A Prayer Request

[Party Senior Member Member of the Month August 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Party]

I don’t presume to know Gods will. I just have to have faith in it. Not easy when you see your child in pain a lot of her life. I try to see past it, to her future without pain but apart of me expects the 12th shoe to drop. It always seems too.

[burtybasset Retired Moderator Member of the Month May 2014PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close burtybasset]

Sorry Party. I hope she gets better and quickly too. I think you are handling this situation far better than I would. Love and prayers to your daughter.

[Party Senior Member Member of the Month August 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Party]

Sorry Party. I hope she gets better and quickly too. I think you are handling this situation far better than I would. Love and prayers to your daughter.

Thank you my friend. Actually I’m not doin well at all. Stress. Delusions. Seeing things that aren’t there. Drinking to much. Ugh.

[Dr Nemo Senior Member Member of the Month May 2018 Find all posts View Profile Close Dr Nemo]

I don’t presume to know Gods will. I just have to have faith in it. Not easy when you see your child in pain a lot of her life. I try to see past it, to her future without pain but apart of me expects the 12th shoe to drop. It always seems too.

Exactly. Very well and beautifully said. I don't have children and wish i did; i cannot imagine what it must be like to watch one's child in pain. The word "helpless" comes to mind but even that seems insufficient.








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[Party Senior Member Member of the Month August 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Party]

Ok, round four of six completed. Blood test today. White cell count .90, under 1, damn it. Also hemoglobin count under 8, so 2 units of blood infusion tomorrow. Hope her Nuestra kicks in soon to help with low white cell count. She refuses to wear a mask and won’t stay home from her internship at the church. DAMN she’s a stubborn Lil’ SHIT.

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Down to St Louis again for scans, blood work and follow up with her oncologist. I’m a bachelor again. After her transfusion she was feeling a lot better. Energy level up. She was an ornery pain in the ass the rest of the day. Loved every minute of it.

[Party Senior Member Member of the Month August 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Party]

They are on their way. I know it will be good news. I can’t handle anything else. Been butt naked since they left. Except for the pump of course. Gave the Mrs a multi orgasmic good bye early. She’s tired. The girlie is driving.

Ok. Here we go again. Waiting for the next shoe to drop. And praying it won’t.

I am so losing my mind. I’m not kidding my friends.

[Dr Nemo Senior Member Member of the Month May 2018 Find all posts View Profile Close Dr Nemo]

Just in case?

"No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing." C.S. Lewis, from A Grief Observed

Worth reading whatever happens.....

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Grief_Observed










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[Party Senior Member Member of the Month August 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Party]

I’m not going to grieve yet. No reason to. She’s gonna be ok. I won’t allow anything else. We will always fight. And if worse comes to worse. I’ve already told her. I’ll be at the gates with you to meet Peter.

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I’m not going to grieve yet. No reason to. She’s gonna be ok. I won’t allow anything else. We will always fight. And if worse comes to worse. I’ve already told her. I’ll be at the gates with you to meet Peter.

There's a time to grieve, but premature grief is inappropriate in that it can cause one to give up.

Can you elaborate on what you mean by this a bit? It's hoped you're posting this in the sense of seeing her in the hereafter as opposed to you departing at the same time.

[Norwaydude Senior Member Member of the Month Oct. 2018 Find all posts View Profile Close Norwaydude]

My heart is breaking

[Party Senior Member Member of the Month August 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Party]

So, we are close to the end of this nightmare, God willing. The girlie is in her last week of chemo. I’m with her right now, she’s so sick. She’s sleeping, breathing hard and deeply, worrisome. She’s had a bad day, worse than usual, I couldn’t even get a slight smile from her. Shit. For the life of me I don’t know why this is happening. We are so close to the end and yet. She will never be declared cancer free or in remission. Not with cernovial sarcomas, there’s no complete cure, the best we can hope for is »no evidence of disease « God I love her. Now I got myself crying again

[CUSP82 Administrator Admin of the Month Dec 2014PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close CUSP82]

And God loves her.

[Cavalier Retired Super Moderator Member of the Month Feb 2015PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Cavalier]

She's lucky to have such a great Dad that is there for her through all this. Hang in there.

[Tamora Retired Super Moderator Member of the Month Aug 2015 PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Tamora]

Any time you want to talk Party don't hesitate to do so.

Been there, done that, worn the t-shirt. The end of cycles of chemo is always the worst time as it's compounded in her system. Once the chemo is over she will recover day by day and hopefully fairly quickly.

Be strong.