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Routine 1-14-15 Before bed

shower warmup
15 min Bathmate, worked slowly up to 190mm on sticker for last 3 minutes
50 jelqs, 30 v-jelqs (was getting too hard to jelq properly, suppose that's a good sign)
edged for 10 minutes, ejaculated

Trying to adapt to condoms a little more by using them to ejacualte into and edge with sometimes, just to get used to using them. As much of a drag as they are, it's better than cooties or babies.

Interview went well yesterday. Stress levels coming down again. Routine felt good, but my nut is intermittently tender still, my dick feels great, gonna take it verrrrryyyyy slow. Flaccid hang is longer consistently which I like, but no real substantial erect gains as of yet. Healthy > Big and broken.

Libido seems normal, even after getting off last night I feel a little horny this morning. Still porn free. Morning wood this AM wasn't there when I woke up, but I got it up very easily and edged for a bit before I showered. Felt rock hard.

Still taking the Five Gs plus arginine, kinda feels a little plumper I guess. It's only been a couple days though. Feels warm when flaccid, which is a good sign I feel like too.

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1-15-15 REST DAY

1-16-15
Morning routine before work:
-15 min Bathmate (re pumps every 5 mins)
-50 jelqs, 30 v-jelqs
-very lightly clamped edging for 5 mins
-50 jelqs, 30 v-jelqs
-very lightly clamped edging for 5 mins
-edged afterwards, ejaculated (unintentionally)

Just experimented with a light clamp for a few minutes today, nothing intense since I know I probably shouldn't go full blown yet until I get more conditioning under me. Clamped up to 5.25" MEG, which felt really cool to edge with. I've never seen my dick that hard before, it was ridiculous.

Ordered an AB Silicone anti-turtling ADS for use in bathmate and during the day. Still porn free, but I'm still having a hard time getting aroused for some reason. I'm patient and I do believe my brain is rewiring from over exposure and years of self pleasuring to it. It sucks, I just wanna be able to get it up effortlessly like I have in the past... I'm styling positive though. Might try a No Fap period for a couple weeks and see if that helps. Advice would be appreciated dudes

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1-17-15

15 min bathmate with a condom. Didn't do a whole lot different
50 jelqs, 30 v-jelqs
5 min light clamped edging
50 v-jelqs

Routine felt ok, but it's just not responding the way I feel like it should after this many weeks. Masturbated this morning, might have affected EQ for my workout, wasn't optimal after I clamped.

Might be time for a TOTAL decon break for like 4 or 5 days. Like no edging or anything. Morning wood and night wood isn't really happening, libido sucks, and I can't keep it up to save my life for some reason. Is that something that would make sense??

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1-19-15

Emotionally a tough day for some reason...
Day 2 out of 5 (at least) of rest. I need to regain some balance mentally and give my little guy a break cause it's a little sore still. I think being on here too much seeing all the stats and pics of guys WAY bigger than me gaining WAY faster than me is getting me down a little, and getting into my head. Comparison is bad, so I gotta take a few days away. I haven't gained really any size yet after like 8 weeks (not a very long time in PE years), but I'm still gonna keep it up and pick up later on this week, easing back in a little easier. Gotta keep the faith.

On a positive note, my FWB came over last night and I had no ED either time we banged, last night or this morning. Even though I didn't last as long as I wanted, it was still awesome, and I just focused on enjoying the moment and letting go of goals, outcomes, and performing and focused more on being present and feeling it instead of thinking about feeling it

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1-25-15

First PE after a layoff. Still got lingering tenderness in my left nut, this is killing me.

10 min warmup/easy pump with Bathmate
Stretching with 10 kegels straight out, sides, up. Circle stretches between each.
25 jelqs/25 v jelqs

Masturbated a few times during this break, just trying to stop obsessing and had reduced ED as a result. I still have a hard time maintaining an erection jelqing for some reason, I'm thinking it's mental. This shit ain't easy...

Gonna keep it very easy going forward, slowly building up the routines, incorporating longer warm ups, and putting away the bathmate for a couple weeks. Just manual work and pelvic floor work.

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1-26-15

~10 minute warmup with a heat pad
Stretches straight out, left, right, up. (10 kegels each 10 circle stretches between each set)
[50 jelqs, 30 v jelqs] X 2
10 minutes edging with a grand finale

I was really horny during the jelqs, so much so I had to wait for my erections to decrease. Routine felt good.

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1-27-15

Blizzard PE Edition. Snow day = awesome chance to get a good routine in!

10 min warmup it's heatpad
Stretches (straight out, left, right, up with 10 kegels each way, with circle stretches)
50 jelqs, 30 v jelqs, 50 jelqs, 30 v jelqs
10 mins edging and to quote mulkey, released some albino mud guppies haha

Routine felt awesome tonight, v jelqs are getting me too hard, I have to stop after 10. Regular jelqs I have to stroke it a little every 10 reps to get it up to 70 EQ, but it's easy. By the end of two rounds of jelqs I was really horny again. This is getting fun again.

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1-28-15

JP90 - Day 3
-20 min warmup
-Stretches straight, left, right, up, down (25 kegels each, 10 clockwise and counterclockwise circle stretches and helicopters between)
-[50 jelqs @ 75% EQ; 30 v jelqs @ 30% EQ] x 3
-10 min warmdown

Felt great!!

Doing what I should have done a few months ago first, a conditioning routine. I jumped straight into PE again cold with pumping as the focus, where I should have done a beginner routine, cause I'm...you know....a beginner. Even after 3 days I feel way better about it, veins are showing up on my flaccid unit, I'm horny as hell, and morning wood is back. I wanted to take a shortcut, but I had to actually make the mistake and skip the important stuff to learn how important it is. Thought I could be different...

I'll incorporate the Bathmate again after no less than a month, but probably more since it wasn't very comfortable for some reason, and I didn't get the magical initial gains (or any substantial ones at all that I could see) that I read about on some of the success story threads...maybe because I skipped conditioning, cut corners, etc. Who knows?

TLDR: skipped the beginner routine, learned my lesson, doing JP90. Learn from my mistake, don't even think about it.

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1-29-15


JP90 day 4
20 min warmup w/ heat pad
Stretches: straight, left, right, up, down. 25 kegels and circle stretches each way.
[50 jelqs; 30 v jelqs] x 3
Cock ring edging for 10 mins, ejacualted
10 min warmdown w/ heat pad

Morning wood this morning, despite blowing my load last night. Seems like it's kinda working! The manual work gets me really horny for some reason.

I like using the EVO as lube too, but I find that the olive oil gets a little sticky for some reason, so I use coconut oil intermittently, which feels wicked good too.

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JP90 does wonders Glad you decided to do it rather than quit the whole thing or just keep pumping.

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Me too I'd read nothing but good things about it, and figured I've got nothing to lose. Worst case I get to play with myself in a new and creative way, and make my guy a little healthier.

Yeah it was weird, the pumping was making my balls hurt for some reason, and it was affecting my EQ mentally. I'll bring it back at a super low intensity as a warm up at first, but with no expectations of gains from that itself. JP90 is ALREADY making it feel better, even after four days.

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My beginning sounds a bit like yours. 2 years ago I didn't study enought of penis enlargement and rushed. I did low erection jelqs which lead to baseball bat shaped dick and after I did those I pumped for a long time with too high pressure in one session. I did 5/2. My penis was beginning to change to darker color and lost morning erections so I just quit the whole thing and said it didn't work. Last year I started to study more and fixed my penis shape a little bit to normal. This year I decided to try this again after reading a lot and this time not rush. I'll be doing at least 10 months of just manual jelgs and stretches after either hanging or I introduce pump again, but this time much less time and lower pressure.

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1-31-15

JP90 Day 6 (morning)
Skipped warm up, was warm from sleeping
Stretches: straight, left, right, up, down. 25 kegels and circle stretches each way.
[50 jelqs; 30 v jelqs] x 3

Was gonna do this one last night but there was a death in the family yesterday, so I wasn't exactly up for a PE routine. Got it done today though. Went surprisingly ok. Took a little extra effort, but needed to take my mind off stuff. Tough times... My first close relative to pass.

Gonna rest for the next day at least, and see how I feel. It's time for a rest day or two I can feel it. No pain, it's just feeling a little fatigued.

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My beginning sounds a bit like yours. 2 years ago I didn't study enought of penis enlargement and rushed. I did low erection jelqs which lead to baseball bat shaped dick and after I did those I pumped for a long time with too high pressure in one session. I did 5/2. My penis was beginning to change to darker color and lost morning erections so I just quit the whole thing and said it didn't work. Last year I started to study more and fixed my penis shape a little bit to normal. This year I decided to try this again after reading a lot and this time not rush. I'll be doing at least 10 months of just manual jelgs and stretches after either hanging or I introduce pump again, but this time much less time and lower pressure.

Glad you stuck it out yourself! It's definitely an exercise in patience and discipline, but like any other worthy hobby you get out what you put in.

I joined here in like 2010, and wasn't exactly motivated properly. I did like a few halfhearted weeks of JP90 and didn't see any gains and gave up, plus I had a girlfriend at the time who I lived with and see her understanding what I was doing or why, so I was stealth and it just plain took too much time. I was running out of excuses. Young and dumb essentially.

Now I'm single, older, more mature, and have tempered my expectations. I'm seeing it work this time around five years later, not necessarily in measurable gains yet, but my unit just feels different, if that makes sense. Plus it's fun as hell! I feel like Ron Swanson in his woodworking shop hahaha

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2-1-15

JP90 Day 7 (night)

Go Pats!!!!

Had a great routine tonight!
-20 min warmup
-stretches
-[50 wet jelqs, 30 v jelqs] x 3
-Cockring edging 10 mins, ejaculated