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Well if your relationship doesnt work out then jay z said it best......On To The Next One ->>>>>
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If you were a virgin before you got with her and she was your first, and you say you've stayed faithful to her, then yes I see why this is feeling so hard on you. I mean it would be hard for anyone but the fact you've never been with anyone else might be contributing to that worry of being alone.Comment
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Yes she is my first. The love that I have for her is unreal. I know that no one is perfect but she is perfect for me. I don't want to live with the regret that I'm the reason we aren't together anymore.Comment
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Sorry for throwing you guys a curve ball...but last night we had sex. Before we had it though she said that she didn't want to confuse me. Wow the sex! It wasn't like other times before. When I was viewing porn it was the same ol routine. Hardly any foreplay at all and I would just dive straight in (no pun attended lol.) Well last night I started making out with her and I took her shirt off and started playing with her boobs and nipples. I kissed her all over and then pulled her pants down and started eating her out. Used to I would just lick her lips and rarely touched her clit. Well from all the learning I did from here, I licked and sucked her clit for probably about 10 min. It drove her nuts. Never saw it before. The moans and the way she arched her back, she begged me to "fuck" her.
My old self, the porn induced robot. Would go straight for the missionary because that's the only position I would stay hard in. Not last night, again I took advice from this amazing site and I put a pillow under her and put her legs on my shoulder and pounded her like I never had before, deeper too. The looks and sounds she was giving wasn't any I have heard before. When we got done she got up and said she couldn't walk lol. Her legs were shaking too bad. Put the biggest smile on my face.
Now I know she said she didn't want to confuse me and we aren't back to the way we were. But I am feeling good about this because I showed her a better side of me sexual. One where I was in control and one that gave her a lot of pleasure. I still wish I had a little more girth because I don't stretch her out like I think I should. I'm 6.25" NBPEL and 4.75" EG. I'm doing JP 90 again since I haven't PE'd in about 8 months or so. I would really like to add 1/2 inch in girth or so.Comment
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Well, I read your post thoroughly and carefully. I didn't read all the input from others but I am pretty sure that they should (hopefully) be simular in text.
Yeah, your addiction to porn killed the relationship to the point that reconciliation may be possible but that will take a long time at that.
You can only say, "I will change", so many tiimes before her hopes for you changing that finally die which is exactly what happened.
She will alway love you but that spark you both had from the beginning is gone. That man she saw you as is not the man you became. Perhaps now you are working on becoming that but that's now not then.
She wants at this present time nothing really to do with you and is hurting because you traded her love and affection for your own addiction to porn making her feel that you fantasizing about other women got you off leaving her to find herself no longer desired by you. Basically, porn was your God. So put yourself in her position and imagine if it was her looking at other men and not really you. And, in her mind now, she believe you will fall back into the same old thing as before because she has seen you do it time and time again through out the last 4 years.
Is there hope for a new start?
Well, if you continue with this new mind-set changing for the better, then after a long (long) while staying faithful to that change, she will start to believe you are changing (but not for now).
Will she want you back?
Perhaps, but the chances for now are no and will be no for some time to come. She needs to heal and get her emotions back in order from the damage you caused. Until then even any reconciliation provided you stay the course is out the question, my friend.
So, for right now, keep moving forward becoming the porn-free man who is taking care of himself, and let her come to you at her time without pressure or interference.Last edited by thenewdude; 12-08-2014, 07:56 AM.Begin 7/25/2011:
NBPEL 7, BPEL 7.2, MEG 5.6, BEG 6
Current 12/05/2014:
FL 5.25, FG 5.2
NBPEL 7.8, BPEL 8.1, UEG 5.75, MEG 6.25, BEG 6.7
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UEG:MEG 6.5
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" I don't want to confuse you" does that mean that she isn't all that into you? Like I said before man fuck her.Comment
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Fuck you man she is the mother of my children. I hurt her. It's my fault and I'm owning up to it.Comment
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@thenewdude you hit nail on the head. She has told me that. She has wanted me to change for a long time now and she said that it took her wanting to seperate with me to change. I'm just going to stay on the path that I am. I don't want to go back to the old me. Not just for her but for me too. I don't like the old me.Comment
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OK then man do what you have to do, but i'm totally going to eloel if she cheats on you, What was it that you were worried about again? fukin dumb bich there isn't anything wrong with your relationship exept that you are braindead, borderline autistic.Comment
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Hey HueGHawk,
While I am delighted to hear that you two had an amazing sexual encounter, it is likely to increase confusion for both of you rather than diminish it. I know you are afraid of discussing her comment for fear the physical intimacy will stop but if you two have any hope of reconciling this relationship, you will need to be honest with one another about the reason(s) behind her actions. Was it "goodbye sex"? Was it to determine if you have indeed changed? Was she missing you physically? Was it strictly to fulfill a sexual need ? Something else entirely?
If she doesn't want you to become confused, then she needs to tell you the motivation behind initiating sex with you. By understanding why she wants to have sex with you, it will at least give you the awareness to decide for yourself whether you want to continue being sexually intimate with her - especially if her intention to leave hasn't changed.
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Autistic? Gee I get really pissed off when someone makes fun of people that are special needs. Maybe someone wants to amend their post and make it human before I get really angry!The world's still a toy if you just stay a boy!Comment
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Regardless of personal feelings, this forum requires that members treat each other with basic respect. Insults and personal attacks are not appreciated.The difference between a winner and loser is, I don't date losers.Comment
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Autistic are supposed to be of gifted intelligence. Duh maybe you have special needs but those are only to jump on my cock.Comment
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And...bye bye.The difference between a winner and loser is, I don't date losers.Comment
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Shakemasture...you have been warned repeatedly about your antagonism and disrespectfulness to other members.Originally posted by shakemasture View Post
Perhaps some time off to think about it will do you some good.
Two-week ban issued.
Sorry for the disruption to your thread HueGhawk...let's continue shall we?
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