a bit and apparently Semen retention + abstaining from fantasies along with edging should do the trick.

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Day 24 and 25(June 27th and 28th 2015)

Pelvic Floor State: Relaxed mostly, bits of tension here and there.


Observations: Just relaxing and reflecting on my progress. After the whole porn fiasco on Day 21, I've been thinking about how to improve edging sessions. Also I've got glimpes about some abilities I might be able to acquire if I take the time to really try:
Day 7: Glimpse of Plateau
Day 13: Ejaculating twice on same erection
Day 16: Lowering arousal and extending stimulation time by taking deep breaths.
Day 6 and 22: Ejaculating without orgasm? Both times I thought it was precum but now that I know better(more on that below), I can safely say that was semen.

I've also thought of how to arousing material. While searching about MMO found this little gem
https://www.pegym.com/forums/prematu...ml#post1068262

Usually, I just jump straight into the action without ''warming up''. Not being fully aroused. I've been very intrested about reaching the famous ''Zone'' where after a certain amount of time stimulating yourself, you can go pretty much forever without reaching PONR.
https://www.pegym.com/forums/prematu...ml#post1103406

If I was properly ''warmed up'', I might be able to go further. After reading Minuteman's post, I just had to try it right away! I start by reading a nice erotica story then I move on to my haven of privacy...Ze toilet. I take out my headphones and listen to my raunchy audio of women jilling off, focusing intensely on it. I get pretty hard and turned on to the point where I caress myself. My hips are shaking a bit and I try to orgasm hands free by doing kegels(maybe a bad idea, but not something I do often so it won't become a bad habit) and I reach lvl 7,5 arousal approx. I check myself and see a drop of clear liquid on glans. Precum. Then I remember what I thought was precum. Just nope. That was semen,which makes it even weirder. Having confirmed the efficacity of arousing material(lol), I end it there.

Then I proceed to download a bunch of erotic vids. If you want to use ''porn'' then I suggest you go for the women from sites like ifeelmyself and abbywinters. Plain amateur females,no wannabe porn stars. Just masturbating and having real orgasms,no acting. To be honest, when they orgasm I can't help but think of how beautiful it is. True,raw and powerful. For me the only relapse is when I PMO. I see naked females and get hard but not doing anything. I'll watch a video before to be properly aroused then I'll begin edging afterwards.

What else? Oh yeah, I've read ''She comes first'' by Ian Kerner. Dude is a serious carpet addict lol. During edging you watch a video to get into it and during sex you could apply this method. While you're going down on her, focusing on her orgasm you're sure to be properly aroused. She won't care about how long you last and there's no pressure on you to perform, since you already did. No partner to try this but I'll keep it in mind when going to an escort. That's it for the week end. I'll do Sublevel 0.2 tommorow just to see how pelvic floor reacts.

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Day 26( June 29th 2015)

Pelvic Floor State: Relaxed in the morning. For some weird reason, after taking pre-workout, pelvic floor got tense and I got all jittery. Must be the caffeine. I don't really drink coffee but every day and seeing how it affected me, that's a good thing. Stimulants like caffeine can push you towards PONR faster apparently. As I'm writing,pelvic floor is back to normal.

Observations: No work today and I learned my lesson. Only edge when you can have some privacy. Didn't edge and did DO routine sublevel 0.2 Was pretty easy,except for root lock to kegel. I was able to do it but strained me slightly more than the others. I suspect the cramp I got on Day 23 was also because of a root lock(was holding a shit lol).

Went to the gym to get some work done. Took a 1 week break. 1RM for bench and incline went up(195 and 155). Triceps took a major hit though. Last week was able to do 15 dips and today struggled to do 7. I think I focused too much on chest.

Anyways, something weird happened(or I'm just paranoid and horny.). Was doing close-grip bench when a babe with a nice phat ass come around with her friend who also has a phat ass. Like 85% of females in a gym, they're training the holy trinity: glutes,hamstrings,quads. Babe 2 is doing walking lunges. Babe 1 is doing romanian deadlifts...right in my face,without a care in the world. In tight spandex leggings. Did I mention she's jiggling her butt after every rep? She had a slight mischievous smile. That vixen knows what I'm looking at lol. At first I was trying not to look, but after sneaking a few glances I started getting hard...and had to prolong rest by 1min to calm down lol. I start thinking about how I'd like to stuff my face with her butt. Hell, I even think I had some precum. I refocus and finish my sets. Moving on to standing calf raises. Start my thing when lo and behold,Babe 1 is doing squat machine..right in front of me. I felt like she was looking at me,probably cuz of the weight I was lifting(400 lbs). Also looking at her. My set is done and..my son is saying hi again. Had to crouch a bit lol. I finish my sets and move on to seated calf raise. Can't help but think about sex when doing those, I mean thrusting at thin air and the weight goes up like a huge boner lol. It's pretty erotic lol. Doesn't help that I do weird faces during sets. Everything is fine until 3rd set. This time it's Babe 2 who's doing squat machine. During set, I was looking at her and I could swear I saw her licking her lips while looking in my direction. That excited me a a bit lol. To be fair, there were plenty of hot girls and I was just distracted.

So that's it for today. My plan for tommorow's edging is as follow:

-Watching 15-20 mins of masturbating females, to become properly aroused.
-Like usual 15-20 mins of edging with 15-20 mins of ballooning. Using mind to visualize myself having sex with a female in the 1st person. For ballooning, I might listen to wet blowjob sounds and visualize recieving one but not sure yet. Hopefully I can have privacy this time.
-No ejaculation until at least June 10th. I'll be more careful around PONR but no stress even if I do blow it.
-EQ might be back to normal. Got hard by massaging balls.

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Day 27( June 30th 2015)

Pelvic Floor state: Relaxed most of the day. During workout,got tense but deep squatting stretches fixed it.

Observations: Oh boy... Followed my plan. Watched a video, petite babe with nice perky nipples. It wasn't that exciting tbh lol. Too much time to get into the action and she wasn't very vocal, until near the end. But hey, that's what erotism is about. Video done, went to edge and...reaching PONR within 30 secs. Had to do start/stop pretty much every 30 secs. Plus I kept losing boner. Quickly gave up on edging and tried ballooning. Same thing. Hanged in there with PONR/Losing boner constantly. At 11 mins lost control and came. Total time: 11mins.

After thinking about it, I know why my edging sessions have been so crappy lately. Since Day 21, I've been dealing with an itchy penis tip and slight burning sensation with every thrust. Meatus has been itchy as fvck. Btw meatus is where the magic spot is located for most males. Inflammted magic spot drove me to PONR faster than usual. It's the way my body is trying to deal with the discomfort. I think dude who sucked me on Day 17 gave me gonorrehea or clamydia or some kind of random bacteria. Right now I have an urethritis. No discharge yet so it's probably just some bacteria or clamydia. I also feel a slight dull pain in left testicule so probably another epididimythis like that time when I went raw on an escort! Yay! I have to wait until Friday to go to doctor. I don't have paycheck yet so I can't pay for meds lol. I'll have to get tested too. No point in edging when I know I'll reach PONR cuz of some stupid inflamation. Luckily, urethritis can be cured within 1-2 week.

No edging until urethritis is gone. I'm KO until 13th July if I'm lucky or until 20th July if unlucky. I'll stay away from arousing material in an attempt to reset my EQ. Still not sure if cumming quickly was cuz of video. But just in case. Continuing DO routine in the meanwhile


It's when sh!t like that happens that I start thinking to myself: Is sex outside of relationships really worth it? Although even relationships don't guarantee safety. People cheat for stupid reason all the time after all. Time to stop shoving my peen inside people without thinking.


Also a question for any experienced edger(lol) reading my thread.

-Is edging like training? After taking 1-2 weeks of rest from everything sex related, will I last longer? Or I'll just be more sensitive and have regressed a bit? Use it or lose it?

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was on holiday for 7 days couple of weeks back and felt like i lost a lot of the progress i made the first 2 or 3 times after the holiday, but i quickly got back to my pre-holiday level and gotten better now, so nothing to worry about too much, just dont expect to be better than before..
good luck.

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Day 28 and 29(July 1st and 2nd of 2015)

Pelvic Floor state: Relaxed. Weirdly enough, today, upon waking up, had some tension but it quickly resolved itself.

Observations: Still on forced rest. Going to GP tommorow,not really worried, just annoyed I have to take a pause cuz of some stupid sh!t like that. Nothing to write a log about.

The real reason I'm writing is cuz I might have another explaination for the crappy EQ I had last few sessions. Too early to say if that's the case but I might be entering flatlining phase of my ''reboot''. No libido during both days,although I had morning wood. No sexual fantasies coming to mind. No overwhelming desire to have sex/look at females.No boners. I did have morning wood though.Even though I watched some erotic vids and 30 secs of porn, I haven't masturbated to porn until orgasm. Every orgasm I had was just me slipping on control or getting sucked by a person. Basically I'm severing the stimulating material=orgasm link. Plus with edging, I'm severing the short stimulation=orgasm link. Thinking about Day 27, I remember that when I was watching the video, I was getting super strong IKs, so hard that penis was bobbing up and down.

Again a few questions for anyone.

-If it is flatline, should I stop edging until I go back to normal? My logic is that if I wait until sexual response goes back to normal, it should be easier to implant new lasting habits/condition myself to gradually raise arousal until I reach PONR instead of blowing it whenever I see something slightly arousing.

-Next time I watch an erotic video to raise arousal, should I counter the IKs I get? Or should I just stay away from videos and only go as far as audio+picture for arousal control? I didn't have as much trouble with erotic audio.

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You've had enough practice with edging to increase the level, i think you should.
If you want to watch porn now and then that's ok also, just moderation, and if you feel signs of pre e kicking in or old habits, then stop or taper it back.

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Day 30(July 3rd 2015)

Pelvic Floor state: A bit tense so I took a break from DO for the day. I'll resume on Monday.

Observations: Lol why am I even writing? Went to GP for my little friend, had to spend about 5 hours before seeing a doctor. He gave me some antibiotic+antifungal cream mix to apply for 10 days. My symptoms arent that bad.

-A small lump near meatus
-Color inside meatus is red compared to a normal pink
-Occasional itching at tip.

Following longerlastingnoob's advice I watched a bit of porn(no binging,although I searched a bit to find something intresting and no touching. Just watching). I added my own twist to it though. Watched it standing to take pressure off pelvic floor and observed my reactions. When IKs were getting too strong, I held a RK just strong enough counter them while maintaining erection. I don't know what kind of benefits I can reap from this yet. If I can counter IKs when watching porn, I might stop getting IKs upon seeing arousing material/during sex.

Speaking of sex, What a good time to be feel like having sex -_-. If I was evil, I'd go to some escort anyway and probably infect her. No choice but to wait 10 days...ugh.

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Day 31 and 32(July 4th and 5th)

Pelvic Floor state: Somewhat tense on Saturday. Fixed itself as I stopped thinking about it. Today it's just relaxed... Wall of text incoming! Brace for impact!

Observations:
I said I would wait...all bs lol. I had my eyes on a MILF(I like what I like,to quote Rae Srummurd). Sent a text. 30 mins later no response. A bit dissapointed, shoot another hoe up. 30 min later no response... I shoot another one and if she doesnt respond then fvck it. She responds within minutes. Was setting things up and started making my way. She asks me what's my ethnicity. I said black. She doesn't do blacks...fvcking bitch. Of course her holy fatass was too lazy to put it in her ad. I ask her why not do it? Guess what she said? It makes her feel bad. Just LOL. She feels bad about mentionning she doesn't do blacks behind a computer screen(probably for stupid stereotype reasons), but she doesn't feel bad about making me waste my time. Luckily she doesn't have to say it right in the client's face. She'd probably sh!t her pants lol, especially since I'm almost 1ft taller then her(5'3 vs 6'0) and I squat her body weight when I want to go light(150 lbs lol).

Anyways, the second bish did replied to me at the same time as 3rd one. I swatted her aside since she took so much time to respond. I asked her if she was still free. Yep. It's 160(!)/h. Well I have my saved money so no probs. I go there and like usual...not as impressive as photos. Women, ye masters of illusions and pretty lightshows. She's got the whole package. Pancake tits, pot belly, flat ass. It's weird though, She claims to be 5'8 @ 150 which is pretty balanced(hence why I picked her). I get naked and she prompts me on the bed to suck me. She only does it for like 30 secs so I get hard. She won't blow me since I'm here for sex...are you serious? Ugh female logic. Can't force her..We move on to doggy style. Hmm she's not very wet and somewhat tight. I start thrusting. After 30 secs I cum... Well fvck. I don't really feel down. Asks me if I can go for 2nd round. Yeah. So she does her stingy blowjob again and I get hard in like 30 secs lol. It hasn't even been 2mins since I came. Well at least I know my testosterone is damn high. Doggy again and 30 secs later I cum again with same volume as 1st time... The most expensive minute of my life. One thing I could feel is that she was pretty tight indeed. I stick around to see if it's unlimited service but nope just 2 ejaculations. I could probably go for at least 4 rounds.I just get dressed and GTFO.
Crappy experience overall, almost enough to make me swear off sex until I get a girlfriend. I wanted to kiss,caress and you know, have REAL sex? Dem bitches only care about money( duh no sh!t I know). Then again,it's my fault not going for an upscale courtisan who probably would have treated me right.

It's when I'm outside that depression hits me full force. I just feel empty inside. No anger or sadness. I just feel sorry for all that money I wasted on this farce. I should have waited. I didn't expect to last 2 hours but would have been happy with 5 min. First thought went to Fleshlight. Is it really helping me? Compairing her tightness to Fleshlight, I feel like I've been going easy on myself. Way tighter than Fleshlight. I'm the kind of guy who's always in his head formulating plans and analysing stuff. What caused me ejaculate that fast?

-Tense Floor? Nope,I was completely relaxed.
-Too aroused? Nope, was not aroused at all actually, even though I got hard.
-She was tighter than expected? Yep. Need to do Fleshlight mod to have vacuum suction. Also since I've started using Fleshlight, I cum quickly even during 2nd round instead of being hard but numb. Almost like I don't lose sensitivity anymore.

I start repeating internally: 'Don't lose heart, don't lose heart'. I was even thinking of giving up on edging, but realized I just progressed too quickly. I find a positive point, I didn't cum during her blowjob, and it was raw. Fleshlight's default tightness is probably good enough to last during blowjobs but not enough for sex. I'll up the stimulation by adding audio and modify case so that I can have vacuum suction. Then I'll try again when I have enough money for 2hrs. I was cocky enough to think 7 weeks would be enough to cure PreE. I lost this battle, but I won't lose the war!

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Best Thread so Far!!!!

I just wanna say do not give up dude!

And keep posted.............LOL

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Best Thread so Far!!!!

I just wanna say do not give up dude!

And keep posted.............LOL

Of course it's the best thread..since it's made by a dude who will beat PreE! I'll become a god for all the 30 sec champs and within 2 years, this will become a sticky in the must read section...MWHAHAHA!

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Day 33( July 6th 2015)

Pelvic Floor state: A bit tired after DO, but afterwards for some reason, it relaxed me.

Observations: No edging,less than 12 hours since I had sex. Thought I'd take a break. Anyways, I had the scare of my life this morning...

Remember the MILF I texted yesterday? She lives in a neighbourhood called Anjou. I do my morning routine and I open TV to watch news. A 39 year old man kills his 10 month son and himself in Anjou. The 43 year old mother was treated for a nervous shock.They were about to divorce.How old was the MILF I texted? 44 years old. As you can guess, at this point, I'm on the verge of shitting my pants at the thought I might have caused the death of 2 people. It wouldn't be farfetched to think she made a mistake in her ad or lied and was actually 43 years old. We still don't know why he killed himself. After reading more about it, I don't think I'm related. But who knows yet?

After analysing yesterday's sex and researching a bit, I think I might be hypersensitive. Doesn't help I only get to have sex every 2 months lol. With more practice,I could probably get used to it. I blamed it all on pelvic floor and bad habits. But what I thought were IKs were merely the throbbing of my penis. I do get IKs,but only when horny as hell. Bad habits are probably only 50% of the answer. Re-reading myself, I see myself mentionning the use of light grip to masturbate during youth. This might also explains why my refractory period is so short.

Male Refractory Period

3. Nerve Sensitivity. This is pretty obvious, but almost anything that will improve penile sensitivity will likely help the refractory period. The nerve involed here is the dorsal nerve of the penis and researchers have (one could argue rather cruelly) removed half the nerve fibers from the dorsal penile nerve in monkeys and found - lo and behold - that the refractory period increased significantly. [5] This same study found that "the refractory state after ejaculation in the human male is accompanied by an increased PST, and a state of hypoexcitability and hyposensitivity." By PST, the authors were referring to the "Penile Sensory Threshold", which was higher after an orgasm.
Basically, an orgasm "exhausts" your nerves in the area and raises the threshold for you to get excited and stimulated.

Yet I get hard less than 2mins after ejaculation. Gonna try to make Fleshlight tighter and do ballooning only with palm of hand. If it doesn't work, I'll go back to old fashioned edging.