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2-17-15
JP90 Day 23

Did an abbreviated routine after work, had a 50 Shades of Grey date

-Straight out, Left, Right, Up stretches with 25 kegels and 10 circles each direction
-50 wet jelqs
-30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs
Had to stop, ran out of time

I really didn't wanna stop my routine, it felt too good. Was holding the right EQ level, getting good expansion, but had business to attend to

Got home from the movies and was banging, but I was losing wood during penetration after like 5 minutes in the two positions we tried. Kinda sucked, but she's very patient and understanding which helps a little. Just went to sleep

However we banged this morning in missionary and it was glorious.

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2-18-15
JP90 Day 24

Did my routine after work and the gym so I didn't have a ton of time but I got it done. I had a date (which went pretty well)

-Stretches w/ kegels and circle stretches
-[50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs] x 3

PIs are still nice, flaccid seems a little longer and meatier, although it's not a huge amount it seems like it to me. Woke up with morning wood today, edged it for a little while. I'm working on being less aggressive in my stroking with pressure and pace, since I think that might have contributed to my ED the other night.

I've measured it a couple times already and I've hit 7.25" BPEL which is more than I started with! I'm pumped, to say the least. They say girth follows length so I'm going to stay diligent and push on.

Today (2-19) will be a rest day since I won't have time to fit a routine in until tomorrow.

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"So what did you do today?"

"Oh, well not much really. Woke up, went to work, gym and did my penis exercise routine and now I'm here. How about you?"

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"So what did you do today?"

"Oh, well not much really. Woke up, went to work, gym and did my penis exercise routine and now I'm here. How about you?"

Couple more stiff cocktails (no pun intended) and I might have actually said something about it

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2-19-15
JP90 Day 25

230am routine, had just driven home from a show in Boston and couldn't sleep

-Straight out, left, right, up down stretches w/ 25 kegels and 10 circles
-50 wet jelqs, 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs, 30 v jelqs
-75 wet jelqs, 50 v jelqs
-1 hour edging

Could have been the adderall, but I was in the zone for this one, my dick felt amazing. Had good expansion, glans was plump, my dick felt nice and full after. I don't know if it's just me or not, but it feels thicker in my hand now, even though the ruler doesn't say so yet.

I think a big part of success with PE is to make it fun. Make it something you look forward to, and associate it with pleasure. Visualize your big cock filling up your special somebody, how they moan, picture them squirming with pleasure. Visualisation is powerful stuff. It seems to work for me anyway

Cheers guys. Happy Friday! Hope you all have fun shenanigans for the weekend

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2-21-15
JP90 Day 27

Saturday afternoon routine

-stretches with 25 kegels and 10 circle stretches (bundled 180° left/right)
-3 x [75 wet jelqs, 50 v jelqs]
-10 minute Cockring edging

Routine felt ok, had to work hard to keep an erection today

Having bad insecure thoughts about my size, I'm thinking because I stumbled across a Tumblr blog called "girthy enounters" or something. I'm just feeling this DEEP anxiety today that I'll never be able to truly please a woman on a primal, visceral level like that since I'm not thick. I read about all the success stories too and everyone says girth is king, and I just picture myself getting cheated in later in like cause I'm not big like that. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to sound indignant or fish for compliments or anything either, I'm just feeling down today. It's probably just mental bullshit, but it's hitting me pretty hard today...how do you guys handle that?? I need to know how to manage this shit. It's killing me.

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2-22-15
JP90 Day 28

Evening routine

-Stretches (see above)
-3 x [75 wet jelqs; 50 v jelqs]

EQ was either too high or too low, but it felt ok tonight. I've done a lot of edging this weekend, so my dick felt kinda tired. Might need a rest tomorrow. No sex this weekend, ejacualted a couple times.

In a better mood today too, not sure what got into me yesterday. Feeling more optimistic. Could be because I'm a little horny. Realizing I'm only a month into proper manual PE, so there's much more jelqing and stroking to do, and I can't wait

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2-23-15
JP90 Day 29

Rest day. Wore my silicone sleeve most of the day. Unit felt a little tender from lots of edging last weekend. Will do routine tonight (2-24).

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2-24-15
JP90 Day 30

Evening routine

-Multidirectional stretches with 25 kegels and 10 circles each way
-75 wet jelqs, 50 v jelqs
-75 wet jelqs, 50 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs, 20 v jelqs

My dick is still a little tired and it feels a little tender on the inside, I could feel it during my routine tonight. Gonna take a rest day tomorrow entirely and possibly into the next day too. I'll be at my parents' this weekend so that's more rest time, or at least necked back a bit.

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2-25-15
JP90 Day 31
Rest

2-26-15
JP90 Day 32
Rest

2-27-15
JP90 Day 33

At my parents' house, so not in the usual location, focus seemed a little off and EQ wasn't as high as I like it, but I got it done.

-stretches with kegels and circles
-3 x [50 wet jelqs and 30 v jelqs]

Recovering from a bit of a porn relapse for a few days, it got a little out of hand again. EQ will suffer for a bit but I know it'll getbe

[closed224 Senior Member Member of the Month Dec 2014, Feb 2017 Find all posts View Profile Close closed224]

Struggling with negative thoughts is pretty common. When you think something negative try replacing it immediately with 3 positive thoughts. Also love your penis it is wonderful. Nobody will cheat on you because of your size. Say positive things to and about your penis, and use visualization about how nice it will be to grow bigger just for yourself. Putting the expectation on someone else can lead to the belief that you are not satisfying the other person.
I read you did a good job of satisfying someone recently. Stay safe and consistent.

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Struggling with negative thoughts is pretty common. When you think something negative try replacing it immediately with 3 positive thoughts. Also love your penis it is wonderful. Nobody will cheat on you because of your size. Say positive things to and about your penis, and use visualization about how nice it will be to grow bigger just for yourself. Putting the expectation on someone else can lead to the belief that you are not satisfying the other person.
I read you did a good job of satisfying someone recently. Stay safe and consistent.

The importance of positivity and love is soooooo under emphasized with PE. Thank you wishful I really needed to hear that.

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You are welcome. I agree about the importance of positivity. If you are low there are a lot of brothers and sisters here to lift you up.

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2-28-15
JP90 Day 34

Putting positivity into practice - afternoon routine

-stretches (added 180 degree bundles on the left and right directions)
-3 x [50 wet jelqs, 30 v jelqs]

It was easier to keep my EQ today than last night, but I'm still feeling the effects of the porn relapse. I know it'll get better. Had a semi this morning, but not a raging hard-on by any means. My dick feels good, no fatigue or soreness. Those rest days were just what the doctor ordered.

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3-1-15
JP90 Day 35

-Stretches with 25 kegels and 10 circles
-3 x [50 wet jelqs, 30 v jelqs]

Really trying hard to replace my negative thought patterns with positive ones, not just about my dick but about everything. It feels good.

As far as my routine tonight, I'm feeling a little under the weather the past few days, so I was pretty tired tonight for this one. Had to stop and "refresh" my hard-won ever 10-15 reps, but got through it. Plus last night I was edging and accidentally stroked it a little too much, let's just say. For now, bed time.