Suspense's Progress Log

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Routine this morning:
5 min warmup
10 min bathmate, entered erect, w/ 50 kegels at 5 min. Pumped to 180mm
10 min bathmate, entered erect, w/ 50 kegels pumped to ~187mm
50 jelqs, 30 v jelqs, 50 jelqs, 30 v jelqs (total time 10 mins)
5 min edging, had to go to work

No morning wood, but didn't take much to get it up. Felt pretty horny this morning, despite only 5.5 hours sleep.

PIs are fine, no pain, no turtling besides the shrinkage from the bitter Northeast winter cold haha

Excited to measure on the 20th, not sure if it'll be a huge number, but it definitely feels a little bit girthier, particularly in the morning, if even in my imagination. When I grab onto it in the morning it feels good. Just trying to visualize what this will be like in a year, hopefully with another 0.25" in girthier more!

Not sure if anyone reads these or not, but feel free to leave feedback/comments/pearls of wisdom if you want. Always trying to improve

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Ya we read them. That's how we learn. Thanks for keeping us posted.

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And once I post on your thread I have subscribed to it so I get notice ever time you post on this thread. That way I can track you if that's OK.

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Nice! Yeah knowledge is power mulkey. Logging every day is a good way to keep yourself on track, but also contributes to the greater scientific good too, a win-win. Absolutely ok, the more the merrier! I'm but a newbie, but I'll gladly throw down my experiences and lessons learned as they come.

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I've been trying to follow anyone that is taking matters into their own hands since that's what I do. Not so much users of devices. I'd like to be able to subscribe to threads without always putting my 2 cents in. Does anyone know how I can do that?

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I've been trying to follow anyone that is taking matters into their own hands since that's what I do. Not so much users of devices. I'd like to be able to subscribe to threads without always putting my 2 cents in. Does anyone know how I can do that?

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"I see", said the blind man, as he picked up his hammer and saw.

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Did my routine this morning, instead of my usual evening time, so I had the day to enjoy my swollen unit all day. At work I wasn't too busy, so I took a few opportunities to spend a couple extra minutes in the bathroom edging a bit. It felt a little meatier today, which, in combination with my having held back ejaculation for a couple days, gave me raging boners. I was super horny all day.

When I got home from work, being so horny and what not, decided to edge some more. I was kinda bad and looked at a couple still images of porn, so I gotta be more cognizant of that desire. I eventually ejaculated and it felt pretty friggin awesome.

HOWEVER I came to my first difficult, potentially trying conclusion about the prospects of my gains when I snuck a girth measurement in today. I haven't gained a single solitary millimeter in like 5 weeks, according to my tape measure. I know it's not realistic to expect to gain in even that short of a period of time, and I have told myself that I'm in it for the long journey, but goddamn it's tough to work work your ass off and be dissappinted, even in an insignificant way like that. Ive read a handful of posts from guys who gained like a quarter inch in their first month, and I was hoping and PRAYING I could be one of the lucky ones, but it appears I'm not quite so blessed. I'm beginning to doubt if I measured right at the beginning, or it I'm one of the guys who is gonna have to claw and fight for the smallest of gains over months and years. It's messing with my head a little, but I know in my soul that it will come eventually... Ugh. Kinda rough :-/

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Still mentally righting myself a little after yesterday, but feeling better tonight. I know it'll come in due time with patience, I just have to stop being so neurotic about it.

Anyway, this morning I squeezed in a little easy bathmate time just to keep it stimulated, nothing strenuous. Only got about 7 minutes of time since my roommate needed the bathroom. Beginning to think my performance issues are related to a lack of libido, cause when I am horny my erections are like iron, but aren't as easy to come by as I like sometimes...

My balls are a little tender today for some reason, so I'm gonna push my routine back to tomorrow evening before my Friday night debauchery, which might be handy if I bring a friend home!

Might do a little easy edging tonight, but I'm pretty wiped. Gotta get up early and lift in the am.

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Threw the bathmate on for like 15 minutes before work, very easy, just to get a little pump in to start the day. Took a preworkout for the gym this morning with arginine, felt pretty good! Measured after pumping and had temporary girth of 5.1 or so, which is cool to see/feel. I know it's short lived, but it's almost like looking into the crystal ball to see what you have to look forward to! I think that's part of the draw to pumping, you get to slowly watch those temporary gains turn permanent, with a glimpse to see what you will have someday. So much fun!

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Just finished a full routine of Bathmate and manual work, uploaded some pics, and tried out Essential Vein Oil for the first time today. Busy Friday!

5 min warmup
1 x 20 min Bathmate (repumped at 5min, 10min, and 15min intervals to near max pressure at the end)
50 Jelqs, 30 V-Jelqs, 50 Jelqs, 30 V-Jelqs, 50 Jelqs, 30 V-Jelqs (between 40-70% erect)
Edged for like 10 mins, but had a mini ejaculation by accident trying to get hard for my pictures

Haven't let a load go since Wednesday, it's Friday night now, and I'm sooooooooooooooo horny. If I had a girlfriend she'd have naughty things done to her tonight

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Abridged routine tonight, but still sufficient:

5 min shower warmup
1 x 15 min Bathmate (repump @ 5 min and 10 min, 2 x 50 kegels intra set)
~50 jelqs with Essential Vein Oil, tiny bit of edging at the end

Grabbed the Five G's for better erections tonight, the ones that Kingpole recommends, (Ginseng, Garlic, Ginko, Ginger, Green Tea). Gonna give those a go too.

Got a girl coming over tonight, so ready to blow my load, been holding it back since Wednesday!

PI's are good, but gonna take a day off tomorrow to give it a rest, he needs it.

I'm coming to the conclusion that it's not a physical ED problem that I have sometimes, but rather a problem with arousal. If I'm aroused, there's no problem whatsoever getting and maintaining an erection. Also, I'm fighting with the semi-subconscious idea that I'm a little small/thin too, but like Wishful10x8 and others say, it's about LOVING your penis. #powerofpositivethinking

No video porn still since the beginning of my log, but I have looked at a handful of topless girl pictures. Thinking I need to cut that out too, at least in the short-term.

Just plugging along, learning to temper my expectations of gains. It doesn't seem as though I'm one of the lucky guys who gets the dramatic newbie gains, since my EQ was already pretty solid. But, I'm staying optimistic. Part of me is a little bitter, but I'm learning to accept the longer timeline, and take the healthier unit

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This is turning into a combined ED/PE journal I think, since I'm working on both aspects at the moment. I'm having a problem with libido, which is causing my erections to weaken and not last as long as they should... Last night I had my FWB come over, and I had suuuuuch a hard time getting/keeping it up, despite not having ejaculated since Wednesday (last night was Saturday night). I was able to get it up when she stroked it with her hands, but when I started to have sex it would fade kinda fast. Still getting used to condoms too, but it was discouraging. I had to fake an orgasm even when it went flaccid I did go down on her for like an hour after that and got her off like 3 times, which was awesome.

I haven't had a different girl to see if it's just a lack of attraction or what, but she is a skinnier girl than I've ever had. We both woke up early this morning and she finished me off with her hands, which was soooo good!

Took a rest day today, it was a little sore today (not in an injured way) but I'll hit it tomorrow night.

I'm also going to follow some of the advice of another member named Hydeaway and going to edge frequently and only get off once a week to increase libido and keep it engorged more.

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1-13-15

Taking a little extra unplanned time off. Didn't end up doing my routine last night. Having a little lingering discomfort at what seems like the cords at the base of my dick on the left side, that I can feel in my left testicle and up the left side of my shaft a little bit. Over zealous use of the bathmate seems to trigger it, where the gaitor compresses at the base. Might do a little heat pad and massaging tonight after work to see if that helps, but I don't wanna make it worse.

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1-14-15

Let nut is still a little sore today, but my dick feels good. Thinking it might be a tender vas deferens from using the Bathmate too hard. I applied heat last night before bed to the base of my dick, not on my balls themselves. MIGHT try an easy routine tonight, gonna see how I feel. Got a job interview this afternoon so my nerves are a little edgy today, might need a release tonight haha.

6 days till my official measure date. Gonna limit these to once a month, for sanity sake.