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3-2-15
JP90 Day 36

Evening routine

-Stretches (Straight out, Bundled Left, Bundled Right, Up, Down each w/ 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-75 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs

Had to FIGHT for EQ the whole friggin time on this one. Still working on fighting off the negative thoughts that creep in too. Finally got into a groove on the third round of jelqs, which was satisfying. Experimenting with laying down, sitting on the edge of my bed, and standing. I'm doing my jelqs in front of a mirror, and trying to visualize my dick bigger, satisfying a girl completely, but it's been hard (difficult) the past couple days to really truly believe it. I fucked my brain up a little bit with big dick porn so I'm re-detoxing from that, which will take a couple weeks more at least I think.

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Nice gains, suspense. Keep up the good work. Positivity is where it is at. Manifest your reality. You actually have a large penis already. I am impressed.

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Nice gains, suspense. Keep up the good work. Positivity is where it is at. Manifest your reality. You actually have a large penis already. I am impressed.

Thank you very much wishful. Always nice to see that PE penguin popping into my progress log with such positive supportive words. You da man.

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3-3-15
JP90 Day 37

-Stretches (Straight out, Bundled Left, Bundled Right, Up, Down each w/ 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs

This routine felt good. Squeezed it in before a date last night, but didn't end up getting to show her my handy work this time, such a shame...

This morning had a semi morning chub, played with it for a little while, and didn't release, so that's a step in the right direction. No negative PIs.

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3-4-15
JP90 Day 38

Evening routine

-Stretches (Straight out, Bundled Left, Bundled Right, Up, Down each w/ 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles)
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs

Decent routine last night, even though I wasn't especially horny cause it was pretty late in the day and I was tired. I was able to get a boner a little easier, which made it more fun. I like the was the expansion feels when I do the jelqs and v jelqs. I find myself rushing through it a little just because I'm afraid my boner is going to go away.

Didn't wake up with morning wood today, but I'm always really horny in the morning so I edged it a little this morning and it felt good. Didn't get off, so I feel like I'm ready to explode, but I'm gonna hold it off till this for a couple more days till this weekend, I'm determined! My flaccid always feels more full if I'm holding back a load for a few extra days.

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3-5-15
JP90 Day 39

-Stretches (Straight out, Bundled Left, Bundled Right, Up, Down each w/ 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles)
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs

Dick felt pretty good for this one, responded well to exercises, it's amazing how much harder (more difficult) it is when I'm tired right before bed. I really have to focus to keep an erection, and I haven't gotten off for a few days which is weird that I'm not getting raging boners.

On a positive note, I did this routine last night, and this morning woke up with good morning wood!

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3-6-15
JP90 Day 40

-Stretches (Straight out, Bundled Left, Bundled Right, Up, Down each w/ 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles)
Tried to jelq but couldn't get it up for some reason . It was pretty late at night, and I just wasn't feeling it. Probably needed the rest anyway...

3-7-15
JP90 Day 41

Morning routine
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs

Did 15 minutes in the Bathmate a few hours after this routine.

Picked up where my routine from the night before left off. Routine went well, tried to maintain 30-70% EQ for the jelqing, and had to fluff it a fair amount but not a ton. Probably has to do with the fact that I was edging yesterday morning and unintentionally got off. I did this routine with a new batch of EVO using Grapeseed oil instead of Olive Oil, and I like it more. It's more slippery and has a lower viscosity. With the EVO I get that warm feeling, it's goooooood

Did this routine in the morning since it's Saturday and I don't have to work. It seems like even sporadic porn use is affecting my EQ and libido, even though I'm not getting off necessarily every time I watch it. Definitely need to cut that cold turkey, 100%, as much as my brain doesn't want to. It feels like textbook addiction signs, with the justification, "just a little bit won't hurt" self-talk, etc.

Making it a habit to end on a happy thought though. I'm realizing I like the way my dick looks, and I'm grateful it's healthy and strong and that it feels so good, even though I beat the shit out of him

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3-8-15
JP90 Day 42

Rest day.

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3-9-15
JP90 Day 43

Evening routine
-Directional stretches with bundles left and right, 10 circles each way and 25 kegels
-3 x [50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs]
-Wearing a cocking behind the balls to keep blood in there for a couple hours.

Felt really good tonight, was more focused. Less work to maintain EQ. Good expansion, vascularity, and libido is a little better.

Day 2 No Porn. Don't know why I ever gave up on this part, I feel way better without it.

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3-10-15
JP90 Day 44

Before bed

-Directional stretches with 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles
-3 x [50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs]

Squeezed in a quick routine before bed. Pretty sleepy so erections were tougher to maintain but I pushed through. It's important as a newbie to make sure temper expectations and come to terms with the possibility that gains will be slower than you're hoping or imagining. I think the most important days are the ones where you don't feel like doing it as much, and find a way to get your routine done anyway. Like any other physical pursuit consistency is formed by getting through the hard days.

Routine was ok, got decent expansion and blood movement up the shaft to the glans.

Day 3 no porn. No fap today.

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3-11-15
JP90 Day 45 Halfway there!

Before bed

-Directional stretches with 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles
-50 wet jelqs and 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs and 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs and 30 v jelqs

Spent a lot of time waiting for my dick to not be too hard for the v jelqs that's a good sign. PE problems, my dick is too hard...

Vascularity is getting more prominent, doesn't feel a ton bigger yet but I'm not going into this expecting half an inch of girth in three months. It's gonna take forever, but if that's what it takes.

Day 4 no porn

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3-12-15
JP90 Day 46

Before bed

-Directional stretches with 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles (bundled 180 left and right)
-3 x [50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs]

Routine felt ok, I released last night for the first time in like 4 days. Did some cockring edging tonight too, released again. Taking a couple days off, going to my parents' house.

One thing I've noticed is I feel like I lose a little sensitivity right after my routine is over, does anyone else have that?? It's mildly concerning, since I'm wondering if jelqing is pulling in nerves or something.

Day 5 porn free.

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3-13-15
JP90 Day 47

Rest day.

3-14-15
JP90 Day 48

Rest day.
7 days porn free.

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3-15-15
JP90 Day 49

Beware the Ides of March...

-stretches with 25 kegels and 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circles
-3 x [50 wet jelqs and 30 v jelqs]

Felt ok tonight, had to battle a little EQ loss but I focused my mental energy on the sensation and it felt better.

As of tonight I'm officially making it a priority to better channel positive energy into the universe, be more mindful, and to practice living strictly in the moment.

Day 8 no porn.

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3-17-15
JP90 Day 50

Morning routine

-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
-50 wet jelqs; 30 v jelqs
Edged and released for a for minutes after

Didn't have a ton of time this morning, but wanted to squeeze in some PE before work, in case of St Paddy's shenanigans after work.

EQ wasn't bad, fluctuated a lot but responded well to encouragement. Measured it last night before bed and it was 7 3/8 BPEL! It seems really long, but girth won't budge. 40 more days of JP90, then the girth focus begins. Honestly I don't need it to be tooooooooo much longer, but I wouldn't complain if I got to 8" I suppose