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3-18-15
JP90 Day 51

Rest day, masturbated.

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3-19-15
JP90 Day 52

Semi unintentional rest day. Needed a little down time.

3-20-15
JP90 Day 53

Morning routine before work

-Directional stretches with 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles
-3 x [50 wet jelqs and 30 v jelqs]
-Edged for 20 minutes

I'm really horny today. During the stretches I was having to wait to let my erection go away between circle stretches. My dick feels good though, I'm trying to get more mentally into my routine and really visualize it getting bigger. Waking up with morning wood at about a 7/10 EQ.

I've increased my l-arginine to about 4g a day and still taking the 5 Gs, plus I'm trying to not jerk off so much and/or so aggressively. It takes a LOT of focus while edging.

Wearing my silicone sleeve today at work.

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3-22-15
JP90 Day 54

Debating a rest day today. I've backed off the past few days with routine frequency, but recently I'm noticing my shaft is a little numb I feel like, or at least has less sensation than it should. It's nearly imperceptible but I can notice it.

When I have sex without a condom I don't have a problem with losing erections but with a condom it's approaching a pattern.

Had fun last night (and this morning ) with a girl I'm casually seeing and went in total for a least a couple hours. Needless to say my unit is a little tired, but she's said she's kinda sore too, in a good way Felt her A Spot a little and made her squeak from that, it was niiiiice. Might do a light routine tonight depending how I'm feeling.

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Remember sex, especially long sore in a good way sex needs to be added into your training time calculations. Way to go by the way. Keep it up, celebrate with a rest day, you earned it.

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Thanks wishful. I appreciate the support

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3-23-15
JP90 Day 55

Rest day.

Based on a weird desensitization and feeling of overworking a bit and under advisement from a few of the more experienced guys I'm taking some time off and reassessing after that whether I should restart with a less demanding routine with a lighter jelqing grip. I'm going to start with five days of COMPLETE rest and see how my penis feels after that. No masturbating, no jelqs, no test erections, just honest rest. It's a busy week at work anyway so I'll use the time to relax and catch up some reading and gym time.

COMPLETE REST - Day 1 of 5

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3-28-15
JP90 On Hold

Still resting due to the weird desensitization I noticed earlier this week. I have masturbated a couple times, but I have kept it light and gentle. No PE since Monday, and it feels a little better. When I do work up the courage to jelq again it'll be at a lower volume and intensity. I'm leaning towards PSEGs routine since it's a little tamer than JP90. It's frustrating because I really want my dick to grow and I was really careful I thought, but I have to be patient.

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4-24-15

Back after a full month off. Needed to take a break from jelqing to let my guy recover a little. Still masturbated and had sex (with vaginal orgasms given ). I was so afraid my dick was going to shrivel up and I'd lose all my gains but I realized it doesn't really help to stress about it. I've taken up meditation and yoga, and I feel better than I have in a while overall. I haven't even measured since late March and I'm ok with it. I'm grateful for my longer than average, although slightly thin unit that's working wonders these days.

I did 10 minutes of LIGHT wet jelqs just to get the feel of it again, and it felt great. I'm definitely taking it way easier after my overworked unit from a month ago. I think I was gripping so hard on my jelqs to over stimulate the nerves on the skin of my shaft and they weren't quite as sensitive as I thought they should be. I'm going to check out PSEGs beginner routine for a lighter approach.

4-25-15

Happy birthday to me

I dusted off the bathmate just to get something in today, 10 minute low suction. Felt good, but tomorrow is definitely a rest day.

Good to be back boys and girls! Looking forward to big things.

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4-27-15

10 minutes of easy slow wet jelqs, edged for 15 minutes after.

Observations: felt decent. Was really trying to be mindful of going slowly and not squeezing the hell out of it. I did pull out some porn, which I know isn't ideal but can't change it now.

4-28-15

-15 minutes bathmate, low suction.
-About 50 wet jelqs, give or take. Easy and slow.
-60 minutes edging (while texting naughty things with my FWB )

Observations: took extreme care to make sure there was zero pain anywhere while in the pump. I'm going to try it as a warmup some of the time with evening showers. Entered semi-erect and took it to 180mm gradually (I'm about 183mm BPEL at full tilt). Edema was minimal, felt plump but not swollen.
After jelqing I felt good, but I notice that wet jelqing is a lot of stimulation for my shaft skin, and it feels a little overused in a way, and wasn't super sensitive. I might start light squeezes and dry jelqs as another method.
Since yesterday was a pretty heavy day I'm going to leave it completely alone (no substantial touching of any kind) for a couple days so the sensation can come up a little more again.

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5-2-15

-Bathmate low suction (to 180mm): 2 x 15 min
-25 jelqs
-10 min edging

Had some time and privacy, so I decided to rock the bathmate today. Had a little turkey neck but I did have it on for quite a while. It hung a little fuller and longer today. Dick feels good hours later, but will reassess if I can do a routine tomorrow night. Will do some kegels before bed tonight, and more tomorrow during the day.

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5-3-15

About 8 minutes with the bathmate, low suction. Got interrupted. Had a ton of water, which will help with healing and blood viscosity and general health. Did about 50 kegels in the car too.

5-4-15

Rest day.

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Been doing a lot of edging the past few days (non PMO), but I managed to squeeze in a routine last night

5-6-15

-Stretches straight out, left, and right with 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles
-15 minutes slow wet jelqs, not squeezing hard, about 70-80% erect on average
-60 minutes edging

4 days off porn, natural libido is slowly coming back. Got a FWB coming over tomorrow for some play time.

Observations: dick feels ok, I'm taking it easier this time around (lower intensity, more rest days, mindful routines, visualizing more instead of forcing). Girth is my focus medium- to long-term, but for now I just want to get used to more work and conditioning.

To anybody following this thing, I hope it's helpful. Feel free to leave comments or pointers, I could always use the help.

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5-8-15

-20 minutes low suction bathmate
-1 hour edging, ejaculated

Nuts are a little tender for some reason, not sure if the bathmate sat funny. I'm not pumping super hard, but might have pulled or pushed wrong.

Other than that I feel good. Took PTO today, did a little extra edging throughout the day. Did sneak a couple naked pics so I'll have to start my counter over at 0

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5-11-15

-Straight, left, right stretches with 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles
-10 min jelqs
-20 min edging, came

Porn free since 5-9-15

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5-12-15

-Straight, left, right stretches with 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles
-10 min jelqs
-20 min edging, came

Porn free since 5-9-15

Routine felt good! No pain, decent vascularity, did well to keep the intensity dialed back. Averaged a 50-60% erection for the jelqs, didn't squeeze hard.

Edged with a condom on to condition myself to enjoying those. I always go into my edging with good intentions to not come but it gets the best of me. Not coming till Friday night!

Wearing my silicone ADS sleeve at work this week too, it seems to help my flaccid size.