Addicted to masturbation

[giantsrule Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close giantsrule]

Ok. I guess im screwed then huh. I prob shouldn't even try.

What do I do then? Accept it's broken and I cant be with a girl?

What do you want from me man?

I did stupid fucking p.e 3 days and it ruined my life

[asian_man Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close asian_man]

Ok. I guess im screwed then huh. I prob shouldn't even try.

What do I do then? Accept it's broken and I cant be with a girl?

What do you want from me man?

I did stupid fucking p.e 3 days and it ruined my life

Dude. Calm down. Go for the 90 then. See what happens. Maybe it works. I already showed you how I beat ED.

I will say this....it's highly unlikely you hurt yourself permanently. And you did watch a lot of porn and jacked off a lot. The mind and body connection is strong. Reset yourself. Your reaction is also an indication that you have a lot stress going on. Take care of yourself first.

[giantsrule Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close giantsrule]

I have stress because its hard as shit for me to do nothing when I used to masterbate non stop and you're just telling me I'm wasting my time. After my third day of p.e directly after the semi erection jelqs. I could never get a full erection or keep it again. it def started from that and I have not had a normal one since. All I can come up with is I couldn't heal because of the non stop masterbating. it never got a rest

[asian_man Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close asian_man]

I have stress because its hard as shit for me to do nothing when I used to masterbate non stop and you're just telling me I'm wasting my time. After my third day of p.e directly after the semi erection jelqs. I could never get a full erection or keep it again. it def started from that and I have not had a normal one since. All I can come up with is I couldn't heal because of the non stop masterbating. it never got a rest

you're not wasting your time. 90 days is extreme to me. all i'm saying is getting some rest is fine. there's no defined time because everyone is different. if your penis is ok then taking a 3-4 day break from wankin is fine.

now if you go to a new dr (like i recommended) and have had thorough testing done, and you're clear, then you will know it is all 100% mental.

[giantsrule Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close giantsrule]

And what if it's not and p.e gave me a veinous leak or whatever. I haven't had one normal erection since it happened. Is the mind that powerful

[ak47boss Member Find all posts View Profile Close ak47boss]

I only have this problem if i stay at home all day with nothing to do ! you just have to find something else to keep yourself busy,,, i usually use the gym and hanging out with friends to solve it.

keep us updated and good luck !

[asian_man Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close asian_man]

And what if it's not and p.e gave me a veinous leak or whatever. I haven't had one normal erection since it happened. Is the mind that powerful

if pe gave you damage then the dr that specializes in veinous leaks or whatever will try and fix that problem. at least you know exactly what's wrong.

hell yes, the mind is that powerful to leave you impotent. why do you think there are threads all over the internet how porn can effect EQ? or how about a person that was raped that cannot orgasm anymore, several years from the incident?

you're spending your time on this forum looking for answers and i'm trying to help.

[giantsrule Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close giantsrule]

To stay hard I have to kegal and it keeps me at my hardest. I've always done it without knowing since the injury or whatever

[giantsrule Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close giantsrule]

The only treatments are pills and if that doesn't work implants. there is nothing else. I'm getting depressed just thinking about it. I know it's physical and one night changed and ruined my life forever. I'm sure me not letting it heal or see a dr. Right away made it permanent.

[VoodooChild Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close VoodooChild]

hey man, have you noticed any change in shape/curvature of your penis since the injury? Or is it only that you can't get good EQ?

The thing about doing kegals subconsciously to stay hard is something I realized I was doing for years without knowing it too. Unfortunately this "involuntary" kegaling leads to an unbalanced pelvic floor and PremE which then further complicates the whole mental aspect too. The point of taking 90 days off is to let your pelvic floor re-balance (through those kegal exercises...you still doing those?) and so by the time you get with a girl, you will be horny as hell, and have a healthy pelvic floor, so you shouldn't have to kegal for a solid erection. Out of the methods I've read about, the 90 days makes the most since in our situations. We have to give ourselves time to rest/heal/reset both mentally and physically. I'm hoping the best for you and me both man. The process is definitely not fun though.

[giantsrule Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close giantsrule]

I cracked and masturbated 6 times today trying to get a good erection. ive been doing the pelvic floor stuff but im not sure how good im doing. I can do 20 reps and not feel tired at all, im prob doing it wrong. it sounds like you've had improvements so that's a good sign. I havnt seen anything yet. im gonna just take a break from thinking about all this and stop worrying about it. I guess I should do the pelvic floor stuff.

Im not even gonna take a break to fix my e.d, im just tired of hating sex and always worrying, lifes too short. if after a long break were still not having any luck we need to get a Doppler done by a urologist to see whats wrong with us.

good luck buddy. you deserve to heal more than me. I hope you staying positive works out for ya

[VoodooChild Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close VoodooChild]

yo giants it's alright that you cracked man. My progress is painfully slow man, really. And yea I am depressed a lot and have been deeply depressed in general for many years, despite still going out with friends and trying to be normal. But you saying I deserve to heal more than you is just flat out not true bro. Seriously, anyone going through this deserves to heal. It's absolute torture. But seriously, to make it to the other side would be an experience that the majority of people could not even comprehend. You could very well be a better man all around and enjoy life more once you heal.

I know my statements about staying positive might sound cliche or whatever but I'm only trying to help. I've struggled with negative thinking every since I was 13 and still fall into it everyday at some point in the day...sometimes the entire day. But after hitting complete rock bottom and deciding completely to do the research, I've learned about how you can change your brain through neuroplasticity which can even help in healing physical conditions. The first step toward healing starts with you TRULY WANTING to heal. You absolutely must have the mindset (as much as humanly possible) of, "okay, this sucks, but I'm willing to do whatever I have to in order to see some changes in due time." The negative thinking only defeats you before you can ever even begin to heal and it also strengthens those neurological pathways in your brain so you become "automatically" negative versus fighting it with positivity so you can eventually become "automatically" positive in the same situations.

The pelvic exercises take a lot of time to progress if you have a very unbalanced floor it seems...at least in my case (though I can slowly tell it's changing). It's very important though. Really every part of the equation is important. Exercise, stretching/yoga, sleep, healthy diet, supplements, no porn, no masturbation (for a period of time long enough to let yourself heal and reset), positive mindset/continued research when losing hope, etc.). I mean just realize that you are "behind" in your sexual health, so you really have to go above and beyond the norm while at the same time realizing it won't happen over night. Persistence and patience in this kind of routine is the hardest part, but it is also the part that will actually yield results after a period of dedicated time. It's going to take some serious willpower man and that's something that you have as much as you let yourself have.

Also, just curious, did you watch porn when you cracked?

[giantsrule Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close giantsrule]

not the first time I did it.

What's crazy is I can go like 3 times in a row and my erection is pretty much the same each time. never fully hard but hard enough to masturbate. prob not have sex though. I noticed I can only get really hard if I kegal. Otherwise my erection can prob only hit like 65 percent or something with stimulation.

The more I think about it if I had just taken a break a week after it happened it prob would have barely done any damage if it all. I'm a jackass and I'm paying for it now.

Did you ever see a urologist? What did they do and say? All they did was give me cialis

[VoodooChild Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close VoodooChild]

yea man I saw a urologist...once when I was a senior in high school and once recently back in february of this year. Neither urologist did blood tests or physical examination past the flaccid state. The first was an absolute joke. The second said it "sounded" like I had peyronies (based on everything I told her) and there was not much they could do other than prescribe me viagra...tried that a couple times, it did the trick (in terms of a stronger erection) but I don't want to be taking viagra at 22 years old in order to enjoy sex. F*** that man.

I'm seeing a new urologist this tuesday and have even more knowledge now than in february. So I'm gonna request certain tests and really try to do everything possible to figure out all that is going wrong down there, physically speaking. I'm aware that mental problems are also contributing which I've been working intently on and noticing improvements.

Seriously though, I'm a month into this whole masturbation break and I'm literally feeling like a different person. It's like my whole system is changing. I have more energy and confidence than ever. That's not to say I'm feeling great all the time, but in comparison, it's remarkable. I'm becoming less and less "worried" about my "problem" which I'm finding is letting me enjoy other parts of my life without so much of that nagging feeling in the back of my mind that "something" is "wrong". And in realizing this, it makes me look forward to where i will be after 2 more months of this. Yea it's hard to not masturbate all the way but in the scheme of things, 90 days is nothing if it means changing my life for the better.

I know you regret not doing anything sooner. I do too. But remember the human body is EXTREMELY resilient. I read in this book (called "You Are Not Your Brain") about how this lady had a stroke that paralyzed the left side of her body and she was eventually able to recover most of her mobility after many many months of determination and therapy even though the doctors said it was most likely impossible. Literally, the part of her brain that was wired to control her right side, wired itself to control the left side too. So when she first started making progress and tried to move her left side, the adjacent right side body part would also move. Eventually the brain was able to rewire itself so she had control over independent movement of both sides of her body all rooted in the part of the brain that was originally only made to control the rights side of her body. It's living proof of the ability the human body has to repair itself. But it takes determination/persistence, time, and nourishment. Otherwise, yea, there is no chance.

[giantsrule Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close giantsrule]

How many mgs was the Viagra? The dr. Gave me daily cialis and it barely did anything. it stayed hard but it was only like 70 percent. But it wouldn't go down for a little while.

We're you completely normal with the Viagra? That's good news man. It means you don't have venous leak if you were. pills don't work for that.

I'm really starting to think that I have it because no matter how hard I try I can't maintain an erection without touching. And even then i cant get all the way hard. To feel hard i gave to kegal, which is apparently what people with venous leak do. It sounds like my e.d is worse than anyone I've heard on here must guys can at least keep an erection for more than 1sec without touching, I can't

If its venous leak I'm gonna have to get some kind of freak implant. all because of 3 days if p.e. Also apparently implants make your dick smaller so ill be even smaller than 6in long 4.5in around. I can't afford to lose anything. especially girth. It also costs like 15k or something.

I'm trying not to think about it but I'm prob more depressed now than I've ever been. I try not to think about it but I can't. taking 10 days off did absolutely nothing. I really think there is no hope for me.

I'm afraid to get a doppler because for one thing last time I got tests for e.d it cost me 3k because insurance apparently didn't cover it and I also don't think I could handle the news of failing the dopller. that means that there would be no treatment but a device like I said. Id be really worried about what I would do after getting that news.