04/04/2015 - DAY 1
Hello my friends,
As I am new to this forum it would surely be adequat to introduce myself a bit more. I have already been doing this in my fist posts but whtsoever, my story is the reason I am here.
I have developed a dick size complex over the years, as my exgirl, who was a borderline personality used to set some freaking demons in my soul by busting out about her exs enormous dick and how it "ripped her mouth apart"... this crank stuff led to depression, anxiety and what have you...
well I recetnly thought I would be done with all that crap from back in the day, but unfortunately found out that my current girl also had one "bigger guy"... old feelings come back and begin to make me feel insecure and I feel such a big fear our relationship could burst because of my complex even though I know she does not care about size.
Well, several things and questions to discuss...
First, she only gave him a handjob. There was no sex or bj. (This would have been much more disturbing for me I guess)
Second, she only had small ones before, so it may be, that that made the impression.
Third, she actually can not remember in detail.
All these are things she said...plus I feel like women can not estimate dicksize correctly.
Also it depends on the frame it is in. I mean if somebody of my size (190 and 95 kg) carries a dick of about 8 inch and 6 inch around it might look smaller compared to somebody of 6 ft height and 70 kg weight with a 7 inch dick and 5 inch circumference...
Any thoughts on my few cents here ?
I don`t want to say anything negative about my girl, she is superb, we are in love and she did not intend to hurt me, it was stupid me, who asked...
Also she gives me the feeling she accepts my true personality, which is full of broken pieces of my soul...I also revealed PE to her.
Well actually I want to get over it, plus I want to become bigger than anyone else possibly might have been or might not have been.
That is why I restarted PE a few months ago. I have a lot of Pe experience, as I have been jelqing here and there but never consistently...
NOW, what frustrates me...I DO NOT GAIN a f****** millimetre...
Is it possible that this is due to the fact I have never really used an established routine but made my own personalized workout ?
Well, please please help me people. This thread shall also be my success thread, as I planned to start off with the JP 90 routine.
So whatever you want to brag out on, feel free to do so. BTW, if there are any idiomatic mistakes or syntactic ones, keep in mind I am german.
Cheers Dude
Hello my friends,
As I am new to this forum it would surely be adequat to introduce myself a bit more. I have already been doing this in my fist posts but whtsoever, my story is the reason I am here.
I have developed a dick size complex over the years, as my exgirl, who was a borderline personality used to set some freaking demons in my soul by busting out about her exs enormous dick and how it "ripped her mouth apart"... this crank stuff led to depression, anxiety and what have you...
well I recetnly thought I would be done with all that crap from back in the day, but unfortunately found out that my current girl also had one "bigger guy"... old feelings come back and begin to make me feel insecure and I feel such a big fear our relationship could burst because of my complex even though I know she does not care about size.
Well, several things and questions to discuss...
First, she only gave him a handjob. There was no sex or bj. (This would have been much more disturbing for me I guess)
Second, she only had small ones before, so it may be, that that made the impression.
Third, she actually can not remember in detail.
All these are things she said...plus I feel like women can not estimate dicksize correctly.
Also it depends on the frame it is in. I mean if somebody of my size (190 and 95 kg) carries a dick of about 8 inch and 6 inch around it might look smaller compared to somebody of 6 ft height and 70 kg weight with a 7 inch dick and 5 inch circumference...
Any thoughts on my few cents here ?
I don`t want to say anything negative about my girl, she is superb, we are in love and she did not intend to hurt me, it was stupid me, who asked...
Also she gives me the feeling she accepts my true personality, which is full of broken pieces of my soul...I also revealed PE to her.
Well actually I want to get over it, plus I want to become bigger than anyone else possibly might have been or might not have been.
That is why I restarted PE a few months ago. I have a lot of Pe experience, as I have been jelqing here and there but never consistently...
NOW, what frustrates me...I DO NOT GAIN a f****** millimetre...
Is it possible that this is due to the fact I have never really used an established routine but made my own personalized workout ?
Well, please please help me people. This thread shall also be my success thread, as I planned to start off with the JP 90 routine.
So whatever you want to brag out on, feel free to do so. BTW, if there are any idiomatic mistakes or syntactic ones, keep in mind I am german.
Cheers Dude
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