Becoming a better man

[bautista19 Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close bautista19]

And for the challenge, I am going to see if I can refrain from drinking for the next two weeks. I often find I have the best EQ after 3 or 4 days of 100% abstinence.

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9/18/12

Today was pretty cool. Without PE or porn I was able to get it up in like 3 minutes to use the FL STU. What a difference a couple of weeks makes. When I first got it I think I lasted maybe 1 minute. Today was 20, and the first stop came in like 4 minutes, the second at 10, the third at 17 and I made myself blow at 20. I was becoming tired, and losing some level of horniness so it was weird actually having to try to cum, and not to not cum.

I feel like the kegel/reverse kegel routine I am doing is working wonders. Even though the FL stimulation is very quickly arousing, rather than shifting my focus away from the insane arousal, I can focus on it and just relax. It's much more satisfying than trying to look in the mirror at my gut to lower my arousal level.

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9/19/12

Flying high. First PONR with the FL STU this morning.....wait for it.......9 friggin minutes. What was amazing was the incredible arousal level from about 4 min to the time I had to stop. The subsequent PONRs came much more quickly at like 11, 14 and finally 18. That first one is the one I care most about though since I don't think I'll be doing any MMO in bed w/ the wife anytime soon.

Whenever I look down and see myself enter the FL I think I really need to lose the gut.

Anyways, today was killer. I prob won't get a chance to FL it again until next Tuesday, so I'm hoping to have sex a couple times between now and then.

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Does it feel like a vagina really?

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Does it feel like a vagina really?

Physically I think it is more stimulating. However, it's not attached to a woman.

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Here's a nice little update. So, last night 9/20 was our first sexy time in two weeks. One week my wife had her period, then it was followed by a week of discomfort for some other issues which will make sex and hanky panky uncomfortable. I'll spare the details.

We decided I'd be on top and do the thrusting. Keep in mind I've been battling premature ejaculation, and me on top thrusting = quick. I hadn't been on top in probably 6+ months, but I was up for the challenge, and pretty excited about it after FL thrusting.

It wasn't deep, heavy porn star thrusting, but it was an improvement. Learning how my body reacts I was able to pace myself. I'd say it probably lasted ~5 minutes, and I actually finished at her request.

Also, the last two times we had sex I had some blood sugar issues resulting in pretty mediocre EQ. I was a little paranoid about them, and then worried that would cause SPA. I hadn't looked down at my junk until it was lube up time, but when I did look it was nice and veiny and engorged. So, I knew I was giving her a ten EQ.

This is a huge confidence boost, even thinking back to the last few times I was on top I'm not even sure I had reached good EQ before I ejaculated. This time I had great EQ and was in control the entire time. The PONRs came quickly and furiously and I was able to mitigate them.

I am so ready to get back at it. This is as excited about sex as I've been in forever.

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Quality EQ again today 9/22, and ~3 minutes of thrusting. I even had a moment with a completely flaccid dick after eating her pussy, but I sprung right back up.

I'm still a ways away from 10-15 minutes of thrusting, but this is so much better than the 15 seconds I used to be able to do.

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9/25/12 - Best FL session yet, even after 3 days of abstinence I saw some major improvements. This time I incorporated a nice new porno. When I first got the FL I didn't use porn because I lasted so briefly. First PONR came around the 6 minute mark. This is the best session yet. I had another 2, and finally let myself cum at about 15 minutes.

I had high quality, not throbbing EQ, the entire time. After the hard kegels on the edge were the only 10s, but the rest of the time a nice 9.

I really feel like I am on the brink of conquering my premature ejaculation.

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Awesome man keep it up!

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Awesome man keep it up!

Thanks. It's nice having a routine which is more fun than what I was doing anyways. It makes it easy to stick to.

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9/26

Today will be interesting. I tried talking the wife into a nooner, but she really had no time. She did promise sex tonight though. I'm feeling really horned up today, and usually I would FL STU it up with the time alone. But, I don't feel like getting it set up and everything.

I've made stamina progress, but I kind of expect tonight to be a bit of a battle, considering how I feel right now.

Hopefully I don't blow immediately.

EDIT: Weird, after typing this I had to FL it up. I'm glad I did, it was battle to last.

Vitamin note:
I've been using a new Green Ultra Sport multi-vitamin from GNC and I have been getting the best and most consistent erections I may have ever had. This has been for like a week and a half. This may be a co-incidence, but they are longer, harder and more consistent...but they have not been throbbing.

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Naturally the wife fell asleep last night. So annoying. She skips nooner to promise sex at night. She falls asleep and promises tonight.

On another note, for the sake of improving my discipline I'm going to try more FL sessions w/o ejac. I can't imagine I get very far.

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Nice, just had sex somewhere between 5 and 10 minutes of me on top. We've had sex 3 nights of the last 6, so I wouldn't be shocked if it's like an entire weekend off.

This premature ejaculation is def on its way out.

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And hopefully the last update for the weekend:

9/28/12. What a way to kick off the weekend. First good sex on Thursday night, then a killer fleshlight STU session today. First PONR came in at 15 minutes. And even then, the arousal wasn't that high. I took a 15 second break, and continued. I had to daydream to get to the 2nd which came at 10 more minutes. That's right, 25 total minutes w/ the FL and no ejaculation. Quite an improvement over the 1 minute a month ago. It was weird, because it almost felt completely casual. I am becoming so relaxed during such stimulation. It's incredible.

Now, the question is I can make it to next week w/o ejaculating. I have a feeling no sex this weekend (the wife is sore), so this will be a real test of my discipline.

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9/30/12

Ugh, feeling overwhelmed again. Cash flow at work is a nightmare. I pay for everything I sell in 30 days, and my customers pay me in 60. It sucks. It leads to tons of stress, which I do not manage well at all.

When I become stressed I either eat, drink, or fold like a tent.

Since I have done well tackling premature ejaculation, I've decided I can use that discipline to wipe out the unsavory elements in my life.

I am going to begin with quitting drinking. I figured it took me about 2 months to kick diet pop and premature ejac, so I figure it'll probably take about that long to kick this habit. I don't believe in cold turkey. I have had tons of success with the diet pop and porn reduction, I'm going to keep it that way.

So, bear with me, I'll just post my drinking here, and hopefully some kind of real numbers will help me reduce it.