6inDongNotForLong's progress/session log

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I wish, but it is pouring.

Just getting more and more tired.

If you stay up long enough youll see a rainbow. Fall tired fast and you might miss it.

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I very very seldom talk about this....and i know people like statistics so here is one, one of the biggest killers of middle aged men in America is suicide; suicide is very often related to depression (duh..). I personally have struggled with depression, many times. At times, it was brought upon by outside events, such as death of close relative/friend; other times for no reason.

For me personaly, depresion is more on episodes. Same with anxiety. I personally have found that PE in fact DOES help with my depression/anxiety. Another thing that helps me a lot is working out. Since I have leaned out, and achieved physical and PE goals (achieved small goals; working on end goals(no such thing as end goals)), I might have my depression under better control. Another thing Im actually realizeing right now as I am typing this, in last 7months I have really tried hard to gain financial Independence..I have paid off all my credit debt, and majority of my student/car loans. I think this really has had a positive effect on my outlook in life.

Exercise (cardio/weights/bodyweight/YOGA), diet(low carb/no junk), PE, debt free...those are my tools in fighting depression and keeping it at bay. None of these tools are to be underestimated. Yoga, and general stretching, is a highly underestimated tool for health and happiness.

Ill be honest, having a new blond girlfriend thats tight as my pinky does help too.

Obviously, i dont know if you on medication...I cant comment towards that, but my tools listed above help me, and maybe they can help you too.

Good job beefer, for the first time ever you speak you've impressed me. You've outdone yourself and i hope Long gets some clues from what your telling him.

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Edging is full on stroking or ballooning to stay as close to the PONR without going over the edge. Ballooning is rubbing a small sensitive area.

Try adding one minute to your clamped edging each 2 days. Don't do any stretching. Work up on the clamped edgingbuntil you are doing 30 minute sets. I was doing as much as 1 hour sets and 3 of those per training day. If you want girth get girth. Just don't keep the clamp too tight, but keep it tight enough for swelling. Time under tension is key here.

I thought an aggressive clamp for a 10 minute session was the norm? I must be misinformed.. Maybe I'll try a sesh tonight like what you mentioned, Wishful.

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I thought an aggressive clamp for a 10 minute session was the norm? I must be misinformed.. Maybe I'll try a sesh tonight like what you mentioned, Wishful.

It is the norm. It is also the safest way. But we have to escalate our training as we condition or it stops working. Pay attention Wyd as you go over time. But you know that. Enjoy.

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Good job beefer, for the first time ever you speak you've impressed me. You've outdone yourself and i hope Long gets some clues from what your telling him.

Look, I could leave my relationship and my issues would die down.
But she isn't just "any girl" to me. She chased me, she made me feel like I was desired like I'd never felt before, she gives me so much patience and love. She could have left so long ago, before I judged her, before I made her feel bad about her past because my selfish feelings were expressed instead of held internally. Problems aside, our relationship would be near perfect. We laugh, we smile, we go out and have fun, we go on adventures around our city, walks in nature. We love, and we love so much.

I love this girl more than I thought was possible, and I think that's part of the problem, I think that my love for her plus the knowledge of her less than self respecting past causes me to hurt because I want so desperately to change what she'd chose to do. She said to me the other day "You know you're the best boyfriend ever, right?" and I said "Yeah? Am I?" and she replies "Yes and I know it all the time".

She has her problems, and I have many many of my own unfortunately.
I don't think it's worth just giving up and leaving for the sake of my problems to go into hiding, yes that's right, HIDING. They wont go away, they will be there for the next girl I give my heart to. Because I am mentally ill. My OCD causes me to obsess about questions, details, content.. Who? Where? Why? When? How? Then my anxiety spikes, causing me to further obsess and want to push for information.. "Ask the question, she might not get that mad.. Just ask, then if she does open up and tell you information, push for more information because it wasn't enough to reassure your anxious feelings"

It's all tied into my many triggers, which are everywhere. I can't watch specific shows because of the types of sex scenes, I can't listen to specific artists on the radio because of the things they say in their songs. My therapist thinks these PTSD related triggers are feeding off of triggers I must have developed during my childhood.

So yeah, then I'd be back in the same spot, with a girl I'd love less, because she isn't my current girlfriend. There is only one of her in this world, and I have her. I wrongly wish I could change her. I can't, and that's why I'm in therapy, to learn to accept, let go, appreciate, stop judging and love unconditionally.

The issue is within me.

I lack confidence even though everything in my life other than these issues should lead me to tons of confidence. I have low self esteem, I look in the mirror and I think "This is wrong, this isn't big enough, this isn't perfect" instead of thinking "I have nice eyebrows, my hair is thick and my hairline is strong, I've got nice teeth, I'm not too over weight, I've got nice eyes, I'm a loving person, I'm genuine, I'm honest, I'm caring and compassionate, I make people laugh and try to help others love themselves and see the beauty they are projecting".

I focus on the negatives instead of the many many positives.

The actual issues are deeper, but these are what they are "displaying" through.

1. My girlfriend has a pretty dirty sexual past.
2. My girlfriends ex friends with benefits has a bigger penis.
3. I don't get the opportunities to provide those fun sexual experiences like he did.
4. I don't feel like I am enough.


It's incredible, those few things (which aren't the root causes most likely) are driving me into depression, sadness, anger, frustration, jealousy, judgmental tenancies, major cognitive dissonance, confusion, resentment, disgust and even suicidal thoughts.

Yet when I have free moments, which are rare, I see how incredibly lucky I should feel. I've got a girlfriend who has proven to me she loves me unconditionally with loads of patience, through my judgment and improper behavior. My life has the potential to end up being stress free and I could live my dreams off of my talents. (Assuming things go right).

When those moments occur, I see this gorgeous young woman smiling at ME. Saying cute things about our future, like "At our wedding we should have..." "We should travel here.." "When we have a baby.."

Unfortunately, my obsessions tick and then I think "You're saying these beautiful, things to me, but you've done "This" and "this"".

"How can you be so cute and adorable at this moment, but have done "this" or "this"".

I want to beat these issues and live my life with happy, and happy for me includes having this wonderful woman in my life. I want to experience everything new with her, and I want her to show me experiences she's already had so we can share and I can feel like I've lived too.

No matter how painful and difficult this is, I'm not giving up just to make things "easy".

Telling somebody you love them means you're willing to do whatever it takes to make things the way they're supposed to be, and that involves sacrifice, dedication, and a lot of perseverance.

So the clues I got from Beefster?;

1. Get my life on track
2. Love the life I'm living
3. Be happy
4. PROGRESS

This wasn't an angry reply or anything, I just really wanted to fully explain this for you and anyone who checks up on me and my thread (Which I appreciate every one of you).

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10 minute warm up
50 kegels/50 reverse kegels
100 jelqs
25 v-jelqs
25 ultimate v-jelqs
25 squeezes
5 Uli's
1 x 10 minute double clamped edging session (opposite ends)
1 x 20 minute double clamped edging session (stacked at base)
1 hour BathMate session at low pressure

I was measuring in while clamped at 5.43 MEG then 5.39 consistently, which I believe is the biggest expansion I've seen (since figuring out a more consistent measuring method).

I was careful to watch my coloration and sensation. I did have slight "numbness", to which I lessened the clamp for a bit and everything was okay. After my session my penis was very engorged and thick, I did a 30 second massage with some very light grip flaccid jelqs to get blood circulating through and everything seemed perfectly okay.

I used a sex toy I bought many years ago to help edge with, it is supposed to mimic the feeling of a blowjob. This was nice because I feel like using my hand was a more "rough" sensation.

I have another sex toy which is 7.8 x 5.6. I had always considered the base of it (which is the only area it's 5.6) to be "Huge". I never measured it until yesterday, so it actually blows my mind how visually large 5.5/5.6 is compared to 5.0.

This eases my mind a bit, which also is credited to Wishful who stated it was likely I'm obsessing harder than I needed.

I just need to see some progress and I'll feel more confident being on the right track.

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5.4 sounds like you are headed in the Right direction. Good job, keep it up.

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5.4 sounds like you are headed in the Right direction. Good job, keep it up.

Thanks!! I sure hope so.

Also, I updated my page 1 first post.
Just added a little thank you to a few people.

I am just about done with my 1 hour pump..

I will let you know if I feel any fatigue, I didn't after the manual routine + clamping, so I'm genuinely confused.

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You are just more conditioned than we thought. You have a tough penis. Keep on keeping on. You are doing very well. On my way to page 1.

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First off im not advising you to leave your GF, that would be against your will and i have to respect that. I will say that what i think is your biggest issue that you havent mentioned here is that, you THINK too much about your girl.

Second of all if the whole ex thing is really much of an issue well your in the right place for that. I felt like this with my current GF at some point but not related to Ex's. Im in a long distance relationship but what i would do in your case is cease off all sex activities until your ready to presume them again. You have much to benefit from this especially considering you could make a .4 Girth gain in about 5 months or so. Maybe by then you will have your head more straight and also have the benefit of a much bigger penis which you would be able to please your GF to max satisfaction.

Third, is take it down a notch your overthinking, ive been there trust me. Theres no winning when you are fighting against yourself. Your supposed to conquer yourself not fight against it.Ive done plenty of fighting to an extreme point that i built so much rage thats unimaginable. So i understand you a little. I know whats it like to fight against yourself, and trust me there is no winning. The only way out is to find a fix that works for you. Think hard what do you need to do so that you can get past this stage of your life. Think very hard everything has an answer you can find it trust me.

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First off im not advising you to leave your GF, that would be against your will and i have to respect that. I will say that what i think is your biggest issue that you havent mentioned here is that, you THINK too much about your girl.

Second of all if the whole ex thing is really much of an issue well your in the right place for that. I felt like this with my current GF at some point but not related to Ex's. Im in a long distance relationship but what i would do in your case is cease off all sex activities until your ready to presume them again. You have much to benefit from this especially considering you could make a .4 Girth gain in about 5 months or so. Maybe by then you will have your head more straight and also have the benefit of a much bigger penis which you would be able to please your GF to max satisfaction.

Third, is take it down a notch your overthinking, ive been there trust me. Theres no winning when you are fighting against yourself. Your supposed to conquer yourself not fight against it.Ive done plenty of fighting to an extreme point that i built so much rage thats unimaginable. So i understand you a little. I know whats it like to fight against yourself, and trust me there is no winning. The only way out is to find a fix that works for you. Think hard what do you need to do so that you can get past this stage of your life. Think very hard everything has an answer you can find it trust me.

I just hate that we didn't choose to feel this way, act this way, think this way.
Yet, we're stuck having to deal with it and try to "reprogram" our brains.

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Wow haha, 14CM (5.51'') after taking the pump off.

Not only was my girth just super thick and full, the width of my penis was wider and looked great. Almost took a photo and sent it to my girlfriend with the caption "Thick enough for you? "

I would have gotten my head bit off though hahaha.

Tiny tiny bit of edema, I'd actually say little to none. (Yep, none that I can feel)

Definitely a successful pumping session.

I will post an update in like an hour if I'm feeling any fatigue, as of right now it doesn't seem like it.


Maybe I have the worlds most difficult penis/strongest tunica lmao.

that huge expansion quickly dies off, I'm sitting flaccid at 13.9CM or 5.078''

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I just hate that we didn't choose to feel this way, act this way, think this way.
Yet, we're stuck having to deal with it and try to "reprogram" our brains.

For me, i jsut got exhausted... I did so much overthinking that i almost gave up. Like i always say we always cloud ourselves with thoughts and we believe almost every single one of them especially the negative ones.

Aftr being fatigued of all the thinking i had but one thing to do. Fix the mess in anyway that i could. My head got straight and my drive has been stronger now than ever. This goes with the saying "what doesnt kill you makes you stronger". I was defeated at some point in my life, i had some other guy get in my head by getting my girls "attention" he then hacked into my computer watched everything that i talked about with my girl thru FB and was stalking me for a whole year behind the scene trying to get at my girl so that he could mentally destroy me. Cause like you my girl is my biggest weakness, so what i tell her is i can be weak for you but also very strong. So keep that in mind, she might be your weakness but im sure she can make you more of a man if you let her. (my gf doesnt talk to him or anything it was a 1 time interaction).

So know that people go thru similar stuff and it can be mentally hard.

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Looks like pump its doing its job, i cant wait for mine gratz on your progress btw.

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For me, i jsut got exhausted... I did so much overthinking that i almost gave up. Like i always say we always cloud ourselves with thoughts and we believe almost every single one of them especially the negative ones.

Aftr being fatigued of all the thinking i had but one thing to do. Fix the mess in anyway that i could. My head got straight and my drive has been stronger now than ever. This goes with the saying "what doesnt kill you makes you stronger". I was defeated at some point in my life, i had some other guy get in my head by getting my girls "attention" he then hacked into my computer watched everything that i talked about with my girl thru FB and was stalking me for a whole year behind the scene trying to get at my girl so that he could mentally destroy me. Cause like you my girl is my biggest weakness, so what i tell her is i can be weak for you but also very strong. So keep that in mind, she might be your weakness but im sure she can make you more of a man if you let her. (my gf doesnt talk to him or anything it was a 1 time interaction).

So know that people go thru similar stuff and it can be mentally hard.

I totally get the exhaustion.. You just don't have it in you to do anything, to attempt to feel happiness.

And be careful, if your computer is infected by a RAT (Remote Administration Tool) then he likely still has access to listening through any microphones you have connected, or watching you through your webcam.

They can be extremely difficult to remove because they are able to be what's called FUD (Fully undetected) by anti-virus software.

They're usually hidden in your registry.