Enter the Burrito

[Ultimate Burrito Moderator Member of the Month Oct 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Ultimate Burrito]

Just read through the last few pages of the AP90 thread. Told the whole story there.

[6inDongNotForLong Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close 6inDongNotForLong]

Okay, I went and looked through a bunch of pages.


Does your wife consider porn cheating?

[donkeehote Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close donkeehote]

Hey Burrito.

Im in your corner rooting for you and your family. All the best!

[Ultimate Burrito Moderator Member of the Month Oct 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Ultimate Burrito]

Okay, I went and looked through a bunch of pages.


Does your wife consider porn cheating?

Absolutely! So I've "slept" with a couple thousand women!!!

[closed291 Retired ModeratorPEGym Hero Member of the Month June 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close closed291]

So what steps are you taking to rebuild trust?

[Ultimate Burrito Moderator Member of the Month Oct 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Ultimate Burrito]

We are seperating to allow for time to heal and focus on ourselves. I will be staying with someone from our church and undergo counseling. I have played the part of being a Christian but I now realize I was only fooling myself. I need to stop striving and just accept God's grace. I'm not there yet. All my life has just been a perfomance of checking boxes. For once I need to just accept that I'm broken and I, alone, am only capable of making things worse. I can't and wont go back to her being the same person. I love her too much to put her through the same hell she's been going through these last 7 years. I can only throw myself to God's mercy hoping He's willing to take this wreck that I am and redeem me and my marriage so that He may be glorified through it.

[donkeehote Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close donkeehote]

Here's to being strong my brother. Please go into this knowing she may not be the same person either when you come out at the other end But for now, as you say, focus on you. The rest is in God's hands.

We are seperating to allow for time to heal and focus on ourselves. I will be staying with someone from our church and undergo counseling. I have played the part of being a Christian but I now realize I was only fooling myself. I need to stop striving and just accept God's grace. I'm not there yet. All my life has just been a perfomance of checking boxes. For once I need to just accept that I'm broken and I, alone, am only capable of making things worse. I can't and wont go back to her being the same person. I love her too much to put her through the same hell she's been going through these last 7 years. I can only throw myself to God's mercy hoping He's willing to take this wreck that I am and redeem me and my marriage so that He may be glorified through it.

[Ultimate Burrito Moderator Member of the Month Oct 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Ultimate Burrito]

Resting this weekend. Excellent morning wood and flacid hang all day. First time I've seen signs of life down there since everythings happened and quitting porn 8 days ago. I think taking ZMA at night is helping also with healing and recovery.

When doing stretches left and right I can touch my hip bone and strtching up I'm hitting the center and sometimes the top of my belly button. I'll let you know when I can reach my knees stretching downwards lol.

[Ultimate Burrito Moderator Member of the Month Oct 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Ultimate Burrito]

Jay you got compitition. My burrito is curvinf upwards like a freakin bananna wich from what I read is a good thing. I got a banannarito!!!

[Ultimate Burrito Moderator Member of the Month Oct 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Ultimate Burrito]

Wishful, glad to have you back!

[Ultimate Burrito Moderator Member of the Month Oct 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Ultimate Burrito]

Had some really good convos with the wife yesterday... we may not be separating after all!!! Yay. However, things are still so unstable that everything could change in a an instant so I'm not holding my breath. I do love her so much. One of the hardest things is wanting to comfort her through all this pain but I can't because I'm the knife that caused the wound. That right there is tearing me apart.

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

Jay you got compitition. My burrito is curvinf upwards like a freakin bananna wich from what I read is a good thing. I got a banannarito!!!

I'm making a comeback! Beware, be very aware.... Bahaha

[6inDongNotForLong Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close 6inDongNotForLong]

Had some really good convos with the wife yesterday... we may not be separating after all!!! Yay. However, things are still so unstable that everything could change in a an instant so I'm not holding my breath. I do love her so much. One of the hardest things is wanting to comfort her through all this pain but I can't because I'm the knife that caused the wound. That right there is tearing me apart.

I am sorry you're going through all this.
It's kind of weird to think of porn as cheating, however that's probably her wanting to know she's the only woman you're lusting after.

I wonder if the talk about leaving was just her expressing how hurt she feels, and perhaps she doesn't truly want to leave.

We are all here for you, my burrito friend.

[Ultimate Burrito Moderator Member of the Month Oct 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Ultimate Burrito]

Thanks bro. I believe it. She expressed that she still would love to live lifw with me because she truely does love the idea of me but not what I've become. Shes got to be able to trust me. I lied to her face for 3 years... not good.

[Ultimate Burrito Moderator Member of the Month Oct 2017PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Ultimate Burrito]

Exercises this week much the same. Added another extension rod to the good ol extender. Now extending at 6.75" NBP. Flaccid hang looking nice. Sittin on the commode my burrito is just about skimming the water. EQ has been around 60-70%. I blame it on the withdrawals from porn and not getting any from the wife. Life goes on...